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The darkness sleeps beside me

it keeps me concealed and safe

Where else can I go from here?

When the shackles are tight

And hope is not in my sight

I stand free.



The prisoner who fears freedom

And the victim who fears salvation

Free passage to heaven, remaining in damnation

it's my fate

To feel love but want hate

I roam free.



The others sleep beside me

They keep me fulfilled and great

When will I go from there?

To find the next life

To plunge in the knife

And stop them from being free.

Lost in this world.

And I don't know what to do.

And I can not find you.

Holding the blade,

And piercing my skin

The pain is searing through.

My fears encircle me,

I can not feel it.

As the blood pours out of my arm,

Or as I slowly lose consciousness,

And fall into a final sleep.

Smear the tears of crystal past ;

Smudge of ink;

And flows the night river of grief;

Silent mourns;

My heart laments;

Death is my one companion;

We, together, drink fear ;

Consume woe;

Feeding on devastation;

Dull are my eyes;

Reflecting my soul;

The only truth I posses;

Chilled midnight;

Stars like daggers;

Spearing my ragged heart;

Oh, what did I do wrong ?

Made a mistake ?

Made an error?

When will this punishment end ?

Will it last my whole life ?

Or beyond and forever?

Sleep is no peace;

Death is my only enemy;

Death is my only life.

Fading away from the long familiar light.

The tendrils of life, wilting with a dark decay like it was infected with disease.

Death grasps at the vivacious, sucking the drops of energy as though it was nectar on it's withered tongue. Feeling for the flesh that it has lost years ago. Flesh is but waning memory, almost forgotten.

Death is a moonless night. No radiance in the pitch. It is nothing. Silence in the gloom, sense is absent.\

A void in hell.

Whispers of death diminish in my hole of vacancy.

Nothing.... I feel nothing .. I am nothing.

The darkness creeps over the mountains;

Shunning the light into the void;

The stars sparkles, the moon glows;

But still the darkness prevails;

And obscures the gleam with gloomy veil;

Night feeds on the earth like a starved creature;

Sharp teeth;

Blood ink;

Midnight darkness forever;

Ensnared in shadows;

Eternal mist of the night.

Through the dark skies with broken wings I soar.

Hunting,searching,needing more.

My Heart is black,

For its life I lack.

I was banned from the golden gates above.

I rejected the terms of love.

I can only bring pain.

It's only for my gain.

There will be a day when the Almighty will conquer me.

And this is a promise I cannot flee.

I burn in hell.

How can you tell ?

I am a fallen angel.

But do not feel sorry for me.

Thou I shall not be feared.

Do not give sympathy for all my wrongs.

For I will only sing you deathly songs.

For I am Satan.

The Dark angel.

All I know is sin.

But I will never win.

Let the war Begin.

Dirt Road:



I walk along this long road

Hoping I never find an end,

Somehow I know I'll fine one though.

Call it premonition, call it instinct,

But I call it reality.

Patterns alter my mind,

Ridding itself of "gut feelings" and becoming logic and reasoning.

I think a lot along this road,

More than I should.

My thoughts twist and turn until chaos and confusion consume my brain

Leaving nothing but a full mind and an empty heart.

Pain replacing the happiness,

Laughs turning into tears.

I cry along this seemingly endless road,

But inside I know this will only make me stronger.

My fears fuel the sadness,

Pulling me into depths I've tried to avoid.

Killing parts of me and growing new ones.

Hurt will become strength at the end of this road.

I walk along this long road.

Never to return.

Flower Cemetery:



Violent rain beats the flowers to the ground.



Flattening the once cheerful plants.



Now dead as a doornail



They lie on the ground as the mud buries their bodies in graves.



Water pools in the flower cememtery



Erasing all traces of life.



Sadness buries the bodies.

Cathedral:



Cathedral bells call to me

Singing a sweet song of mourning,

Drawing me closer

My feet carry me through dark desolate halls

Leading me to the epicenter

A place of sorrow and suffering—

The tombstone choir

Crying out from the rotten mud,

Rain spatters like fallen blood—

An unpleasant stench of death

Almost a comforting presence in the isolation

Anguished shrieks from the window shutters

Flapping violently in the wind.

Fear fills my soul, consuming me

As the sadness eats away at my heart

Abandoned and alone—

Crying tears of blood that stream down my face

As death creeps upon me

Stealing me away

Into the darkness

Gather around, gather all

Sulfuric bodies- anti inflammatory pills,

Gasoline doused the halls,

As they jury judges- the verdict to kill.



Mirror mirror on the wall,

Whose shards are implanted in the feet,

Of the mere mortal souls.

The sensations of mind melting envy,

To mortals that weep,as the case goes cold.



Unleash the beast,let it begin,

As the light bulbs combust robbed of their light,

And filled to the brim, of a holy man's sin,

Who was tempted by the bright girl's mind.

