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Once in everyone life they wish to be loved the story book way, to be swept off your feet by cinderella or prince charming. What price do we pay for this and how long does the fairy tell last? Is it a eternity of love everlasting, I felt it but unfortunately it wasn't true for both sides It was hurtfull and deceitfull and unforgiving.



I hope someday I do feel true love whatever it is now I just feel hate and fear and lonliness.

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Angelus
22:50 May 25 2009

used to think the same.. and, after 17 years am ready to try again.

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Some think when the heart dies your life starts new and fresh, I'm still waiting, But this is a theory I believe. More a oxy moron statement made by somebody who never did have a broken heart You have no clue what your in for. For starters make sure thats what you want to do give your heart to someone, be very sure think about this all the aspects of it not just what makes you feel good that is all temporary you want the big picture don't you a life eternal. Then be sure you know what your getting into don't settle for lust or just a friendship you want all of it. Time doesn't heal either it makes you harder and more retentive of your feeling, less likely to share if you don't know what that meant, I am even having trouble loving my own children it hurts i feel sick by hugging them or showing emotion at all.

Life is so up and down many people think they can hurt you mentally , that only works if you let them, But the physical pain goes away it leaves scars. I have been threatened in many ways and devasted in many ways. Demoralized raped beaten and brutalized and live through it I will not be a victom but the scars are deep I am carring a scar deep in my womb from the last personal attack not sure what to do, I asked god to rid me of this seed but I think he is laughing at me, the abuser has threatened my life so now I don't sleep when does the psychotic episode happen it has beeen since the 13th of may, I almost stabbed myself last nite when I jumped up all of a sudden its so nice to be alone to fend for yourself . I asked for help I did all the legal drama but they gave me a hearing date lets see if I survive. I am truely alone hopefully I will live to tell the seed about it who knows I am leaving eveything to my children anyways. I hope someone hears me with this weak cry for help. the law does nothing and I am alone.