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I dream of him often and wonder if he truly exists, I wonder if by some chance, maybe I’ve already found him, I hold a desire for him, a desire stronger than any I’ve ever experienced…. I day dream of him as well, I see him waiting for me by the auditorium at school, I see him at the theater with me helping me defeat the broken feelings toward my ex. I’ve questioned myself for years, and still have yet to develop an answer to my question, “is he real? Or merely a figment of my imagination?” Is he a thought up character that I see as “The one” the perfect being I see myself spending the rest of my life with? Does that make me crazy then, for waiting around on him to come to me?



If I have found him, the one I believe it to be told me he has a fiancé, How can I claim him mine if he’s already taken? How can he be there for me, if he already has someone to be there for? Maybe it’s a sign, that the perfect one will never come around, maybe I’m not meant to have him in this life time. If that’s so, then will I find true happiness in this life-time? The dreams I have of him I wish would never end, I wish I would never wake from them, He’s so perfect, I never get tired of seeing him, I wish for once I could know the feeling of being in his arms, I wish I could cuddle up to his side and fall asleep in his arms, I wish I knew the feeling of his lips upon mine…. I desire him like no other, with him my thirst for his presence can never be quenched, my desire for his touch, for his protection, is never ending, I just cant get enough, He’s the other half of my circle and I need him like we need gravity to stay on earth, and need him like we need oxygen to stay alive, In my reality, he’s the gravity that keeps me here, and the oxygen that keeps me alive, he’s that hand that helps me up when I fall, and that reassuring smile that keeps me going through the day, he’s the night to my day, and the stars that light my way…. He’s my other, and I need him more than anything,… I love him, and I can say it proudly without any doubts or concerns… I just wish he was here with me, so he could hear me say it. I don’t want to only be able to see him through dreams, I want him to be there, even when I don’t want anyone around, I want him there with me…..



Now that I’ve thought more about it over the past year, my feelings have grown, and I find myself waiting on someone, who might not even exist. A stupid mistake maybe, but I’m willing to wait for him, and as the years go by and I start to question my sanity, I’ll still wait, because he completes me, he balances me out, like yin and yang (%) -_- I wish and hope that someday I will get to see him, at least that, at least know that he’s real, and that I’m NOT crazy.



Love is strange, love is hurtful, love can be nothing but good memories and sweet dreams….. Love is everything, Love is absolutely nothing,…. Maybe mine is just good memories and sweet dreams, but I hope, and pray that its more than just that…..

When I read a book I always wonder if love stories like that actually exsist, and if it does, will I ever find something like that. I know Im young, but I crave that type of love, the impossible, I always envy them, what I'd give to feel such a thing towards someone....



One day I'll find someone, but untill then... I'm left to wonder.....