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Well I suppose I better shut this p.o.s. comp down and start packing. I'm looking forward to this.

Hehhhhhh. I'm just having one of those moments/days/whatever. Pheh.

This is one of those time when I know I should go to bed but I really don't want to, I just don't feel like it. I have to be up in 6 hours to go to work. Hehhhh, I can't wait 'til Friday.

This morning started out shitty. I went out to my car to find that somebody had broken into it and rifled through my shit, the only things they stole were my Mp3 player and my spare headphones. To add insult to injury the fucker left my glovebox open so the light was on, I was thankful my battery wasn't dead.

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Rosenrot78
23:41 Sep 30 2009

my CD player was stolen out of my car once, years back. fortunately, they didn't rifle through my shit, though. to be fair, i don't really keep anything in my car. it's really, really, really tidy in there. still, that totally sucks ass. and yeah, leaving the glove box open?? JERK!

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Have you ever come across someone that you had a sudden overwhelming desire to kiss? Nothing more than that, just for some reason everything in you says you should kiss that person. It's strange.

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Lolita
07:06 Sep 27 2009

I have had that happen to me before but the night involved loud music and heaps of beer....



The next time it happens, especially if it is like a random stranger in the supermarket, DO IT... I DOUBLE DARE YOU. Hell I will even pay you to do it lol.





ps~ you get extra money for video footage ; )

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placidchaos
07:21 Sep 27 2009

Heh, It's a great thought but I'd be lying if I said I thought I wasn't too chicken shit to actually do it. Maybe, we'll see if it happens again.

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+9 more points to her because she's into vampires. She's apparently a die-hard Tru Blood fan, I haven't had a chance to see any of that series yet but now I have yet another reason (other than the already really compelling ones I had) to see it.

Awesome:

1. Having an impromptu dance with some stranger.



I was walking down the aisle at Wal-Mart with my Mp3 player cranking out Collide's cover of White Rabbit and the left earphone hanging loose and I was getting into it. I met this chic coming the other way about the middle of the aisle and like me she was listening to her Mp3 player with one earphone out, also like me she was listening to Collide's White Rabbit blasting out. She grinned at me, put one arm around my neck, and started dancing with me. At first I was a little too shocked to respond. When the song stopped she gave me a kiss on the cheek and walked on, I couldn't help staring after her for a moment. I don't think I've ever been more attracted to a woman than I was at that moment. I find myself wishing I had had the presence of mind to ask for her number.

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Lolita
10:30 Sep 27 2009

That is completely awesome :)

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Ha ha! Yes! She offered me her number! Let's see if things go better this time than they did with the last girl I got a number from, I hope so.



I'm a little impressed with myself, it took 3 10 hour days at this job for me to start getting sore. I'm going to need to take some ibuprofen though, the muscles between my shoulder blades keep cramping up on me.



I'm having dinner tomorrow night with my other Aunts that live in the area, they actually asked me if pizza was ok... Me? Pizza? I neeever eat pizza... *whistles innocently while getting up to put his pizza in the oven* I'm looking forward to spending some time with them since it's been a few years, or maybe several.

Work today was ok. Although I really wanted to sew the mouth shut of one of the women I work with. She just does not shut up and she stops working to talk. Not only that but she will follow you and get in your way if you continue working, this includes stepping in front of you and stopping in order to make sure you see her gesturing. I wanted to kill her, I wasn't the only one. The other lady working in our area was really pissed off today because we might as well not have even had a third person for all the more work they did.

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Rosenrot78
23:56 Sep 23 2009

oooooooooooooh i DESPISE people like that! i'm personally a quiet-type and focused on my work. i don't mind if other people want to talk while they work, but it irritates me when they stop working to talk. grrrr! you're not being paid to stand there talking!

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Since I got the different WiFi adapter I've been using a neighbor's signal because I couldn't connect to the complex's, everytime I would enter my aunt's tenant code to connect it said the code was invalid. So today I went down to the office to ask them about it and they told me that only 3 different devices can connect with a code before it changes, apparently the last adapter I used was the 3rd so after that we had to get a new code. For some reason that amused me a bit.

