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This person I thought was a good friend of mine and understood me and loved me despite my faults just showed his ass. I thought I was doing something nice for a friend. He is a huge Loretta Lynn fan and I went to a bookstore with him and purchased for him a book he had misplaced about her. Then , I was going to buy him dinner. His spouse was with us. I was going to take her to see a movie. Earlier today, she informed me it had been over a year since she went to the movies.



Mind you, it is hot as hell today. I had to go pick up five items at Wal-mart and planned on cashing a check. The money was needed for the movies. I did get bossy about how things were going to go, but my friend knows damn well I can get that way and not mean it. I did not want to stand in a long ass line inside Wal-mart and leave two people wanting in the hot sun. I was going to go to a store by my house and cash the check. Apparently, I was not polite enough for my friend. I know he has issues with other people in his life bossing him around, but I did not need to bear the brunt of his anger about them and me too. He does not know how to separate people. He does not know how to tell the difference. He then acted like a jerk at the Jack in the Box drive thru and no-one in the car got anything to eat. It did not matter one moment to him that he was hurting himself. He has low blood sugar and needed to eat. His own health did not matter. He could have passed out as long as he has his hissy fit.



Then, he wanted to tell me what a bad person I am. I know he does not like himself. If he thinks for one minute I am going to let his low opinion of himself affect me, he has lost his mind. He got mad when I pointed out something harmful he was doing. For years, he has done it to me, because I thought it is coming from a friend and I should listen eventually. I took it , because I believed he cared and wanted me to be the best person I could be. I had no idea he hated me. That is how it sounded.



I am not mad at his spouse, In fact, I feel bad that person had to hear and be caught in the middle of all of it. That person got punished for being in the car. They did not do anything wrong. I should have minded my manners. I know where I was wrong. The only thing he thinks he did wrong was call me a cunt. Ask anyone in my coven, I love that word. IT was his attitude that bothered me. I have understood how he has behaved and why everyt ime he has behaved badly. I have defended him to people that still to this day do not understand why I am still his friend. They would have jumped ship many moons ago. They would not have tolerated some of the hollering he has done to me. They find it abusive and unneeded. I tell them my faults in each stituation and am informed that that is just me. IF others can accept me how I am and still love me and treat like a human being, then why can't he? He is suppose to love me. He has said I am like family to him. I do not treat a member in my family like that. IF I did, I would see how fast that would not work out for me.



He informed me that I am not to call him again. He does not realize just how serious a statement that is to me. I am not a stalker. Someone who calls a person after they have been told not to can be classified as a stalker. So, if I call him, I am stalking him. Since I do not do that to people, I cannot call him or message him on the computer. He asked for he what he wanted. I have to abide by that.



This is two weekends in a row that this has gone on. I will not tell my roommate this. She will wonder out loud how many times I am going to let this person hurt me. She likes him . She will not get close to him, because of how he treats me. I have noticed something. Only people he has been friends with for years or his family think the same things he does about me. Others do not. I do not adjust my behavior around others. I am myself. They do not see me in the same vein as this particular group of people. I wonder. Are these people so hateful to themselves that they have to be that way towards othes? Do they really hate themselves, so they cannot like others? His mother is an angel on earth and does not do this. But both his sister and brother have low opinions of me. Neither one of them would ever have much good to say about me. My friend's spouse told the truth on that one and I am thankful for it.



I quess I will chalk this up to a lesson learned. You can try all you want to be a good friend to someone. But if they will not accept you with all your faults and want to give you the brunt of their anger when they are angry at many people, your efforts are just wasted.

Finally, those who like to cheat on the favor games have ruined if for those of us who played hangman to relax and unwind. I loved playing hangman after work. I was able to use it to get ready for bed.



I cannot say I hate the new system. I will still earn favor by doing what I normally do on the rave. I just hate that the damn cheaters had to take away something so many enjoyed. I just hope those who are cheating to raise their status know that Cancer has set traps for them and they will lose their account.

