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Hold me

Bind me

Unwind the strands of sanity right before my eyes.

Hold back my pleading with lace ties.

Screaming for someone to come.

Praying for a new days’ sun.

Wash away this dark pain.

I swear to you that I am sane.

The scars you see are from the night

From a demon I can not fight.

He proves to me that I am weak.

Disrupting, causing restless sleep.

I can not fight. I can not hide.

I’m chained forever to his side.

Bound by blood, lust and hate.

Teardrops fall on chains of fate.

The difficulties of poetry have never touched my finger tips.

The words pour so easily to the paper

Dripping off the tongue, crimson candy cut and flowing.

These ideas just won’t stop coming.

My mind races with thoughts new and old.

Pictures form and turn to sound

The words melt to touch and the race goes on.

Emotions call, gripping tight

Tugging loose curls.

My head aches, a gentle throb.

To write a whole paragraph or cut the letters short

It’s my whim, my decision.

Such power to be mine.

Cast a deathly spell to hypnotize my prey.

Sway and sooth, calm lullaby in your ear as I strike a bite

Fangs pierce skin, cool-aid crash.

My mind soars and stumbles to a new path.

Rhyme by purpose or accident

It matters not.

Mind the I and the other two as well.

Black spikes, flat color drains your face

Pull the plug and your gone, just a puddle left over.

Mush and mold, disgusting thoughts.

Green poison, blue is cooler and a natural too.

Help! I’m lost! The maze continues

Around each corner a new train to ride, smash to shrapnel.

Circles, triangles, pentagons and more!

The tracks link ever on, leading me to abyss.

Afterlife seems so close.

Cold hands reach to touch but only brush the silky cloth

So cool and soft, welcome in, enjoy the stay

But will these train wrecks die as well?

Black lace and red satin flows without end.

The shadows crawl and writhe in protest.

Tap, wrap, suicide survivor.

It’s a fun trick to play if you know the game.

Play with me, shuffle and walk slow too.

To easily ended, the calls cut short.

Drip again, a window pane is dry today.

Bang and scream, make some noise.

Prove you’re alive any way you can.

Bleeding is never enough anymore.

Crying proves you’re human, the race is dead.

The finish line so close too! Within reach but just a bit too far.

To trip before the finish and know everyone saw it

This is the way we end.

Call a friend and rant, chant, score.

Night brings peace to those who sleep.

Forever me calls my mind to come back

Lost voice amongst the walls.

It never makes sense anymore, just a mumble above the rest.

Crack my skull softly, spilling letters to the floor.

Alphabets with blood, metallic taste for breakfast.

Make it stop! I’m in too deep.

No tricks work anymore, I’ve wandered too far this time.

So sit for a quick break, shake.

Words splashing off the split ends drop.

Close eyes and see.

Within the maze I live knowing the exit is too far but just in reach.

Finger tips brush the edge, reaching for what’s lost

Pain subsides…

Giving up I pull back with this jumbled mess

To decode for people, to decipher for minds.

Maybe not this time.

Words twist and bend, stand tall and squat.

Happy Wanderings to the Lost.

I greet and cheat in such simple ways.

Hazy eyes catch small hints

Invisible to your seeing spots.

Perhaps it’s best this way.

Inside I cool and clear well known.

The way is locked and you haven’t a key.

I watch you there

Sit

Stare

In that chair



Do you see

What’s hurting you

It’s killing me



A reflection of painted tears

Tends to fade over years



I won’t protect you

Not anymore

I’m done practicing the daily chore



You life I can no longer hold

This world is cold

This world is cruel

So I have become too



Don’t you cry, not to me

You created this monster you now see



Your helplessness is so evident now my dear

Yours truly, the reflection in the mirror.

You would think people would flock

To the sounds of a scream.

But you’re wrong.

It’s not like when there’s a fire

Or some other disaster

And a crowd walks up slowly.

Like zombies they are.

No, not like that.

Sure, if you shout out in a hall some will turn

Out of curiosity.

But what of care?

I know,

I know they flee from a real scream.

You could try it.

Stand out somewhere

Let the vibrations tear at your throat till it burns

And your breath shudders

You might be lucky

(Or unlucky as it were)

And someone may come

But not a crowd.

And you know more then that heard your calling and crying.

But where are they?”

It could be fear that holds them back,

Behind the yellow flowered curtains.

Or maybe they have the volume up to the max

Drowning out your pleas for help.

Or even some may not believe you are really in danger,

Or in need of help.

(They are not entirely wrong)

Some may even assume others will step in.

