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In less than forty-eight hours, 2006 will become a part of history. I got to thinking this year really flew by. Then I got to thinking what all happened to me this year and how I am happier than I have been in a long time.



This year I finally discovered that I could be happy without all the things I use to believe I had to have if I wanted happiness. For some reason the mindless pursuit of material goods did not appeal to me anymore. I no longer needed the approval of others to be happy. I cared less what others thought of me. I decided if I was happy with something or could deal with, that was more important than what some other person thought. As long as I am not hurting myself or somebody else, it is really noone else's business how I choose to live.



I hope I can keep the inner peace and happiness I have now. I do know I will have to protect it. When I was born,my aunt ( my father's older sister) wrote me a letter. In it she said there are alot of sad people in this world and you have to make sure you do not allow them to make you as sad as they are. In other words, misery loves company. Now I can that I have learned not to keep misery company. There is nothing wrong with being there for someone who needs your help or being just a shoulder to cry on when they are going through a tough time. There is something wrong to allow a totally miserable human being make you the same way.



I wish anyone reading this a great New Year. I also hope that if you have not discovered that happiness comes from the inside that you will. External things may bring momentary happiness. That will not last long. True happiness has to start on the inside of a human being.

I found this on democratic underground.com. I have heard some stupid reasons that the anti-gay crowd have given for homosexuality. I think this is the stupidest I have heard so far.



"A devil food is turning our kids into homosexuals," shrieked Jim Rutz in a World Net Daily exclusive commentary last week.



I have nothing against an occasional soy snack. Soy is nutritious and contains lots of good things. Unfortunately, when you eat or drink a lot of soy stuff, you're also getting substantial quantities of estrogens.



Estrogens are female hormones. If you're a woman, you're flooding your system with a substance it can't handle in surplus. If you're a man, you're suppressing your masculinity and stimulating your "female side," physically and mentally.



In fetal development, the default is being female. All humans (even in old age) tend toward femininity. The main thing that keeps men from diverging into the female pattern is testosterone, and testosterone is suppressed by an excess of estrogen.



If you're a grownup, you're already developed, and you're able tofight off some of the damaging effects of soy. Babies aren't so fortunate. Research is now showing that when you feed your baby soy formula, you're giving him or her the equivalent of five birth control pills a day. A baby's endocrine system just can't cope with that kind of massive assault, so some damage is inevitable. At the extreme, the damage can be fatal.



Soy is feminizing, and commonly leads to a decrease in the size of the penis, sexual confusion and homosexuality. That's why most of the medical (not socio-spiritual) blame for today's rise in homosexuality must fall upon the rise in soy formula and other soy products. (Most babies are bottle-fed during some part of their infancy, and one-fourth of them are getting soy milk!) Homosexuals often argue that their homosexuality is inborn because "I can't remember a time when I wasn't homosexual." No, homosexuality is always deviant. But now many of them can truthfully say that they can't remember a time when excess estrogen wasn't influencing them.



I do not get why the anti-gay crowd has to find a reason besides genetics for homosexuality. I believe a genetic factor causes homosexuality and I personally find nothing wrong with it.

I have this good friend that I happen to work with. This person has a good heart, but has the habit of always having to be right. Her point of view is the only one that is correct. If you go to saying something that is not in line with her opinion on something, she will interrupt you and eventually say you do not make any sense. If she would give you the chance to explain everything, then you would. Some of our co-workers were upset because she has done this to them. They were extra peeved that she did this to a friend. We had this happen last night. I think she has to be the most intelligent person in the room or else she feels like she is nothing. Some of our co-workers feel she must always be the center of attention.



Tomorrow night is the Christman party for my shift at work. I work at a factory and work 12 hour shifts every Wed, Thursday, Friday and every other Saturday. I do not normally hangout with my co-workers when I am not a work, so I am a little nervous about this. Some of them are quite annoying at work so I imagine it may be the same at this little function. I hope I do not get annoyed. I have a tendency to be quite mean when someone annoys the hell out of me.