So apparently a quickie only works if you can be quick. Who knew?

Despite my lack of luck I took another shot at talking to someone on plentyoffish, the person's sarcasm in their profile made it so I couldn't resist being a smart ass back. She's 7 years older than me but she seems interesting and I like her sense of humor. So far the points in her favor are: likes gore + 7, likes spicy food + 10, doesn't eat mushrooms + 8, smart ass + 10, favorite color is grey (unique) + 10. Disclaimer: Actual number value of points is irrelevant but I felt like being a smart ass.

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chrysanthemia
23:37 Sep 22 2009

Better than a dumbass.

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Rosenrot78
22:41 Sep 23 2009

how would one convert your point system to Schrute Bucks?

well, good luck had to happen at some point, eh? law of averages and all that...

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So the new job is alright, it's not anymore physically demanding than working 2nd shift instock at Wal-Mart and the day went so fast it didn't feel anywhere close to 10 hours. I'll definitely do fine there.



On another good note, I found out what I need to get my car registered and that my Aunt Tricia was wrong when she said it has to pass an emitions inspection. It does have to pass a sheriff's inspection but all that means is that they run the VIN to make sure it isn't stolen and may or may not check my turn signals, it costs $10 and then I just have to go to the DMV to get it registered. This also means that she can get her car registered so think I'll tell her so she doesn't keep driving around with expired tags.

Well, time for bed so I can get up shortly before 4 and then head to work at my new job. Here's hopin'!

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Lolita
09:16 Sep 22 2009

GOOD LUCK :)

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WARNING: Pervy Guy Moment



I'm at that point where I could hump just about anything right now and everytime I see an attracive woman my mind automatically jumps to very bad good things (or good bad, not sure which or maybe it's both). I feel like such a sterotypical asshole when I get like this.

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Rosenrot78
22:46 Sep 23 2009

...he says as though girls don't have totally pervy days. we do, brother. any gal who says she doesn't is a liar. of course, it's not as though i get all hot over the quaker oatmeal guy or anything, so if you're jerking off to a chaste photo on your special k cereal box, you're on your own with that one, mate. ;-P

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So I got tired of the crappy connection I was getting and went to get the next better wireless adapter that is $10 more than the one I bought the other day. It works freaking great! Then I had a sudden, and wonderful, revelation. See, this is the same adapter that I already had but lost the disc for and I still have my old adapter. That means that since I have the software on my computer now I can just return the new one for my money back! HURRAY! That's an extra $40!

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crowgirl
00:19 Sep 22 2009

Hell yea! :D

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Yes! A full time permanent job! It doesn't pay quite as much as I might like, only $8.25 or $8.75 (I can't remember which), but something's better than nothing. It's right near downtown, just a little north of it. Actually it's only about 8 minutes from my other Aunts that live in the area. I'll be starting tomorrow working from 5a.m. to 3:30p.m. Monday-Thursday. That gives me a 3 day weekend every weekend. The hours are a little off for me but I guess I'll just have to get used to it.

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xxEmaeraldxx
22:24 Sep 21 2009

Congratulations :)

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placidchaos
23:48 Sep 21 2009

Thanks!

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Rosenrot78
22:49 Sep 23 2009

way to go! i, too, recently got a new job and the hours were a tad earlier than i'd like, but they're steady and the pay is good plus it's a job i like pretty well so far, so yay.

good luck getting used to those hours. i've been at it for 3 months now and i'm still a bit off...

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Sometimes it's almost too hard to step away from the fantasy for even a moment. The more effort it takes just to function the more I find myself not living in reality.

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SinginGhost88
01:14 Sep 22 2009

I know what you mean. I had a dream the other night and I swear, the feelings were so strong and real I couldn't help but think about it all day, if only it were real.

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placidchaos
03:35 Sep 22 2009

I feel ya.