You claim you would rush to see

And help a scream

But will you?

Just remember this,

The next time your throat itches to strike that sound.

Remember how little a scream does anymore.

How little it means.

Secrets scream in cold white ink

It pours so perfectly

Unlike the stabbing agonizing way that you cling to me

I’d kill myself before I’d let you have me dear.

This riddle is my lie.

How can you turn your face away when it’s your blood that I cry?



I could not vomit up enough love for you

I dare you, demand more from me.

One day I’ll tear my eyes out and listen in peace as you scream.

I’m not the cold one laughing,

Laughing in my heart spun grave.

If this cut be not my last breath I’ll curse you endlessly.



Why can’t you just bury me out?

We both already know

I see you dreaming it while I drown in heat.

This death you’ve planned since birth.

So quickly love

I dare you dear

Kill me softly

If you can.

I will be the final test.

Kill me softly

Kill me sweet

Lover die listening to my peaceful screams.

I’d like to stay a secret, like walking in the dark… if no one can see me, then no one can break my heart.

I die a little inside, I die a little out. These pieces just keep falling and I can’t find my way out.

Don’t call me over for lunch or ask me out to tea. My soul belongs to darkness and you can not rescue me.

You wonder how I live, surviving every day. Alone up in my room the sky is always grey.

Do not try to find me, we can never be. If you will do a single thing, please don’t rescue me.

My eyes have grown to darkness and the sun, it burns my skin. The ways of the world of light I can never see again.

But don’t worry sweet love, not all is lost. For in the twilight hours is when we may talk.

If it’s words you desire then I will give. But do not expect more of me dear one, this is how I live.

I am the whispers in the night, the shadows on your wall. Do not seek to find me and please, please, most of all.

Do not get me rescued. I have sold my soul to night and can no longer love my angel. I have given up my fight.

So live a life for two and do not seek me out. This part of you, you must let go if you’re to figure out.

The meaning hidden in the stars and every moon lit bloom. If we don’t accept our tragic fate we will succumb to doom.

If I slipped from this dream

And out of your open arms

Where would I land my love?



Surely not in your heart,

For it is never there



Or in my own beating life source

Because you’ve stolen that as well.



But something small and oh so blue,

A crystalline drop meant only for you.



That tear is my cage,

Falling forgotten to the dust,

And all that’s left of me is salty tear crust.

I’ll wait here forever if I really must.

I’ll wait here for you to burn all my trust.

Here I stay patient until I need move.

The silver in hand will polish the grove.

I’ve planned it so perfect and you will agree.

Smiling stained face lights up the TV.

Passerby’s shriek as death fills the air.

Of their reactions, I really don’t care.

I will wait forever in my suicide hall.

Dressed as a princess attending a ball.

My crown is of ice, just like your heart.

The tree tops bend over to form perfect arch.

The stream underneath will trickle with glee

As it fills with warm liquid dripping from me.

I’ll lay down to rest on that one lonely stone.

Waiting so perfectly to die here alone.

Poke prick stick

Fingers quick



Thread the eye

Buzz of fly



Pulling tight

Afraid of flight



Push back through

Straight and true



Stitch by stitch

Cut and switch



Hours pass

Made to last



Done the end

Show a friend



Fingers rest

I passed the test.

The pieces run together like beads on a string.

Each makes up the whole but are solitary things.

Each time of day’s a scene and places are the stage.

It varies now and then but is usually the same.

The classes are a mini world and the hallways separate too.

The company’s my fellow actors who never have a clue.

I break it down scene by scene and line them in a row.

The pattern going on and on, it always seems to grow.

And shuffling them I seem to find a simpletons mistake.

Yet here I spy a few bad days to make my record shake.

Orders, pairs, patterns, lines always seem defined.

How can I step out of my self restricting lines?

Turning things around is no problem I have.

Especially when things are looking pretty drab.

But also I seem to find myself repeating once again.

It’s like this masquerade has become my only friend.

It’s the only truth I seem to find in my dreary days.

Sometimes life just passes me by in a misty haze.

I get bored some days with this endless routine.

As if my life has become a bloodthirsty fiend.

It controls my daily life. I’m a puppet on his string.

His sharpened smile greets me in every morning.

Leading me around, he finds a simple task.

I do as he wishes, without thinking to ask.

Trapped inside my own world I’ve created a monster.

But there is no hero waiting for the chance to stir.

I’ve gone too far this time to come out again.

It seems to me this round I have lost to the demon.

I’ll let go this time and crash reality.

