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11:30 Aug 28 2007
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Not feeling well these days. *Insert--possible new form of self-destruction cycle noted* It's not as messy as cutting, but just as effective. I keep forgetting to take my meds. Depression is overcoming me again.



Been trying to delve into what I enjoy to pull myself out. But even that seems to be lacking its luster the past two days.



Looking into my crystal ball I see in my future another possible stay at the hotel Looney. *Rolls eyes* No fun at all.



A friend of mine on MySpace--not sure if I should call her that, though--has emailed and left me offline IM's that she needs the president of her fanclub back. Seems to me she only takes interest in me when she wants or needs something. I'm about to write off that entire relationship altogether.



Not saying I won't continue with my obligations to her fanclub, until I might can find a replacement. But, as far as the friendship, I think it's obvious there is none.



I'm just tired. Ok, I'm not even goin into this and sink even lower than I already am. I need to come out of this, not beat myself down further. Fuck myspace...fuck false friendships... to heck with all of it. I'm here for me. I like it here, so I'm staying. I'm surrounding myself with new friends, some that understand where I've been and where I'm coming from.



Metaphor-->Now, if I can just hang on until tomorrow...

Just a ramble
12:49 Aug 25 2007
Times Read: 657


I slept like a rock last night. I normally don't do that. And I slept all night long, which I also normally don't do. I'm nocturnal, so sleeping all night meant I was worn out.



I love so many of the profiles on this site. Most of them are very creative. But some I haven't been able to load with dialup and those are the ones I really wanna see.



Like BeshadowedChild ~ I don't know what this person has on their profile, but I've been waiting an hour for it to load. Yeah, I'm tenacious at times. And I'll keep trying to get there. Note: Mission accomplished today--August 28, 2007-- Now, tell me I'm not stubborn...hehehe....



Another was Drak47 ~ Mission accomplished ~ Today... *Snickers*





I'm not gonna name all of them, but there have been a few. I'll keep trying until I get it right... LOL... I'm just stubborn like that. hehehe....



I've met some very wonderful people on this site. I can't wait to see what will happen next. I know it's just a site, but it's brought some excitement into my otherwise dull and dreary life. LOL



Hope all of you have a nice weekend



Yours truly,

Billy

aka

The WindStormy

Well, Dayum....
04:51 Aug 19 2007
Times Read: 691

I've reached my daily msg thingy and can't send anymore...



*Pouts and rubs stinging eyes*



Wow, I've gotte 12 bites today... Think I have enough blood for a few more??? *Grins*



Love all the bites, y'all.... Thx......