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You ever have one of those night when you know you should go to bed but you're just not in the mood to sleep? Yep, that's me right now. I suppose this is where my better judgement should come into play.

Oh. My. God. I am eating gellatinous vanilla flavored heaven! I just made this instant vanilla pudding mix that my aunt has in her cupboard. It is the best fucking pudding you will ever try! I love it!

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Lolita
08:55 Sep 19 2009

I love it when you have random crap and it is delicious.....you got to tell us the brand man :)

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placidchaos
23:45 Sep 20 2009

Heh, I don't think it technically is any brand. It's some of the stuff the Mormon church gives out to people who need assistance.

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Lolita
11:33 Sep 21 2009

**looks out the window** Where are my friends of bikes when I need them... I looked at instant puddings in the shop today.... lol

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Somebody pointed something out to me the yesterday, if you were there it was actually a little funny. We'd been talking and it had come around to my lack of employment and the reason why and about how I was sick. They hadn't been having all that great a week either apparently. I made a comment, I can't remember exactly what I said but right after the person says, "At least you keep a positive outlook, I think that's great." ... Me? A positive outlook? I stared at her for a moment with what I'm sure was a pretty stupid look before continuing the conversation.



Here's the thing, I've never considered myself to be an optimist. I've actually taken professional personality tests that say I'm middle of the road when it comes to that stuff and that's how I've always seen me. So it takes me off guard when I happen to be more positive than others around me.

I really wish humans in general weren't such chicken shits, they light up the evening way too much and it makes it harder to enjoy the dark.

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SinginGhost88
01:16 Sep 22 2009

You need to go up North... I'm going this weekend and If I am not home before dusk, I'll probably get eaten by something in the shadows mwuahahahah!

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placidchaos
03:33 Sep 22 2009

Heh, I wouldn't mind but if there's one thing I've discovered about myself in the past year or so it's that I like the convenience of cities. The only comment I'll make to that last bit is this: I have a diry mind. heh heh heh

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SinginGhost88
17:00 Sep 22 2009

Ha...Ha...Ha. If only i were so lucky :P

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placidchaos
22:44 Sep 22 2009

heh *shakes head*

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Grrrr. I've just filled out the application online for the company I've been trying to get an interview with that says they don't have my application but guess what?! The friggin' website seems to be having issues and won't submit the application, it keeps telling me that I have to choose an option in a field that isn't there. My solution? I printed the whole damn thing and I'm going to go turn it in in person.

Nice. I got a call from the temp agency today offering me a job at $10/hr with guaranteed overtime since it would be 8 hours a day 7 days a week but there's a catch... I would start at 7am tomorrow morning but before I could start I'd have to go buy steel toed boots, since I don't have my paycheck yet that is somewhat of an issue. I have MAYBE $1 to my name right now, how the hell am I supposed to buy new freakin' shoes by 7 in the morning?! So I do NOT get the position. That pissed me off a little bit. Then I got a return call from another place I've been trying to get an interview with but I missed it, so I called them back and left them a message. Right after that I go out to my car to see how charged my cell is, it was dead this morning because I've been having trouble getting it to charge, and see that they left me a voice mail telling me that they can't find any application for me. I feel like an ass for having called back and left the message now. I'm going to go to their website right now to fill out another application and then I'm going to try calling again tomorrow. *heavy sigh* Oi.



Hopefully my check will come by tomorrow so I can go look at a couple of the places I have my eye on, I need it for gas money and also for the deposit so that I can have the apartment come October 1st. The places that have my interest the most at the moment, considering my current financial/employment situation, are the ones offering rent free for the first month. Meaning the ones that won't require more than about $200-$300 from me right now.

I hate running a fever, I have enough trouble staying at a comfortable temprature without that.

