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u woud think that me being a witch i could gaden, especially having the power to control all five. well guess what. earth, is the 1 who seems 2 evade me the most. can i control it, yes. but no where near like i can the others. do i need 2 work on that, u bet. i just hate the dirt and most tihngs pertaining 2 that aspect. thats prob. why i cant grow crap.



however my two daughters and husband can. and believe me when i say they can grow. if i want sumthing planted and to grow, i c them. i dont even look at it or it dies, no kidding. mother earth loves me, accepts my gifts, just dont ask me to plant a darn thing.



well, for my birthday, my husband bought me tulips. now for any1 who doesnt know what tulips mean, they mean immortality, eternal love. especially specific colors.



well, i dont care for cut flowers because that means ur killing the plant, so he bought me the bulbs. still i cant plant anything, i'll kill it. he knew this, so knowing our youngest carries the earth element the most, he intended to use her to help plant them. which he did.



it was a kind of gloomy day, it had rained, which is good for planting. after they had planted all the bulbs, the sun came out. my little 1 came running in yelling telling me that my bulbs were blessed. the sun had come out. mother earth accepted them. then she told me not to go near them if i wanted them to come up next spring and summer. got 2 luv the little 1s. but shes rite.



this is why i dont plant. even the 6 year old knows to keep me away from plants. give me dried plants any time, i can use them, just not the living kind.

its funny, my family has always shunned what we are. yet i was trained to be a witch. just it was never specified it was that. the word witch was blasphemy. most everyone went to church or not at all.



i was taught to luv and preserve nature, taught to heal with nature, make medicines, all these wonderful things, yet i never knew waht it really was until i started exploring for myself. the moment i started saying what it really was, washing my mouth out with soap almost became a regularity. funny how that works.



i knew the storey of what happened to one of my ancestors and how her daughter watched it all. it had caused insanity. her brother had to raise her after that.



i also knew of the family necklace and how when 1 family member died, it was passed down to the next deserving member, a witch. well in this case it was me when my grandmother died. boy did that cause an uproar. most of the family would have prefered it buried w/grandma. or destroyed. evil they called it.



i didnt know it was going to be willed to me. i just remember being drawn to it as a small child. i would sneak into her bedroom to her jewelry box to look at it and hold it. of course she would always catch me.



but when it was willed to me, the family wanted me to destroy it. get rid of it. no one wanted it. i think that would have been easier actually. but it was a family hierloom, i couldnt do that. besides, i had loved that necklace since i could remember.



i also remember feeling sumthing from it once i actually had it. i wore it for years once i got it. i drew from it. it did sumthing to me. not bad, by no means is it bad. it is quite useful actually. i dont wear it now, but i do carry it with me now still.



i have had certain family members ask me to this day to destroy it. but i wonder, it is one of the things that the "Creepy People" say they were able to find me with. they say when i activated it, it was like a beacon for them. sum of them being family and all.



but they also tell me a bunch of other stuff. how much of it is true? i couldnt tell you. i just know i dont want to be a part of them and incidentally, they dont want the necklace either. they say its in the hands of the rightful owner. however it belongs to both them and me. it is a part of us all. my great great... grandma stole it from their family, then her daughter breeded with sumone from their line.



well if she was insane from watching her mother burn, i would guess after sum of the things they've tried with me, it was probably a lot easier to persuade her. funny thing was, she didnt have the necklace at the time. her brother did. he was to hold on to it until sumone was capable of weilding it. so even their efforts back then didnt work.



funny how history keeps repeating itself. she was insane, they inpregnated her, tried to get a necklace back she did not posess. her brother would not giver her up or the necklace, but did give it to her child, and years later... here i am. i still hate them and i still give them nothing. funny isnt it.



but their not trying for the necklace. they're trying for me. family is what they say they want. i guess they figure if they can get me to be their family, they can have both. NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

last year on my route i had a little boy whom i just adore, still do. i love all the kids i work with. some just touch me more than others. but this one i've known his family most of my life. i went to school with his mother, i know his aunts and uncles. i work with all his cousins and sister, his brother has an exceptional talent in drawing. lets just say i am well known with this family.



anyway, i had noticed he started a new nickname for me last year, he started calling me demon. now this upset all the other kids. it didnt bother me, i thought it was do to something i did that upset him, maybe he misbehaved and i called him on it. it wouldnt be the first time a child came up with a name for me, im sure it wont be the last.



so i let it go and let him call me demon. i laughed at it with him even. he was only in kindergarten. he surely wasnt real serious about it. a couple of weeks went by but he didnt stop like most kids would. still i let it go. he truly is a good kid.



one day he cae running to me after school and out of breath calling my name, not demon but by name. all my kidsw call me by name. i hate being called miss, mrs, or ms. its too impersonal.



but he came running and started fumbling through his backpack. he was so excited. i hadnt seen him so happy and elated. i ahd to move him out of the way for the other kids. but when he finally got to what it was he was so excited about, boy was it a trip.



