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I know the title sounds funny but after mI explain it will make sense. You see I was playing bass with a very old and good friend of mine, in fact we have both played in the same band, but at different times. Well anyways he had this shirt that said life is just a bowl full of larrys and it had a picture of a cereal bowl filled with larry heads (larry from the 3 stooges). Well yeah I got to play with him and another good friend of mine. But it felt so nice playing in a band again, I cant even describe the feeling. I have wanted to be in a band since I quit my first band for religious reasons. They like God and I hate him. But anyways it was a great experience. But that is all I got for today.





MaggotKidd

3/28/2007

Well it may not quite be summer yet, but I am living like it is. I have been skating every day this weekend and it has been like 70 degrees outside and not a cloud in the sky. All I can say is that life has been good to me. I know that there have been a few things to go wrong in my life but I have made a choice not to let them get me down. Because if you dont let things get to you, they wont, it is as simple as that. Just choose to be happy and you will be. Life is what you make it, and if you choose to make it good than it will be good but if you choose to make it crappy then it will be crappy. But that is all I have to say for now so until next time.





MaggotKidd

3/27/2007

Well I had sort of an epiphany last night. I have figured out the meaning of life. The meaning of life is to love. I know this probably sounds hypocritical coming from me due to last entries I have written, but it is true. I have found that if you love someone then you find this new reason to live. That reason is to make the one you have fallen in love with happy. It will consume you if you are not careful you will constantly consider whether or not something you do will make him/her happy. But I must warn you not to let it take over because then the love takes on an uglier form...obsession. Obsession is loves evil twin so to speak. It will turn you into an over-jealous, over-controling, emotional wreck if it consumes you. It will beat you to your knees and it will keep you there. It will make your life a living hell. Obsession is something you do not want to deal with. So I warn you now if you fall in love, be careful because love is one of the powerful emotions a person can have. It is because this power that a person can barely handle it, and it turns into obsession. So dont let it consume you, embrace it, but dont let it consume you.





MaggotKidd

3,22/2007

I owe the government 26,000 fucking dollars and I am pissed all because I thought I was helping out a friend I took the blame for someone elses doing and I ended up getting fucked over in the process I dont know what to do now. I thought being a good person would get you ahead in life but it doesnt. So my advice to anyone who reads this, you dont get anywhere in life by being a good helpful person. So do what you can to better your own well being before you try to help anyone else, and one more thing make sure you know that the friend you help out is actually a good friend before you do something for them, they might just stab you in the back for it. All I know is that I thought I was doing something for a friend that was gonna save there ass but it just came back to bite me in the ass. Now I will be in debt until I am like 50 it sucks. But that is it for me for now so until next time.





MaggotKidd

3/20/2007

Man life has been treating me so good. I really cant explain it but I have been really happy the last week. My buddy came in from Michigan on Monday and it has been awesome. The only thing that sucks is that I have gotten a 2nd job so now I have like no time to enjoy life during the week, it sucks but I know I will be a lot happier when I get my paycheck I will have so much more money. I can finally pay off my fines and buy....stuff. I have no love life, but the way I see it is that as long as I am happy with the way I am living who needs a love life. I have my friends and they have a love life and it really doesnt seem like its doing them any good. So yeah I am happy being single. It seems like every time a get a girl in my life I just get depressed so I figure the best way to beat that is not to get a girl in my life. Love is nothing more than a way to feel happy about the way your sorry life is going. I dont need a person in my life so I will be happy until the day I die.





MaggotKidd

3/16/2007

well my life has been a rollercoaster so to speak for the last month or two. I think things are finally starting to clear the weather is getting nicer, everyone is being a lot nicer to each other, and since I decided to stop believing in love I have been a whole hell of a lot happier. So what the future has in store for me I do not and will not ever know but all I do know is that my life is finally taking a turn for the better. My curse which I now call a blessing has been protecting me from the evils of love, so my heart never gets broken again. I am very greatful and appreciative of that fact. I will now live my life free from pain and sorrow and continue a life of absolute bliss. So until next time I have to go enjoy my life.





MaggotKidd

3/14/2007

Ever since I have accepted my curse as a blessing my life has been so much better. The weather is warming up, the sun is shining, one of my best friends is coming from Michigan and I will be skating for the next 7 days straight so my life looks like it is finally starting to brighten up again. I am really happy about that. So yeah thats all I have to say for now so buhbye.





MaggotKidd

3/12/2007

well the curse attacked again and it was a really critical blow and it sucked really bad so yeah. That girl I was talking about, all of a sudden decided she didn't like me anymore. So yeah she pretty much destroyed any glimmer of love I had left in my heart but oh well I guess. I wish I could just be young again and just say I dont care. But I'm not anymore and I wont lie and it hurts. But now I dont believe in love so I will move on alone, well not alone I still have my curse. Maybe thats how it was meant to be. Maybe my curse isnt a curse at all maybe its a blessing protecting me from the evils of so called love. I will still be her friend but I will never love again. I will count on my curse/blessing to protect me. I will continue my life and I will never forget the person that saved me from ever falling in love again I thank you Brandi I really do and I will never forget you. You destroyed my heart. But dont look at it as a bad thing, because I dont. I look at it as a gift that I will take with me until my twilight. but thats it for me today.





MaggotKidd

3/11/2007

I am so sick of feeling this way. I want it all to go away I want her to know my pain and then maybe she will understand why I have done nothing but cry and call her name. They say I haven't even seen her so I can't be in love but I know different I see her as a gift from above. I miss her with every passing day. I miss her in the most desprerate way. I love you, you know who you are I miss you even though you live afar but you promised to come back and I really hope you do. So if you read this I want you to know that I sincerely Love you.





MaggotKidd

3/9/2007

I don't know what to do anymore everytime something in my life starts to go right something has to come in and ruin everything. I know it is just my curse working full force but...seriously I cant take it anymore. I don't know how to end it so I guess I will just have to live with it or cease living at all. I know that I probably just sound like a little baby crying because I couldnt get my way but, this is how I feel. It isn't just this one thing that has gotten to me. It is everything that has held me down in life and kept beating me down. I guess what I am trying to say is that if something drastic doesnt happen in my life to change it for the better, people won't have to deal with my whining anymore.





MaggotKidd

3/8/2007

Well I think my curse is about to attack full force. Well on saturday my new friends and I all went to jamestown and it wasnt pleasant. It all seemed like a good day until we left Walmart, and from there things started to get a little ugly. It all started because of a place to eat and it just seemed like everyone was arguing about where they wanted to go. After that it turned to one person calling this other person fat, and it was just little things like that but what is wierd is that this group of friends never seem to fight about anything so I think it is my curse starting to rear its ugly head. So I don't know what is gonna happen but I am getting really worried. I just hope that this curse doesn't end up attacking this girl I have met and have started to like "a lot" I just hope it doesn't happen because I havent like someone this much in a long time.





MaggotKidd

3/5/2007

well this bad feeling I have been getting has just been getting worse and worse, and not knowing whats gonna happen but know that it is something bad is just tearing me up inside. I don't know weather to expect the worst or hope for the best. you know what I am saying I just hope that whatever it is isn't too bad. But I don't know its like I said before everytime I have had a feeling like this I have been waiting for and expecting the worst.



MaggotKidd

3/1/2007