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I can hold it together anymore

Im falling apart, this sweet depression I have become so addicted to is the same as drugs it slowly takes away the will and desire for tommorrow. What the fuck is wrong with me, Im tired of being a goddamn fingure puppet for the monster, I have had E-fuckin nuff

My mind is driving me mad





demons demons demons



why was I born the murders commited will never be forgotten



the five yr old with their tiny brains bashed out



the skull held my shredds of flesh



I killed the ones who did it, and now Iam the one tortured



eyes, eyes eyes allways in my sleep

when my eyes are open its first thing I see with humans

when I close my own I see those of the dead



who cares, no one I know

we are to arrogant , to protected and fat



eyes and demons Im nothing more than food for the monster



I try and I try but I feel the time is near



I can not bear what it is I have done, I killed the monsters and now THey will feed on my soul

I have decide



To stick with the devil I know



rather than go with the one I dont know.





Whole sale destruction

body bags and fire



and liquid sex, are my devils

Like with all things



in my life, I have failed





a coward am I





so be it

11 more





and then







no more.

my last





ssunrise to day







all shall be dark from this night forward







ado my loves

enough





my mind divided can not stand







time for th union







4 days

10more days





thats all



I can take it





soon

20 of



August



2005



my breath shall be no mre



to all who were kind to me





thank you it is all that I have left



good bye.