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my lights faded as i sit on the floor thinking of how i used to be...so young, so careless about the world around me...then i grew up and everyting in my life started to twist...i became the rebel....My dad is a construction worker, and had no time to take care of me and norman, my brother.....he so married a women, a witch women, may i add who completly destroyed my life....she was a witch let me tell you!!!! anyways the more i grew around her the more i rebeled....i soon became a cutter and anerxic.....and bilimic..trust me it wasnt fun....i went through a major depesing mode for 3 years and if it wasnt for my best friend devin kesler i would probally not be alive today.....when i came out of the depessing mode i soon went to drugs and alcohol, and cigarettes...o boy!!!! my mom pulled me out of the cigarettes, i just resently quit that.... i haven't somed or done any drugs for about a week and i still drink like no other...... i fell in love wit cigarettes and that was about it.....my life pulled away from me though when i lost devin over it....my heart smashed and became me....rebelious me....