he wanted to show me a book. and not just any book. it was a childrens version of bram stokers dracula, complete with pictures. now i have the adult version of the book and told him so. i also told him it was a good book, but thought it was a little too old for him. he shoul be reading books more his age group. he smiled and said, "No silly, i didn't get this book to read, i got this to show you something. i waited weeks for this book."



he was frustrated now, like i was supposed to know he didnt get it to read. like i was supposed to know he got it to show me something. so i played along with him. and asked him to show me what it was that was so important.



he started showing me pictures from the book, pictures of dracula biting lucy, lucy on a rock and dracula watching from a distance, lucy being surrounded by her family. i asked what this was for.



then he started calling me demon again. and started saying,"Dont you see? cant you see? this is you. i waited so i could show you. i can see it, cant you see, cant you see it? i waited just so i could show you!" he was getting way overly excited. he started showing me more pictures, repeating everything.



when his sister came on, i asked her to calm him. she asked what was going on, so i told her. a great many of the kids that were already there were stunned and looking on. she took him to his seat and settled him down.



the next morning it was more of the same. he knew more about the book and that only made things worse for me. i asked his sister if hewas reading the book or if it was being read to him and she told me no. at first i didnt believe them. but as time went on, i had no choice bu to believe him.



when i asked him how he knew so much about the pictures, he showed me the wives of dracula and told me the were telling him. his sister swore to me the whole time no one read him that book. but every morning he would show me pictures and tell me, "cant you see, this is you? this is happening."



i asked after a week if he wasnt supposed to test on it. he said he was, but no one wold read it to him. he said with their help he was sure he would pass anyway, so that morning before school, i read the book to him just to be sure.



he was so excited that afternoon when i saw him, he had gotten a 100%. he hugged me. i was happy for him, i was also happy that book was gone.



but then i found i had frankenstien to contend with, nothing as creepy as dracula though. just a book. which i also read to him. the only thing creepy happening during our fifteen minutes in the morning i had to read to him was him telling me i had to find some way to stop dracula from hurting me. when i asked him if he knew how, he said he didnt, it wasnt like what the storybooks tell. their just stories. hows that for creepy.



a couple of days later, he brought me the werewolf one. i asked if he had a thing for horror. i knew i did, but gosh he was 5. yes i was watching dracula and them at his age, probably younger, but, it just seems different now that im older and have kids of my own. he smiled and replied he would have gotten a different book, but the girls told him to get that one. i knew by then who the girls were. i told him not to listen to them anymore. i figured they were probably just ghosts playing on a childs imagination. after all i have one in my house that plays with my 6 year old.



but anyway, the point of the book was again to show me pictures. it was to show me how bad werewolves were. to tell me they couldn't be trusted. i was not to befriend any. or stay friends with any. i didnt get it.



i read him the book and we got rid of it. the funny thing about that is i hadnt realized it at the time, but i had just befriended a band by the name of lykin. which incidently are very cool. but still we had all just met and i knew virtually nothing about them.



it wasnt until this year did i find that my not so friendly friends had a problem with them and didnt like them. i have been warned not to attend shows of theirs and strange things have happened, in fact, i have been told to stay away from them. but they are really cool people, so why would i do that? and they are Lykins. go figure, now i get the earlier warnings.



as for my student, he's a little more mischevious this year, he's not calling me demon anymore, and everything as far as he goes seems to be back to normal. just wish my life was.

i was astroprojected 2 the cave around samhain. i saw AH there. AH is a nickname i gave 2 1 of the 1s that is constantly around me. i'm sure u can figure out what AH means, its close enough 2 what he calls himself, so its fitting. he's sure in the hades no cupid, nor any of the like.



anyway, he was there and thanked me 4 telling him about his kind, and no it didn't change anything beyween us. he doesnt live in the past, only 4 the present. i dont live in the past either. but i sure in hades dont like the present when it keeps biting me, literally. but i @ least get why i end up in the cave ow and why i feel heat generating from him.



he was there and brought me there he said 2 give sumthing back 2 me. he had been civil 2 me the past few times i had seen him. not when i banised him, but in the end, he is.



so i let him come near me, not tat i believe i could have stopped him, not knowing what he really is. anyway, he took my hand and turned it so he could draw, of all things, flowers on it and my forearm. the same flowers they had delivered to my house. lisianthus. he said it was a gift. he said it would give me energy, sumthing they had taken from me. i get it.



he said it was the least he could do. he said i would feel it even more in my awakening in a couple of weeks.



we didn't really talk of anything relevant after that, just that he knew how i did the banishing 2 him and his friends. he seemed amused. more so then when i first did it. but then as he said, he has other things 2 fall back on, sum dont. he admitted it would be harder 2 retrieve it the way i did it. that was the point. banishing arent permanent. i wish they were. he said sum of his friends would be very venegeful when they did get better. as if i didn't know that 2. duh.



