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hate you
02:33 Dec 13 2012
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i hate you

and always will

i hope someone causes you as much hurt and pain as you have caused me

you knock me up and left me there

swore when he was born he wasnt yours

you demanded a dna

when it came back and he was yours

you swore to me yoou would take care of him

you took care of him alright ...you took him from me and fled

i cannot find you,i search everyday, were is my son and why did you take him away

he is just a child with out the only one he knows

he has been gone a month and 4 days

i am just a phone call away

i sit by the phone and ask myself why

i know you could care less if i died

you know i am worried about nicolas

do you care?

i sit everynight and cry myself to sleep

i stay on phone on the time trying to locate you

i have run my bill up sky high

do you ever wonder how nicolas feels

dont you think he wonders were i am at

does he ever ask for me ?

do you tell him everyday his moma loves him

and cares so much for him?

or do you tell him lies...

how many times has he cryed for me

i wish you cared for him as much as i care for him

but i know you are just mad at me

but that is not an excuse dont take your anger out on him

he is just a little boy

you idiot do you know what this will cause him

dont you realize yes you are hurting me but you are hurting him more

you never cared for the other two kids you have by your ex wife

why do you want mine?

all you want to is hurt me

quess what you did

you hurtme bad and really driving me insane

but you do not care

i hate you for what you have done

i will never forgive you

go to hell and dont care down there

nicolas
02:33 Dec 13 2012
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nicolas



nicolas is my son

he is gone now

i cannot find him

baby were are you at?

can you not hear my crys for you!

moma misses you so much...



i sit and wonder were you are.

if you are eating

if you sleep good with no bad dreams..

i wounder who you call mommy now

i wonder if you think of me.

i wounder why your dady has taking you from me

i was good to you

you had a bath.you had clothes on your back .

and food on the table

what did i do

i was never mean to you

never beat you

never hurt you

...i dont understand why he took you from me

i am a good mother

and i would do anything for you

and he knew that

i wish he was here to see the pain he has caused me and your sister

i wish you was here home with me

you dont deserve to be sleeping in cars and were ever you can sleep

you deserve to be here with me and your sister safe

from all harm....baby i hope you are ok and i know one day i will see you again

trash
02:32 Dec 13 2012
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you call me white trash..but you do not know me

how can you say such harsh words

im a woman with feeling and a heart

you judge me for what i wear what i feel what i say and what i think

i know i am not always right

but dont judge me because i am wrong,

you say you need time ,i say i need my freedom

what is freedom ...it is not here with you my freedom was gone when i met you

you took it all away

i told you stop you did not listen to me

you took my pride and left me to die

now i have a child

my life is ruined because of you ....you almost killed me but i am living proof that you cannot kill the willing to live

you can take my life

you can take my pride

but you cannot take my life

pain that u gave me
02:31 Dec 13 2012
Times Read: 264

he Crumbling Edge



How can I love you when he has my heart



You have gripped on to it and won’t let go



Making me wonder if you are the one I want



The one that will make me stop loving him







You have reached into the darkness to find me



Healing the pain that has never stopped



Forcing me to see the light I thought was lost forever







You were there when I was suffering



The one that pulled me back over the edge



Keeping me from falling into the emptiness again







I push you away



Yet you will not let me go



You hold on to me so I will not crumble into nothingness



The nothingness I once called my life







You have made me see the light again



Being my strength when all I felt was weakness



You are not him but yet you scare me



Confusing the heart that once beat only for him







I have dragged you into the mess that is me



You remain by my side in spite of this



Loving what I don’t anymore







He was my everything



You are my heart and soul



All I want is to be strong once more



One day pulling you out of pain just as you did me

times up
02:31 Dec 13 2012
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Melting Away



The tears have stopped falling



The pain has numbed my senses



It has taken control over my body



I am no longer in control of my surroundings







I walk through each day as if they were the same



No longer caring about the little things



Feeling nothing yet seeing everything



I only exist I do not live







No longer am I seen by anyone



I have melted into the world around me



Becoming the nothingness that surrounds everyone



Yet I remain on this earth







I stay to keep those around me at peace



To give them all that I have left in me



Hiding the pain that now has overwhelmed my body



I will not leave them to face this cruel world alone







My inner spirit is fading away



I am no longer the strong person I once was



Day after day the pain breaks my spirit a little more



My time is almost up in this broken body

one breath to survive
02:30 Dec 13 2012
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I see the hope in your eyes



