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My eyes hold no sparkle

My skin is so pale

My body's gone numb

I can't even feel

I look in the mirror

I can't see myself there

Am I even here?

Is this what it feels like to be dead?

Little kitten, little kitten

Come out and play

Don’t leave me all alone



Little kitten, little kitten

Don’t you love me

Anymore



Little kitten, little kitten

Won’t you come home

Home where you belong



Little kitten, little kitten

How far have you gone

Leaving me all alone



Little kitten, little kitten

I hate you, I’ll kill you

When you come home

For leaving me all alone

This pain in my body

Doesn't seem to lessen

Always growing and shrinking

But never truly gone

They give me medication

That doesn't even help

I want it to stop

Though it doesn't seem that it will



If anyone can end this pain

I'll welcome them with open arms

Unless they mean to harm me

In some way or form

Then they'll all be turned away



But then maybe this pain is

My own to take on

With no help from those around me

I’ll never know this though

Because I'll probably die soon anyway



So it doesn't really matter anymore

As long as the pain stops

I'll be happy, even if it means

My death



So if you're reading this

I am most likely dead

Or worse in pain somewhere

But that doesn't matter anymore

'Cause on the inside I'm dead already

Death, pain, corruption

Take hold of my heart

Rip my soul from my body

Leave me there to die



The things I created

Kill me slowly over the years

Picking me apart

Drinking my blood



Why now after so long?

Is this the end I've been dealt?

Or a test I should have to take?

Will I die in the end?



Answers to my questions

Come every so often

Never telling lies or truths

Only what I wish to hear



In the end I have nothing

All of myself is gone

Not to return to its master

But to wither away forever

Don't touch me

I hate you



You broke my heart

Left me all alone



Now you want me back

After all you did



You saw me cry

And did nothing



All you did was laugh

Told the new girl what she wanted to hear



All this while I was standing right there

Right where you knew I'd see



All this caused was me hating you

Getting angry and wanting you gone



And now that you have nothing

You came crawling back



You think I'll take you

But you're seriously wrong



I want you gone

Away from me



Never talk to me

Leave me alone



You're the one who fucked up

Not me



You left me

Not the other way



Stop saying things that aren't true

They'll get you nowhere



So go find someone who'll put up with your shit

Because I'm done with it

I’m falling

Crying

Ripping myself apart

I’m broken

Can’t be mended

I’m dead inside

With little hope

For survival

That’s what I get

Being trapped

In this world

Feeling all alone

With on one to

Take my hand

Or hold me close

At night

I want to scream

To let everything out

But I don’t know how

I can’t figure it out

Why am I broken?

Why don’t I understand?

I’m messed up

Inside, outside

It’s all the same

Broken and decaying

Nothing to love

Or care about

I’m afraid I’ll be gone

Gone forever

With no one to care

About my end

About who I am

I’m disturbed

And all alone here

Where can I go

With no one home?

Can’t you help me?

Bring me back to you

Heal this broken body

This ripped soul

This destroyed heart

Can’t you bring me

Back to the beginning

Of all things

Where all went wrong

Where I was broken

Ripped to shredders

By my own hands

Can’t you see I’m

Broken inside?

Tears of darkness, tears of light

From my eyes you come at night.

Soul of darkness, soul of light

In my body I keep you tight.

Away from the hate and pain of

Losing those my heart loves most.

Without you here, my anger wins out

And I lose all control.

When I realize what I've done, it's to

Late for what's done is done.

Now I ask forgiveness for my deeds,

And if you can't forgive.

Then I'll take all that I can get.

Good-bye, my love.

Carving in my skin

The names of those I know

There is no pain now

My body’s gone numb

Maybe this is my end

I truly hope it is

There is nothing left to live for

Nothing left, but The Hurt

The Pain

The Anger

From those I thought I knew



If this is my end

Hopefully the place I go will be better



I can only see Crimson red now

It's everywhere, on everything

It looks so pretty



My Blood

My Crimson Death

How beautiful you are

Taking me away from here

You are my savior

The only one who truly knows me



As my body dies

I see the people who loved me

Come in

Some are crying

Others look angry



Was I wrong in what I did?



I try to go back

But I can't

This pain I feel now

Is worse then what I felt before



Is this guilt?

Sadness

Anger at myself

I was stupid for

What I did

But I can't change this

My life is over

Never to be given back

It's my fault

They’re all in pain



Now I'll have all time

To be tortured by my choice

My stupid, idiotic choice

This new pain will be my punishment

Never to end

In the darkness he waits.

His prey comes so willingly.

Never so they realize their fate.



Their blood renews him.

Making him strong beyond belief.

He sees all the destruction he creats, but cares not.



He is called "Unholy One" by most.

No one knows his true name, but one.

I am that one.



Never able to tell a soul.

For I was killed

That unfaithful night he was made.

This pain I feel

Can’t be real

I’m all alone

In this sea of sorrow

No one’s here

To hold me close

There’s no one

To comfort my lost soul

To mend my broken heart

No one’s seen

The broken me

Who’s lost and cold

Who can’t seem to find

The way home

Away from this hell

Why am I the one in pain?

Why must I endure this suffering?

I’m all alone

In this sea of sorrow

Bring me back

Help me stay

Someone

Anyone

Can you hear me?

Or am I still all alone?

Help me

Save me

Stay with me

Don’t leave me here

Bring me back

Protect me from

Myself

I’m all alone

In this sea of sorrow

Behind a mask

My true face

Is hidden from view

But some how you

See through

I don't understand

Why you can

You've seen the real me

You didn't run

Instead, you showed me

It's all ok

That everything will be alright

Being myself isn't wrong

To show my self to the world

But how can I do that

When all I see is you

A broken angel

Sits and waits

For someone to

Notice her state.

Her wings are

Tattered and torn.

With scars upon

Her back to

Show her fall.

She looks so

Tired and run down.

What caused her

To become like this?

She once shown

With beauty and grace.

Full of happiness;

Light in her eyes.

But now that's changed.

The light is gone

Slowing turning to

Sorrow, hate, and lies.

The real angel

Hidden deep inside.