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Throw a pebble into space and u will never get it back! well, thats wut i did. i took something i luved -n- cared about -n- threw it away. now, no matter how hard i try i will never get it back. i have to live with it now. i have learned from this tho...i cant do what i have always done. i cant push ppl away like i have always done. i cant push people away when they get to close to me. i have to learn to let ppl in. i dont want to be lonely for the rest of my life. but thats gunna happen if i dont learn to let people in. i have my reasons for not letting ppl in but i have to learn to get past tem. i cant let my past run my life. i have to learn to live my life. before i can live my life i have to kno wut i want to do with my life you know. all i kno is that i want to be happy. bein happy has never been easy for me you know. i dont know how to let myself be happy. i dont kno why but it doesnt feel like i deserve to b happy...seeing all the stuff ive done wrong. i dont kno how 2 change wut i have done...i can fix sum of it...im juss not sure how 2 do it...i juss kno i have 2 smarten up and think before i do thingz now. i cant juss do stuff without out thinking. i juss dont kno wut 2 do ne-more.