When you order something from a mail order catalog, shipping is not guaranteed. Have you ever sent anything by mail that took longer than normal to get there or received something that took more time they it should have getting there.?That kind of stuff happens. It does not always have to be the company that you ordered from faults. The carrier could be experiencing problems.



Most mail order companies will contact you if there is a delay in your order. It is the right thing to do. Most companies do not charge you until it ships. So, if an item or items have not shipped, your credit card, debit card or account with the company has not been charged. You have the option of cancelling the order without having to spend a dime or wait for a refund.



My problem is with the people who rant and rave like it is the end of the world. Sure, your life has been affected on a small scale. Sure, you are having to wait. Do you really think you are the only person in the universe who has had to wait? If you do, please dial 1-800 I need a shrink. You are in need of help. I feel badly about your condition. You are waiting on an item that is probably not necessary to sustain your life. No-one is selling oxygen by mail order. You are not living in Iraq right now. Did you lose a loved one on 9/11? Did you spend time in a Nazi German concentration camp? Have you just been raped by ten men? If you answer no to these questions, then logic follows your delay in order is not the worst thing that could happen to you or the end of the world.

Tonight at this very moment, headline news has a show on that is bringing me to tears and makes me want to scream. I want to do something. I cannot believe this mother being talked about on Nancy Grace.



This woman had a three month year old baby son shaken to death by a boyfriend. I am sure many people showed her empathy and compassion at the time. I am sure she was given more love than the three month old ever received. I am glad good people rallied around her. It shows the world has wonderful people with a heart. I am pissed at this mother and will tell you why.



Her ten year old son was dragged and beaten badly by his mother ( yes, the same lady who had her son shaken to death) . He was treated like a punching bag. Ten good people called the cops. Thank God.



I do not think this woman deserved a beautiful Hispanic child. She does not deserve any child of any ethnic background. This lady would be classified as white. That is neither here or there. She would hurt a child of any race.



I am angry. The boy is throwing a tantrum. Five and six squad cars were on the scene five or ten minutes after the 911 calls were made. The calls were listened to and the cops did not take their sweet time. There are times the cops are wrong. Rodney King comes to mind. This time the boys in blue are my heroes. I usually do not have much time for some type of heroes. However, the men and women of the police department who responded to this are my personal heroes from here on out.



I hope this woman loses custody. I usually do not jump to that line of thinking right off the bat. Two children have suffered in her custody. One is an angel in Heaven and did not get a chance to live. Another one will suffer for a lifetime and will have to fight to not become a monster himself.

Central Texas Time 7:21 PM



I will be glad when the sun goes down. It is too hot in Central Texas at the moment. I am burning up and I have central air conditioning. I know it must be one hundred degrees. My roommate keeps informing me of the fact.



I was suppose to be off tomorrow. Not the case at the present. I have to get off one hour early, because I have something to do regarding my son, Malcolm. It is just a fact of life that I have a child who needs me. Single mothers and fathers have problems attempting to work. It becomes hard on them at times.



I hope everyone reading this is having cooler weather than yours truly. I will be happy after dark. Until then, I will just hope I do not melt like a ice cube or ice cream cone.

Some people take whatever they find and call it love. I should know. I use to do that. It is easy to latch on to the first thing that looks like love when you felt unloved as a child. It does not matter if you were actually unloved or not. Maybe your parents did not have the best childhood. They may not have physically or mentally abused you. Maybe they did. If they did not, they may have just been unable to express how they felt. That will make some people look for love in all the wrong places. (Damn, I am beginning to sound like an old country song. )



My roommate is one of those people. I have no desire to go into detail about her childhood and what has been going on. I know what has been happening and those who should know every little detail do. (Do not take the attitude that I should not have mentioned it, if I was not going to fully explain it. You are just nosey and need to focus on something else. Go find the cure for Aids. Mankind will thank you for it. )



