The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

a list of people who have passed on, that made an impact on me.



Bela Lugosi

Edward D. Wood jr.

Jim Morrison

Jimi Hendrix

Kurt Cobain

Janis Joplin

Joey Ramone

Dee Dee Ramone

Lynn Strait

Layne Staley

Brad Nowell

Alister Crowley

Randy Rhoads

Rozz Williams

Lee Wing (my grandfather)

Rose McQuistchen (My great grandmother)

Dead

Euronymous

Niccolo Machiavelli

Tupac Amaru Shakur

Dr. Martin Luther King jr.

Well, I'm a huge LKH fan, the Anita Blake series if by far my favorite work of fiction ever put to print. I have all 14 Anita books, plus 1 Merry Gentry book. anyway on to the dream



I was on vacation with my family to St. Louis, the setting for the whole story, and my family went off to the arch and sightseeing. I being tired and having no desire to see the stupid stuff went off by myself to the Vampire quarter. I walked around the Circus of the Damned for a while and saw some of the shows. I left there and was walking by Guilty Pleasures and met a guy waiting outside. It was Jason (for the fans who know the charas) a male stripper and werewolf. Him and I talked and Anita came to fetch him for something and I was walking back toward the hotel when a vamp attacked me and gnawed my neck horribly. Anita chased it away, and I was laying there bleeding. Jason shifted and tried to find the vamp's trail. As I was dying there, I managed to say "Bite me wolfboy" and he bit me, I healed and became a werewolf.





how my brain came up with this i'll never know but it was kinda fun.

well since my personality is unbalanced to say the least, I use music as an emotional medication. So here is a list of songs that help me deal with various things:



Depression: Planet Caravan by Black Sabbath

Anger: Bloodline by Slayer

Hatred: The Game by Disturbed

Loneliness: Truly Alone by ICP

Neutral: anything at all

Creative: Tearing the Veil from Grace by Cradle of Filth

Contemplative: A Fine Day to Die by Emperor

Energetic: Anarchy by KMFDM

Spiritual: Soulfly by Soulfly

Lazy: Funeral Fog by Mayhem

Happy: Right Now by AMB

Rage: The Time to Kill is Now by Cannibal Corpse

Revolutionary: Bulls on Parade by RATM

Philisophical: Science by SOAD

My anthem: Nemo by Nightwish

My Theme: Gets me Through by Ozzy

My self-view: Rooster by AIC

My heart: 3 Libras by APC

My broken heart: Tourniquet by Marilyn Manson

Political: Surfacing by Slipknot

my current state of being: Broken Wingz by Twiztid

Healed up: AC/DC - Back in Black

Going Home: Guns and Roses - Paradise City

Thuggish Ruggish Bone: Bone Thugs - Hell Sent

Fatalist: KoRn - My gift to you

Flirty: White Zombie - Boogie Man

Romantic: Zug Izland - Cry (acoustic)

Well, I guess it was eventual but my girlfriend cheated on me and dumped me. Bing 1000 miles away was hard but it worked until last weekend. Thursday we talked and everything was fine and normal. Friday she hangs out with the new guy, Saturday cheats, sunday I get an email saying that she doesn't want to hurt me, that we have nothing in common, that she cheated and she only loved me because of how I treated her, not for me. I have barely eaten, slept or anything but work since sunday. Needless to say i was all mopey and depressed and a ball of rage. Now I'm a bit better, i have an appetite but not much of one. She hurt me more that anyone else could have, and made it worse by saying she doesn't want to lie to me. But I say that everytime she said she loved me, that she wanted to marry me, and everything else was all a lie. And I still love her, believe it or not, I would still do anything for her. If she would say what she wanted I would do it. I've told her as much. But still she thinks we should go to just being friends. Better than nothing I guess, but what do I know, this was the first serious relationship I've ever had. Most of the time I don't worry about the girl I'm with, but she was different. She once told me that I gave her a reason to live, because she never got over her grandmother's death. She was suicidal and was slowly starving herself. My attentions and love gave her a reason to live and then she betrays and more or less makes me feel like a piece of shit because she cheated on me. She never said it was my fault but that everything I like, do, think and say she doesn't like and that we don't have enough in common to remain together. That is FUBAR. I can take physical pain and anger is my friend but damn, this emotional stuff is worse that all of the other. But what can I say really, I guess I need to find someone to love me for me and not hate themselves so much that they can't love someone else. Maybe I will, or maybe the next Dracula remake will be the best one yet.....yeah I doubt it too, but ces't la vie.