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Dear Life,

Take away all the things inside of me that make me feel bad. Take the things away that make me feel sad. My dear Life can you rewrite the past? Can you make it so this never happend? Life do all you can so i can be happy. Please help me with all that I see and do. Life were have you been? Why were you not there? Were you hidding as i dealt with this world alone? Will you be here for me now? Now i really need your help.

Dear Life please take away all the things inside of me that make me feel so bad.

When you said you loved me

did you really mean it or

was it to make me smile?

When you said you cared

did you really mean it or

was it to make me happy?

When you said you'd be there

was it to maek me stay or

was it just a lie?



I though you said you cared but

were are you now?

I though you said you loved me

so why are you breakin my heart?

I though you said you would be there

but were are you now?



I new it was all lie!

The tears run like the rain

As i put the knife under my skin,

All i want is for the pain to end

I cant keep going on,

The blood pours from the cut

and the pain slips away.



This is my last goodbye

Goodbye to the times i cried,

Goodbye to my friends i left with a hole

Goodbye to the ones i love

And the ones i hate

Because tonight ill plan my escape!



I sit and watch the candle drip

As i take deaths cold hand,

he pulls me to him and take me away

I drift to a place were there is no pain.

Were you ashamed of me

when i walked you home?

Were you ashamed of me

as i kissed you goodbye?

Were you like this with all the others

or was it just with me?

Are you ashamed of how you felt

and how i loved you to?

Were you scared to show how u felt

as we walked down the road?

did you care how everyone stared

when they saw you in my arms?

Did you not care when you broke my heart?

You tore my heart in too!

Now you say you want me back?

Im fucked up all over again,

But this time will you b ashamed

ashamed of me?

i think this is the best one i have done when i stopd writting it i new i didnt have to add to it. it was great just how it was.





Let the fire die out

just like my life.

Let the smoke blow away

as my soul disapers.

Let the dark take over

as evil consumes me.

Let the sun fade away

as my heart is killed.

Let me be lost forever

like the secrets of this world.

Let me be hidden in the world

that was destroyed.

Let me be killed

in the way evil should.



Let the torture of this world

take over me.

Let the fear and pain

invade my peace.

Let evil keep me strong,

Let the light fade away

as darkness take over.

Let the world be how it begun.



Let the angels cry out from heaven

Let the pain of the devil be seen.

Let the angels burn in there ashes

Let evil rise again.

Let me be the bearer of pain

Let me be the bearer of hurt.

Let you be the bit of hope

that everyone wishes there was.

For now my box is opened

you see the monster you carved to see.

Now im out to bear it all on the world

to show you how the world can really be.



Let night be day

Let time be free.

Let the devil bring riots

Let me see you flee.

Let me show you

your lives were not ment to be.

Your read this and i will be gone

I will be waiting at hells gates.

Your see me there a bloodless corpes

The cuts on my wrist,

the blood on the floor,

the stench of death in my room.



As i lie coverd in blood

you stand there not a tear will fall,

You stare at the corpes you used to no

a friend a bother/sister you loved so much.



Now im gone you should not care

my soul to the devil,

my new world hell.



Do not cry for me

I can't see you

Do not call for me

I can't hear you.



Just leave me

LIKE I LEFT YOU!

When i wake up i wounder why im still here

when theres nothing left for me.

I hate the way i live

i hate the life that lies before me.

I no whats going on and i want

to bring it to an end.



So as i lay down my head

i take the pills put the note next to me

and get ready for death.

he sleeps in my room ready to take me

i take his hand a smile on my face.

i lay six feet under

forever my new place.

Just maybe i wont wake up tomorrow

Just maybe ill be happy,

Just maybe you might be sad

Just maybe you can live.



Just maybe life will end

Just maybe i will die,

Just maybe you could have helped

Just maybe you tryed.



Just maybe ill go

Just maybe ill leave,

Just maybe your wish you said something

Just maybe your pray ill wake.



Tomorrow i wont wake up

Tomorrow ill be happy,

Tomorrow you might cry

Tomorrow you can LIVE.

(This one i wrote for my sister she means everything to me the closes person in my family theonly one i can talk to she moved away and now i dnt see her much:( )





I have known you for as long as i remember

you are a part of me and im a part of you,

When you left a big part of my left too

and ive never been the same.

I no it has'nt been ages but it seems like years

I miss you more and more everyday.

We had are ups and downs but everyone does

and now your so far out of touch.

I wish i told you everyday that i loved you.

I wish that everyday we spent together

i gave you one big hug so you knew it was true.

Now i never see you

A part of me brakes away

A part of me is dying

The part i have of you.

Its slowly disapearing as you are to

i miss you alot and wish you were near.

I wish i could relive those last few years

I would have told you i cared and how i felt

and maybe then i could deal with what as dealt.

Your never really no who much i really miss you and how much i love you still

When i look around this room

I see the walls that hold my throughts,

walls that have seen things that no one else has seen

My dreams that i have dreamt

My tears that i have cried,

The lies i have said

time after time.



These walls will never tell

but these walls have keep

all this inside,

Now i want to brake

brake this walls down,

but when i try all i see

is the tears the lies and dreams

that have died.



The tears i have cried

are running me dry,

the dreams ive dreamt

replaying in my mind,

the lies i have said

im starting to belive,

the more i try to hide the more i lie.



These walls build with each dream

each tear i cry a wall spiles

each lie i tell a wall erupets,

I want to brake these walls

so i can face the world

but im traped in this room.



Let me brake free

brake from this room,

btu these walls are closing in

im gettting lost inside,

pictures are flashing

before my eyes,

words are repeting

in my mind.



These walls are closing in

Its starting to drive me mad,

As i paces this room

this room with no doors,

this room is closing in

This room im lost in forever,

This room with no escape,

This room inside

my head.

This lonelyness is taken over me

driving me mad,

pushing me to the end

of this life i dont have.



The coldness creeps in

like the touch of death,

freezing my life

my heart

i hope it wont tear me apart.



My life is falling around me

crashes and dies,

life has ended

how i no it.



Im now lying in shit

with people walking all over me,

wishing i was strong

not let my life fall apart.



My world has gone

my life has slipped away

This is my end.