Your desperate attempts to cling to this world



The pain will not let you stay



It has made your hands slip time and time again



Yet you fight for one last breath







My hands are reaching out to grab you



The pain has blurred your vision



You are unable to reach out for help







Your grip slips further into the abyss



Falling, descending deeper into pain



Yet you continue to struggle







The hope you hold on to gives you strength



It allows you to fight the pain



Hope for the future



Hope for a life you once lived







You were once full of happiness



Now all that remains is the hope that it will return one day



You are consumed by the pain



It has tried to destroy you



You still have one breath left to survive

my brother
02:29 Dec 13 2012
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my brother is matthew i love him so much people puts him down alot

matthew is gay,do not judge

do not put him down

cause he is loved

i love him to death he is my bro

been there for me when times were low

do not judge

you look at him and say oh my god what kinda of son have i got

i did not raise him to be this way

i did not want him this way

he is supposed be happy with the girl of his dreams not with a man who cant please

..he doesnt know right from wrong he doesnt know that this is wrong what have i raised in this home of mine

this homosexual is not mine

go away and do not return for i do not know you u are alone............



Dont talk to him that way; he is a man he is big anough to make his bed

do not judge him for who he is

I love him just the way he is

I wish you knew what kind of person he is

i wish u knew how much fun he is

he makes me laugh on a very bad day

he brings sunshine to the darkest day

he is my brother and i love him so much

do not judge him for he is just like us

he is unwanted in life and unwanted at home, but he is my brother so leave him along

matthew.... i love you... and i will always will... i will be here for you in this world so full of fear

i will behere for you when people say leave

i will be here for you when they say they dont need

i will always need you in my life

i will never ever make you cry

just ignore those people with no feelings at all

just ingnore the idiots for they do not know

what you feel and what you know i know you hurt when they say mean things i know how feel when they make u scream

i know how it hurts to feel unclean

so rest assure your sister is here and i will not let you down cause i am here dont cry no more dont feel ashamed dont turn away for i am here...dont close your eyes and hide those tears i know the pain that you feel...so i want you to know i love you this much.enough that you can trust

you thoughts your secrets are safe with me trust me matthew i know what you mean

you say know one understands you but i know your so wrong i understand whats going on

dont you cry and dont you weep..you sister is here and will watch you sleep dont be scared or feel no pain you can tell me and nothing will change...i love you my brother and i want you to know...i will be here through the dark and cold

nothing
02:29 Dec 13 2012
Times Read: 268




why me ..why hurt me ...what did i do all i did was give you my love my heart my soul....you gave me hope ...then you trashed it,throwed it al away for a girl under age ...you stupid ass fucker dont you know anything...thats jail for you...knock me up..leave me here and fuck her ...just go away leave me along dont come around no more this pain is to real my heart is broken i gave my everything to you and you give it to that bitch

i hope you are happy,i hope you get whats coming to you

you are nothing

you sorry ass mother fucker

was she as good as me when i was on my knees was she as good as me when i had you saying please...

could she show you the stars and the moon in her eyes

could she love you as much as i have loved you?

i hate that bitch i hope she dies she has fucked my lifeup she is just a child

how can a child do so much harm

fuck you bitch fuck you my love go to hell and never return i ask satan to make sure you burn both of you forever more....

i thought i knew you
02:29 Dec 13 2012
Times Read: 269




i thought i knew you.

quess i didnt.you took

my heart.and broke it today..

we were to be one..

and i then you hurt me so....

to find you with her it really hurt

me i felt my world crsh i felt heart

shatter when i looked and she was

on you loving you and being there

with you i got sick to my stomach

why why why would u do me like

this i do not understand i was good

to you there for you and you was there

for me ...did you do ths to make me jealous ..well did you..it didnt work..

im not jealous.i;m mad .no i am angry.

i hope you fry in hell for doing this to me.

i hope your life comes crashing down .your nothing o me but a memorie that is soon to be gone forever....as i hold the gun up to head i think to myself i wanna be dead i cannot be loved forwho i am so why stay in this hell of a land as i start to pull that tigger i see a picture right in fron tof me it is my k8ds they are so preciousin deed...

they are the ones who saved me

through the darkness
02:28 Dec 13 2012
Times Read: 270




Though the darkness hides

the pain,

those who truly see your soul

see the torment inside,

the path though dark and dismall

shall be passable with love,

Tears of pain, tears

of sorrow, tears of love spread across

your rosy cheek,

love remains inside,

your heart pure,

your skin salty sweet,love

shall remain, and those who cary the

burden paths shall ever meet,

fear not beloved, pain does always heal,

and the rock you choose to lean upon

shall always bear your burden of pain

and simple smile to see you happy, and whisper i love you,to make you whole