Oh tell us what is seen in your eyes.



Beauty dwells in the eyes of the beholder,

We'll slaughter them all just to show her.

Wet spaces and dark cracks,

Spores and Fungi alike,

Creeping in your pipes.

A musty smell,

Coagulates in your heart.

The deathly darkness,

It opens a maw to a world of flaws.

Dead in your hand,

A parasite once crawled.

Rattled around,

The bones and the smell.

Clean all you can,

It will never fade.

It's there in your heart,

A crusty fuzz.

Mold and rot,

You're decaying each day.

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guitaristoneone
17:32 Mar 20 2011

veary detailed of a decaying soul i presume . excellent

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Isolate yourself in your own asylum.

Destroy yourself thinking about

Your current hates,

And your past loves.

You think,

"Maybe I can love again.."

But you,

Even you,

Know you can't.

As hate is your only friend.

Isolate yourself deeper,

Until you see nothing but black,

And feel nothing but cold.

And when you cry yourself to bed,

Isolate yourself once again .





When you look into the dirty,filth ridden mirror,

And all you think is about smashing it,

And grabbing a piece of that shiny glass to spill the pain and blood out,

Asylum,

The only place

That one can save you from...

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guitaristoneone
17:34 Mar 20 2011

pain ridden all i can say . well done my dear

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He lives in your dreams and feeds off your terrors,

watching, waiting, growing stronger each night.

Filling your fantasies with fire and hate,

Leaving you lost in a world of despair.

You say it’s not real and you try to stop him,

But his clawed fingers rip at you during sleep.

As you fall from reality with nothing to catch you,

He emerges into our world, destroying you.

Sleep is sucked from your life,

Leaving you drained of energy.

He watches you grow weaker,

So he can kill you while you sleep.

You can’t escape him; he’s inside your mind,

He waits and watches and drives you insane.

He’s a dream walker of the worst kind,

And his name is Freddy.

(About the Plague)



I went to bed and had a dream

I was walking along an empty street

Looking down I realized

It was not a street I was walking on

But piles of the dead

I saw my friends I saw my family

I saw strangers too

I looked from side to side

And all I saw was dead

Black and blue and covered in flies

The smell of rotten flesh burned my eyes

I saw through the foul fog and smoke

And at me a face loomed

A skeleton it was and it beckoned me to come

I woke up and it was true

Death had come to take me too

The swan is black... Waters are cold.. No time to burn... Keep it simple, Keep it neat... the clocks melt at our feet... dyeing in time, stopped and paused... your heart is black and cold, no feeling at all.. thoughts lay dormant in your head.. Stomach knotting with the power of dread... now all thats left to ponder, Was it worth it... The Trauma, The Sorrow... Head hung low, Tears crashing to the ground... low muttered curse drowned by cries, is the last sound remaining in this box of lies....

As I try and rest my weary head

Upon this makeshift bed

As like yesterday

Today

I’ve covered many miles

To try and escape life’s trials

With my trusty bundle

Slung over my back



Yet a peaceful rest

I can never take

As always from slumber

I awake

Whenever in my dreams

I see your face

No matter what the time or place



Even though I have the moon and stars

For my ceiling

Forever those brown eyes set me reeling



I truly hate the way I feel

I would kill to have them back

More than I’d kill for a square meal

Or the bottle

Forget the fork and knife

Let alone a roof

To keep the unforgiving cold at bay

I know I’ll die

Before my hair turns grey



Apparently you still love me

I hear my mind say

Yet I could never bare the truth

About you two being happily betrothed



So I must always solely remain

The lone man of the road.

You’re heartless you’re selfless, you’re feeling so helpless

This hate in your soul has been digging its hole

All your feelings have dropped, you’ve found yourself lost

This torture continues, like a knife plunging through you

There’s nowhere to run, all the damage is done



You try to stand up and break out of this cage

You take just one step and fall back into rage

There’s nowhere to go, you’re feeling so cold

You’re stuck on your own and you’re just all alone



Waiting for something, waiting for someone

To take this all away but I’m sorry they won’t come

I guess it ends tonight, say goodbye to your life

You look at what’s left and see nothing but death

The light starts to fade, you picture your grave



But as soon as you wake up, you start to realize

This was only a dream, and then you lie there and cry

It seems you have changed, all your thoughts all your ways

You’re thankful for life, you begin to feel alright

You think that it’s over, but then you grow colder



These feelings won’t end, I’ll repeat it again

You’re heartless you’re selfless, you’re feeling so helpless

This hatred won’t let go, it’s crushing your soul

You take out your knife, and slowly close your eyes

Tonight is the night that you finally say… goodbye

Festering deep in my heart



Lies my true evil, my dark



Glaring holes threw your life force



Bezerk screams fill this lone home



Bursting free the animal



Lurking in plain view, unseen



Kindly smiling, just waiting