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"Savage Lands"

17:29 Dec 19 2009
Times Read: 530


As I sit, I watch a hawk, gorge upon some mice. As I think, pressure builds, crushing, like a vice.

I'm worried, scared, overcome, filled so full of doubt. I think I might just run away... wants, of getting out.



Pain is such a weak word, it's not enough to show the hurt.

Oh, haven't you heard? They cut themselves, to watch it squirt.



Blood is pouring; heavy rain. Just to take away the pain.

Scars, are boring; skin's apart. Please don't open up your heart.



So you think you know your friend? Just a means; to an end.

Give your heart, and watch it rend. Then they drop it, like a trend.



I'm glad that I've been shredded. I'm glad my innards grind.

The things that I have dreaded. These things were in my mind.



All this pain can be ignored. As the wounds, from a sword.

It doesn't mean that you won't fall, as your heart begins to stall.



Hit the ground, without a sound, sadly, noone is around.

Do you think that you'll be found, with your face, upon the mound?



Faces touch each other, gently. Oh, their thoughts work so differently.

Kissing, sucking, so intently. She leaves him now, incidentally.



Blood pools softly, at my feet. They walk slowly, down the street.

Guts hang loosely, from my hands. Ruthless brutes, savage lands...



Tired eyes watch dreams in bed, just like a theater.

Now, I lay, my tired head. Sleep my vindicator.


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"Hypocrisy"

11:34 Dec 16 2009
Times Read: 554


Most know not, of loneliness, all that they can do, is guess.

To be alone, it rots your soul; so, you're stuck, not being whole.

The ones you love, they'll be around, but, there is a deep surround,

it's the darkness, from inside, killing me, like pesticide.



At times, the blankness of my mind. It puts me in a bind. Makes it known,

just how blind; do you think I am? That one last lie, inside my head. Dirty little scam;

artists, like to draw, and paint, and write, and find each flaw. Like the ones who found

their flaws; ripping through them, eating of them, picking, poking, with their claws.



"Why can't people just accept?"

"Why," I cry, "Must we lie?"

"Secret's to be kept."



"Lie?"

"Die!"



"Why cry?"

"Patience is in short supply,"



"Please don't cry, you'll make me lie,"

"If you lie, you'll surely die!"



"What am I supposed to do?"

"Lie until your face turns blue,"



"And you sir, how bout you?"

"I'm the Nazi, you're the Jew,"



One man, can kill a million, and another, kill a billion.

Hitler didn't kill a billion, cigarettes, they kill a million;

each and every day, and still, smokers, they all pay.

Pay a billion bucks a day, just to keep the pain away.



It's quite funny, don't you know? Dying children, in the snow.

Each and every Eskimo, they all know, where men go;

deep into the dirt, after all their blood does squirt;

trudging through the snow, crimson rivers start to flow.



Most have never seen their blood. Flowing freely, like a flood.

Bullets do that, can't you see? All this inhumanity.

Lying face-down, in the mud, then it hits me, with a thud.

Men are killing, in a spree. To be free. Hypocrisy.


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"Fade"

09:08 Dec 16 2009
Times Read: 560


I look at the world around me.

Doubts and pains surround me.



Oh I wish that you could see.

The things so deep inside of me.



The things that I regret.

They have still to haunt me yet.



I don’t think, or feel… I know.

I am the lowest of the low.



Deep inside a beast does lurk.

It tends to surface when I shirk.

Writes a smirk, with a dirk.

With the dirk, it starts to jerk.



Cutting ribbons of my face.

And the floor, my blood does grace.



Sadly, weak, and humbled down.

I look above, up to the crown.

My head then breaks upon the ground.

No longer do I hear the sound.



The sound of lies, deceit, and pain.

No longer does this pain engrain.

Burrow deep inside my brain.

Without the pain, there is no gain.



From time to time I kneel and pray.

I pray for faith, and that one day.

One day none will have to pay.

Pay for this most evil way.



I know not, now what to do.

Oh the waters are so blue.



Oh so blue and deep.

And when I drown,

So deep down,

My secrets will they keep.



Forever have I loved you.

I just can’t remember.

Drawings that we drew.

Deep in late November.



The bed was soft, and so were you.

You slowly then, took off my shoe.

Both of them, just the two.

Then upon my neck you blew.



You blew love into my nose.

