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I hate when I get inspired to draw something, get everything out and ready, then suddenly no longer have the urge to do anything. This happens quite often with me. I'll go months without drawing anything decent in my sketchbook and then suddenly go through spells of constantly drawing, and easily cranking out picture after picture in a single day and they all be up to par with drawings I spend days finishing. Odd things inspire me, sometimes it's music, sometimes it's other people's art, other times it's nature. Often though it's people I don't even know. When I'm out people watching, I'll see someone stand or move in a certain way and I just have an urge to capture it and make it my own. The only problem with that is when drawing someone who doesn't know they're being drawn, the subject moves all too quickly and then things have to be created from memory and so the details get muddy on the paper. If only I could keep a steady muse, but no, mine has to be fleeting and sporadic.

I'm back home now after having a long weekend of camping for a LARP event. I was very pleased that the fates smiled upon me over the weekend and made most of the days overcast so I could be at my greatest potential and the nights clear and bright with the full moon gleaming overhead.

And with every event that goes on, I come home very tired and my body exhausted and sore though very happy. My legs and back have been tense all day as I went about my normal routine, though hopefully tonight's walk will loosen the muscles.

Today, though I am happy to be home, and had a great time over the weekend, I find a form of sadness. As the great Robin Williams has passed away this morning. He will be greatly missed, for he has touched so many lives with his comedy and caring nature. Thank you for the laughs, and the heartwarming moments. I hope you rest in peace, and may your next big adventure be an amazing one.

So I have an interesting problem when it comes to the headaches I've been having beyond the light and the sound. - Sitting in complete silence drives me mad after a while. It's like I hear nothing yet everything all at once. My mind can't help but work over that... it's odd and intriguing. Well, now that I think about it, I get the same way when I meditate too. I turn out the light in the room, light a candle or two, and just sit with nothing going on and sure at first it's fine. I get to my inner peace and do whatever it is I have to do, and then there's the sound of silence. If I over think it, my brain feels like it wants to explode, yet I can't help but to think about it.



Oh the fun that goes on in my head.



I'll probably ponder more on this later... it's time for some much needed music now....

Insomnia is a real bitch when you actually have something to do during the next set of daylight hours. Normally sleeping or napping through the day and being active and productive at night isn't an issue. -sigh- Hopefully I won't be worn out more than I usually am when I'm forced to be active in daylight.