but @ least there r things they cant do right now and i am enjoyng every minute of it. my life is by far not peaceful, but its mre peaceful than its been in awhile.



now i had had blissfull, silent sleep since then. i knew that wouldn't last 2. all good things must come 2 an end. and of course it did. last nite the 1 i refer 2 as DH, i bet u can guess what that stands 4. also close enough 2 what he calls himself. broughtme 2 the woods.



he is very upset with me. but like me, he is a pagan, and from my bloodline, like i care. he i guess just figured out what i actually did, well ok, he knew what i did, just not how or what exactly i did with it. he by far is not happy with me. again like i care.



he went to grab me, and i don't know, i would say he almost got zapped becuz the look on his face sure made it seem so, but i dont think i could be so lucky. but he let me go just as quickly as he grabbed me.



he wanted 2 know who marked me and when. at 1st, i didn't know what he was talking about. but after i let him rant and rave, i figureds it out. he was refering 2 AH. so i smiled and told him.



again he was not happy. he said AH would pay 4 that, whatever THAT means. its just a flower rite?



apparently not, its 1 of their symbols, means sumthing, i dont know what, but i bet i find out soon. i know it upset him more than he already was. he wouldn't come near me after that. wanted 2 know why i would let AH touch me 2 begin with. like i would let him touch me? you must be joking.



but it does explain his response after the flowers came and i asked him if he had sent them. he had got angry then and said no, if he had sent them, i would know they came from him, what they were and what they had meant. i had thought it was just his usual riddles at the time. not now.



now i know who they came from, i know what they mean. just not on the sure why part. its not like AH and i have ever been friends. opposite actually. he's never been nice. i'm also wondering now along with my husband if all the songs they sent us 4 me 2 listen 2 came from DH and not AH. sum of them have come true, sum of them talk about up coming events, sum r quite intimate. i thought my husband was nuts when he kept saying they wanted more than just their family back in order. i'm starting 2 question that now 2.



i'm also wondering, they've never seemed close as friends. but i have seen them work 2gether for a common goal. not a nice 1. but if this is going 2 cause problems between them. goddess i hope so. knowing my luck though, no. if anything would have, it would have been when AH attacked me after DH did.

i luv my 6 year old. she is amazing. unlike my 16 year old, i didn't take her to a christian church. i have been raising her as a pagan her whole life. she loves it.



she luvs casting circles, being smudged, and can do it all herself already. she even luvs 2 help get involved w/spell work. she even invents her own. its quite cute.



we've worked very hard @ teaching all the children 2 respect Mother Earth but she has learned it the best. she takes nothing w/out asking and always gives an offering in return. and best of all if she feels Mother Earth tell her no, she wont take it, she tells her thank u and goes about w/what ever she was doing. when she does ask, she will wait 4 an answer, it can take 4 ever sumtimes + 4 a 6 year old, that can seem like an eternity. but she will wait.



she even teaches her friends about it when they come over. its quite cute. if they dont follow the rules, she gets very mad @ them and makes them feel bad. then makes them give an offering for their bad behavior.



we are like 2 magnets that r polar opposites though. we r too much alike. she luvs me, yet hates me and never wants 2 b around me. i have no doubt she will be stronger and better than me when she is older. this i will be very proud of. it is every parents wish

i luv my 16 year old dearly. she is 1 of my most precious gifts. i made many mistakes w/her. 1 of them was hen she was very little. i tried to do as my father requested and raise my family as christian, knowing deep down it wouldn't work. but 4 him, i would do + try anything.



in the end, i went back 2 being pagan and it also ended up confusing her. she loves going 2 church, + i would never stop her from following her heart. she also says she claims no religion. i have begged her + begged her to have sum kind of faith. if not mine, some other kind. i believe faith is important.



it had caused us many arguements. 2 the point where we almost hated each other. the funny thing about all of it was, no matter what she said or did, when ever she need advice on a religious level, healing or what not, she always came 2 me.



always went back 2 the pagan ways. i quit bringing up whether she wanted 2 b pagan or not, stopped the struggle w/her, and now she defends and always has our ways and beliefs.



she even has a chosen god, Anubis; and a goddess, Lilith. she knows a great many things and has even advised me when i cant seem 2 find answers.



surpising 2 c that all it took was patiatence on my part.



when she was little, i had 2 bind her from sum of the things she could already do. mot mite think that wrong of me, but mere thought she could cause harm 2 others, especially her little brother. and boy did she love 2 do that. the energy that would eminate from her when she was angry was incredible. now that she's sixteen, we talked about it + agree she is in better control of herself.



she still is angry with her brother much of the time, but she agreed not to harm him like she used to and agreed to b more responsible. so recently i unbinded her. so far she has kept her promise an is doing well. i am proud of her.