The feeling sinking in like the sting of a bee.

Slowly it spreads up to my limbs and my thoughts.

Succumbing to the feeling my breath remains caught.

The waters droplets form underneath my eyes.

How could I have buried myself in so many lies?

Then as soon as it comes it’s gone in a flash.

Only leaving burning cheeks and the taste of ash.

Back I slip so brainlessly to this adults play.

Forcing out my smile for just another day.

There’s a secret world behind the glass.

Which few see and fewer ask.

What is behind the looking glass?

Mirror, mirror on shattered wall?

Life is not fair at all.

I have seen this world of sharpened sand.

And if you truly which to know

Ask.

I can not tell but only show.

The secrets of the world below.

So if you truly wish to know

I will pull and push. Strain and train

So you may find your world, of sharpened sand

Beneath the sky above the ground.

Touch the sounds in your world.

Your secret world behind the glass.

Through which I can not pass.

I look at you and know

I’ll never understand

But is it still wrong

To want to hold your hand?



To see a pain like this

And just walk on by

Just attempting this

And I begin to cry.



This Pisces girl can see

Through your stern green eyes

And I read between

Your every single lie



You push me back so hard

But not enough to hurt

I’m only thinking of

The way your mind works



I know that you are trying

To still protect me

Is that why you can’t see

It’s my help that you need.



Seeking it subconsciously

I know you will deny

But trust me on this matter

That heartbeat never lies.



It’s cry is so much louder

Then you can admit

Such a sound I don’t think

I ever will forget



So let me come a little close

And touch a bit of pain

I can not help you if

You keep treating me this way.



Let down that wall of sand

I promise it’s alright

Seeing you so calm

Is just a charming sight



I’ll heal you from the inside out

It’s the least that I can do.

Some say that you don’t have a heart.

I say, you now have two.

Heaven, Hell, the wings are torn

Look down on me with vengeful scorn

Bat like feathers do not exist

As proven by the slashed up wrists

Tears are ash and but blood still red

The whispering demons circle my head

Telling me what lies beyond

Twisting me in their devil song

Of paradise I get one last glance

Wondering if I stood a chance

Blacken flames leave cursed scars

Maybe the choice is never ours.

I’m standing at the frozen gates

Golden lights between the grates

Heavens shine lights up my tears

Illuminating all my fears

In my hand a one way pass

Telling me this breath’s my last

Taking one last step it’s my turn to die

I just wish I could have said good bye.

Whispers on the wind call to me

“Why are you saddened little angel?”

Looking up to the sun in tears

I watch the tension build and snap over years

It hurts to watch it end

To know I’ll continue on

Please don’t leave me here

Too soon you will be gone

I’ll watch your eyes close

Hold you to me tight

The tears are bound to flow

And I’ll hurt myself again

Please don’t leave me alone

Take me where you go

My years are just a prison

And no one has a key

I hurt too much to cry

It’s almost turned me numb

But then I find someone who cares

Who wipes my eyes.

They invite me into the light

And I’m drawn in like a moth

Only to be burnt again

Again, it happens over and over

I just want this all to end.

Call it a gift for it can’t be revenge

You’re not the one that pushed me over the edge.

I’ll eat your thoughts starting with that scream

Digest living flesh and vomit up dreams.

I turned to a demon unwillingly

But deny that’s what you wanted of me.

I don’t want your soul, it’s bitter, un-sweet.

Even after you’re dead it won’t be defeat.

You’ll torment me even after you’re gone

All that is left is a sullen dead song.

You made me do this. Me, you did curse.

Spoken in silence and so little words.

A hypnotized dreamer, an angel un-spun.

This is precisely what I have become.

Cry for me dear, as I burn your last bone.

Cry for me now, cause you’ve left me alone.

Although your hands were nailed to my floor.

Your soul went and flew right out the door.

It whispered black sickness into my head.

So now I’ll consume you until I am dead.

Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary

Had a baby born still cold

She raised it till ‘twas nine days old.



Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary

Calling you is not a game

For your wrath is like your name.



Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary

I call you here within this mirror

I call you without any fear.



Bloody Mary,

Bloody Mary,

Bloody Mary...

Bending over side ways in a twisted bow

Muting secrets I’d never tell yet I fear you know.

Kill me twice to seal and learn the lesson taught

Matters plagued and plundered into unconscious thought.

I’ll forever fear me but strangely never you

I’d rather kill myself then believe it could be true.

Test me into tormented dreams from which I’ll never wake.

For it to ever work, my life I’d have to take.