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Sometimes I wonder why we worry & care about tha people who hurt us tha most. Even when you tell everyone your gonna forget, it's so hard to actually do. There are so many questions that run through my mind each day..why did you hurt me after all those years? How could you look me in tha eyes with tears streaming down my face & say you wasn't cheating on me? You not talking to me I believe I could cope with easier, but you saying you did nothing, but waste so many years with me is what stings tha most. At one point & time things seemed almost perfect, we were happy together. Then someone had to come & mess it up, like always. Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy. People tell me that I'm stronger than they could ever be about this, because I use to sit there & watch you & tha one who took you from me together. I guess I was trying to hurt myself even more so I would become numb. I know I should hate you, should wanna rip your head off, but I can't help but still love you. You have changed so much, but you don't see it. Even family members have told me they see tha change. *sigh* I just don't know anymore. I don't wanna care.

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NellMorgan
18:48 Sep 21 2012

Hugs. I've been there.

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Tired of tha bullshit that comes along with people who lie & cheat. Really wish I could find someone who is going to treat me right & won't lie or cheat on me. I'm talking to a very beautiful woman & I wanna get to know her, because she seems like an honest person & I don't believe she would cheat.