I have watch her spend time with people who do not care enough about her. Maybe they do not care about themselves. I get tired of watching her beg some guy to give her some time. I think she is determined not to do that again. I am glad. Most people are worth more than that. What gets me is that some of the silliest meanest girls do not go through that. The men I see seem to love the hell out of them. Then they complain to girls like my roommate and me about how miserable they truly are. Look here chief: I am not interested in hearing how the girl who you knew was a bitch with a captial B treated you, when I watched you overlook a nice girl who wanted to be with you. Are you fucking mental or what? I cannot feel sorry for you. Not today. Try again tomorrow. Did you think that because she looked like something out of a 2 Live Crew video she was also intelligent and nice? Did you think she would treat you better than the last guy who is still trying to get over her? I do not think so. That is not saying that all beautiful women behave like this. Some of them are really nice people.



This one guy seems to have a thing for women who end up using him and cheating on him. He told my roommate he could not be with her, because she had a child. Well, that is surely something, since he met a girl on the Internet and three weeks later he was wanting to spend the night at her house. I am not saying you cannot meet a good person on the Internet. However, I wonder what does he know about this girl? I know more about some of the people I have worked with less than two months on my job. By the way, the young lady from the Internet has a child. Isn't that something? I think the young man in question is a coward too. He could not tell the real reason he is not interested in my roommate. Does he think he is so fine that he deserves a model? He is not all that. Hell, my ex trainer at my current job use to get on my nerves, but at least he has more class than this moron. Every guy I know now better have more class than this. IF not, they will hear my opinion about it.



Love is the strongest force in the world and the only one in Heaven. But it does not mean you have to be a fool to have love. God told us to love one another. Do not take that to mean be a fool. I have taken a look at the Ten Commandments more than a couple of times. I never saw the commandment that said "Thou shall be a fool."

I feel pretty good. I am a lightweight these days. I am currently functioning with two beers in my system and I am drunk. It use to take a nice 12 pack to get me tipsy, but hey I stayed on the wagon for a long time. I deserve to get off every blue moon or two.



The one woman AA that is my roommate is not here. I wish she was. The reason she is gone is not so great. Her mother is on life support. Her 27th birthday is today. That is just too fucking fucked up. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it go away. The pain and suffering her mother is feeling right now is just too much for one person. It makes my soul cry.



This dude on my job is a frigging trip and a half. He is loud. I really got room to talk. People in Burma can hear my loud butt voice at times. I swear he is the type you want to hug one minute and then strangle the next. I am like what the hell? I have never met anyone quite like him . He is interesting though. But he will confound anyone. Einstein was a genius that would not be able to figure that one out completely. Just when one thinks they got that one pegged, he does something to throw your whole theory off. I think he does that mess on purpose.



Anyway, I am a happy drunk tonight. I love everyone. Mieta if you read this I love you and Fizbop to death. I am sorry about how I left your coven. I think you are in a different coven now. Feel free to message me at anytime. I have unblocked you guys. My little bipolar tendency may have had something to do with what I did. I am hoping the baby is doing well.



I am just the most loving person in the world right now. I am glad no-one I know in real life is here. They know that at that point that the hard act I do is a big frigging farce. I am afraid they would figure out what a good heart I actually have and run all over me. I have had that happen many times. In fact, too many times.



I have decided I need to go to the gym. People tell me I am not fat . I think they have gone quite mad. I need to workout and have liposuction with a quickness.



I have to go to work tomorrow . That will be fun. I am just so sure. I hope I do better at getting people to buy computers than I did last night. I sold a digital camera and one computer. I was frustrated and annoying. I caught that loud dude getting frustrated. You could tell by the look on his face. He cannot play cards for money. He does not have a poker face.



I am out of beer. I doubt if the stores are still open. If I find one that is , I am going to get one more. I can do one more, but that is my limit . Three. I am such a damn lightweight .