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Today I found out that I can't be with the girl I'm in love with because we don't have the same religious views. She's christian and I'm obviously not. *Sigh*, just when I thought this world was getting better.

I started my 12th studio album, Labyrinth", yesterday, I've finished the first track off of it, "Whispered Words in unlit Corridors" and I'll continue writing tonight. After I finish all 13 songs, I'll start writing the music for the songs, the proceed with my next album.



(Any inquiries as to other album names, song names, band name, etc, will be answered as requested.)

Amor et melle et felle est fecundissimus.

(Love is rich with both honey and poison.)



Condemnant quod non intellegunt.

(They condemn what they do not understand.)



Corruptio optimi pessima.

(The corruption of the best is the worst.)

-Restrung one of my 6-strings earlier, (power slinky strings 11-48).

-Played a little metallica on my soloist guitar.

-Did some vocal warm ups

-And I don't have band practice today. Oh well...

It's hard to wait for the coming Autumn Equinox, but even more difficult for my favourite of all the Sabbats, Samhain. I have to start buying my candles...lol. And then a new year!

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VampireLily
03:34 Aug 25 2010

this is my favourite time of year too.... i was born on Winter Solstice but i always can't wait for Autumn~

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Nedra
16:35 Aug 25 2010

I know exactly how you feel.

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KattrinaK
22:04 Aug 30 2010

No kiddin'.





High time to get a-shopping. It's so hard here in Cali to feel the change of Seasons, but the Harvest Moon always brings it home to remind us Californians of the Reason for the Season.

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Thank you so much for everything you've done, everything that you've said to me, and everything you've made me realize about myself and the world around me. With all my heart, I am yours. Thank you.

I am writing here again after a couple days. I guess the only thing for me to share is that I miss my Christine. I miss her so much but I'll never have her. Am I forever to be tormented by this? Why can I not deny these emotions like any others? Why do my mind and body both long for her? Why would I not take her into eternity with me if I could?



I need to answer these questions. If anyone reading this can help, please try.

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VampireLily
01:13 Aug 24 2010

Your torment is coming from your brain, not your heart.



Erik, why would you ever deny your own emotions when they are as archaic and primal as your instincts? They make you who you are. You would never consider ignoring what your body is requesting, would you.....so why would you deny your heart?



If you long for her than maybe it's because something in you....needs something in her.



Lily~

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bellasiren
23:54 Aug 28 2010

is the 'hunter' in you feeling that there is maymore 'more' than her out there? or a case of wanting what one cant have? there could be many reasons people could tell you ,but only you and your heart will truelly ever know the answers to such questions involving this :)

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Continuing my first entry:



But I must say that I do still want the closeness of being in love. It must be my humanity but I will NOT be hurt again. Ever. I will hurt others, I will tempt and deceive and lie to any who try to get close to me. The world will burn when I am done with it. I will take what I want and leave the rest to ash. I am not sorry.

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bellasiren
23:34 Aug 28 2010

love comes in many shapes and forms it will surprise you when you least expected it too :)

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LadyCara
02:38 Oct 05 2010

You know some do not set out to hurt ; they are there only to love, but they are the ones to get hurt in the end for what ever reasons wheter it be someone else or maybe even yourself. There is nothing wrong with wanting to have the closeness of being in love.....I am sorry that someone has hurt you so badly.

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As my emotional life falls apart I wonder why I ever needed one? Why did i need the apporval and "affection" of fools and lower beings? I can see now, as what of my unbeating heart retreats back into MY chest, that I do not need nor desire to be tainted by dirty humans...

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bellasiren
23:58 Aug 28 2010

I kinda feel this one............. like it says in my journal humans are fickle lil things they tell you they love you with all their being and then in the next breath turn around with such venom and say they hate you? really they do not know the 'love' they speak of or the venom could not and would not ever pass their lips

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