Then, right then, my heartbeat rose.

And we entered passions throes.

Now, we are but bitter foes…



I wish that I could change the world.

That my thoughts could be unfurled.

Without the risk of being killed.

Oh, then I would be fulfilled.



Sadly it is not this way…

Upon this bed, I die today.

Now the world, it starts to gray.

And from life I fade away.


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"World's End"

08:46 Dec 16 2009
Times Read: 561


The world falls down around us, slowly.

Deep inside your heart, please show me.



I want to be so close, it's true.

I want to be so close, to you.



I'm sorry for the things I've done.

Claimed my love, turned and run.



I know the world can see me.

It sees that I am sorry.



Sorry for the hurt I've caused.

Sorry for the wounds un-gauzed.

Sorry for my faith that's broken.

Sorry for no simple token.



Faux-paux love, and Preacher's lies.

Heart so full of hate, despise.

The time is close, our world's demise.

Won't you open up your eyes?



It is now, no longer we...

Or she, or you, or him, or me.

Confused, and trapped, must we all be?

It seems we're free.

Now, turn and flee.


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"Tears, and Mars"

08:43 Dec 16 2009
Times Read: 563


"Tears, and Mars,"



It's not easy, you know?

To say how you feel.

Not easy to show,

the things that are real.



What is the value,

of few simple words?

From a heart to a heart,

like chirpings of birds.



How can we show,

the things that we hide?

Giving a blow,

to some other's pride.



To who can we turn,

when we're all alone?

Back full of bruises,

twisted and blown.



Where can I hide?

Stuck in the dark...

falling apart,

given this mark.



Can one ever know,

deep down in their heart...

another's true life,

without breaking apart?



It's sad to say,

I think it's true,

I've come undone,

just like a glue.



Tattered paper,

shattered minds,

feelings taper,

matter binds.



Crushed, my feelings,

but I've healed,

subtle dealings,

wounds I wield.



Proudly, now,

I show my scars,

life and death,

tears, and mars.


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"The Rose"

08:41 Dec 16 2009
Times Read: 565


"The Rose,"



Walking slowly,

with a rose,

noone knows, just where it goes.



Faulty mecha kill mankind,

loudly screaming metals grind.

Flaming bones, they burst and blow,

trees and poles all in a row.



Birds and Bees, and Cats in Trees,

men and women, on their knees.



There are so many times, that we all can see.

The pain so deep inside, the World has caused to be.

There are so many times, that we all can know.

The damage that the World can't hide, the damage it can show.



But the fact, it still remains, that through the hurts and fears and pains.

Hardest, coldest, snows and rains. Melting rocks and candy canes.



Love's the only answer,

so,

as I slowly walk the row.

I mourn at how she'll never grow,

and drop the rose upon her bow.


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foreveranangelicvampire
foreveranangelicvampire
09:13 Jun 18 2010

A rose hidden in a place



no witnesses



blood red upon black petals



Love is the hidden lie





 

"Sorrows and Tears of the Heart"

08:37 Dec 16 2009
Times Read: 566


"Sorrows and Tears of the Heart,"



i lay now, naked, wasted. Oh, how dreams those bitter tasted.

Falling in and through my mind, crashing diamond in my spine.

i die and fell and crie and love, flying, smiling, wounded, dove.

Heartfelt sepulchres hurt those unclose, dark prose, black rose, death throes, mind blows.

Flaming cold, freezing heat, for broken hearts, it can't be beat.

The suns' warm cloudings, a birdly butterflies beatings and doubtings.

Tricks for cards, and kids for kicks, where noses are for flicks and picks.

Lust and pain, sex and hugs, drugs are wonders, just like bugs.

My bleeding heart is in my veins, they swell and hurt with anger pains.

Crying fallus, no more palace, souls are fallen from their ballast.

Gods cry earth from up and down, breaking men who stand their ground.

Cursed somnium, dreamed testament.

Fat too much, breasts and such.

Dry my blood and bleed me dry, burn your lungs and then smoke high.

Quit it all. Mind. But. Blur. Throat swells cut. Tears. For. Her.

Chest... and face... and arms... and true. Crushed, and dead. All. For. You.



Sincerely,

Sorrows and Tears of the Heart


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foreveranangelicvampire
foreveranangelicvampire
09:10 Jun 18 2010

how sad








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