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had to run away this morning at 5 am. my man started hittin me again I just wanted some affection and he blew up. my birthday is tonight at midnight an something bad always happens on my birthday. I'm waiting to see if he'll even miss e if he wakes up and at the same time I don't want to go home, everyone tells me to leave him but that's easier said than done. I just want to be happy and that s what I'm trying to do today. hang out with friends If anyone even wants to hang out.

today was interesting, I worked 9 hours on onlu 2 hours of sleep. my body hurts and is covered in sunburn and bruises. my work made me feel calm and motivated I'm glad I didn't call in. a guy came thro my line and said that god loved me and that hes proud of me. I told him he was going to make me cry lol my husband tried to work things out with me but idont trust him to follow through with what he says. I'm just concentrating on myself. I wonder if ill ever get the relationship I was looking for. im ready to go to bed now and get some real rest. I visited my best friend after work and had a good time joking arounf with her son. maybe life isn't always dark as it seems to be

I just wanted to be loved tonight I always have to force him to have sex with me and I feel so ugly and suicidal. he promised hed love me tonight and he didn't hed rather sit on the couch and keep me up waiting for him...and him never coming. I confronted him on lying to me and he pushed me than started hitting me. when I bang my head against the wall he calls me crazy aand says I need help. I don't know what to do . the only time I want to die is when I'm with him. but I cant imagine living without him either

I just wanted to be loved tonight I always have to force him to have sex with me and I feel so ugly and suicidal. he promised hed love me tonight and he didn't hed rather sit on the couch and keep me up waiting for him...and him never coming. I confronted him on lying to me and he pushed me than started hitting me. when I bang my head against the wall he calls me crazy aand says I need help. I don't know what to do . the only time I want to die is when I'm with him. but I cant imagine living without him either

I hve dealt with it all my life its even worse now. my husband doesn't care if I ended my life. he makes fun of me or he calls the cops. he doesn't sit down and listen to me, today was so beautiful out and no one wanted to hang out today all I wanted was to go to the beach my husband knew this but refused to spend one hour with me doing what I want instead he invited a bunch of people over and ignored me I ran out of the house and threatened to jump in front of a car if he didn't come save me, he just sat on the couch not caring and it made me cry .this has happened more than once. idk if I'm crazy but I just want him to care. he'll never care... he used to when we first met we had such chemistry but now he makes me feel worthless and crazy. I just want to be happy and I just want some of my friends to remember me and spend time with me

dear god, I'm really scared. I don't know what to do I need help with money. jd is scaring me he makes me feel helpless and cornered. I don't trust him, he hurts me. I pray he turns to you and becomes like you. I know I'm not like you at all