Ok, I feel a little pathetic for admitting it but I'm actually signed up on another site besides plentyoffish. I was dinking around on the net looking at others out of boredom and came across this girls profile and I thought she looked familiar but I just ignored it. Then I went and opened an email of 'matches' from the other site I'm signed up on and noticed a girl that looked similar and had the same sn. I paused to look at the picture and I realized I'd seen that same pic on plentyoffish, on top of that I realized that she had the same tattoo of the girl I found on the other site I was checking out. I've read her profile on plentyoffish before and thought she was interesting but I couldn't figure out what to say to start talking to her so I didn't. After finding her on vampireflirt I really had to though, so I did just a moment ago. I just think it an interesting coincidence that she happens to show up as a match for me on 3 different sites, let's see what she says back.

Something that never really gets brought up in general conversation is that over exposure to pain doesn't just make you used to it, after a while you go somewhat numb where you feel the pain. Something that people usually aren't aware of is that living with too much anger inside becomes agonizing. After a while you start feeling empty and desperate to feel something else so that you can forget feeling like you don't feel anything, or a way to let out the anger that causes that feeling. That being said, I wonder just how many others out there feel this way. I think of that Black Light Burns song called Stop a Bullet, there's one line in particular that reminds me of how I feel half the time. I hate it.

I feel so overwhelmed at the moment. So much is stirring in my head. I just wish I was able to let go, to be free. Isn't it funny how, for someone who's never actually been caged or anything else along those lines, I feel so trapped by myself? When am I going to get past this?

I lost the job with McKesson. The situation really annoys me. I went in last night and got there around 6:30, along the way there my little headache turned into a migrain accompanied by nausea and dizziness. I wanted to go home to get some medicine but I couldn't get through the doors into the main part of the warehouse to talk to the supervisor but as bad as I was feeling I didn't think I'd be able to work my shift without taking something. I figured I could be home and back before my shift started so I left to get some ibuprofen and pseudophed, I figured wrong. Traffic SUCKED on the way home so it was around 7:15 by the time I got home. I popped the pills and called work to let them know what was up that way they didn't think I was skipping, when I got hold of the supervisor he told me that if I had a migraine that I shouldn't come in. I was cool with that since even the slightest turn of my head spun the world in a 360. Well just a few minutes ago I got a call from Ann telling me that they decided to let me go because I didn't show up and then called in sick... I DID show up and there's a sign in sheet to prove it, plus I did NOT call in sick but I did call in late. It just irks me, if I could have gotten through the door in the warehouse in the first place this never would have been a problem but you have to have one of their stupid fob keys to get through every single door in that building and new hires aren't given on. This means that if new hire needs to go somewhere in the building they have to have someone else let them through the doors and if there isn't anyone than they're screwed like I am now. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

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Lolita
06:22 Sep 16 2009

that's some fucking bullshit man.

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I was looking at apartments on craigslist a moment ago, I was surprised to find some really awesome sounding posts but it will remain to be seen if they are as good as they sound. A couple of them were offering the first month for free, that would certainly be nice. A couple even have hardwood floors, I love hardwood floors! I took down the info for 4 different places in my price range, 3 of which are downtown. I'm going to call them later, I figured I'd wait until after the lunch 'hour'.



I started on to my normal shift last night, 7pm-3:30 except for tuesdays and wednesdays which are 8pm-3:30. It's not too bad, for some reason it seems to go faster than working the swing shift did. I turned in my first time card from this job today, 4 8 hour days on it and I'm so looking forward to the paycheck this friday.

So last night/this morning I got home to find a note from my aunt telling me that she's decided since she's moving in with her bf at the end of October that she wants to have the last month in her apartment to herself. Meaning that I need to find my own place a.s.a.p. Thankfully I have the job I do or I might be in trouble on that aspect, I can't blame her but it is a little frustrating since I was looking at a whole month to save up the money I'd need to get into my own place and now I'm looking at a couple weeks.

I'm in one of those funky moods that I really just don't know how to express right now.

Why is it so hard to find an interesting woman that has similar interests as me and is capable of being in a relationship that I'm attracted to? Sometimes I wonder if there's actually a girl out there that I really mesh with, I haven't found her yet if she is.

I'm surprised at how fast I'm getting used to the physical labor again of my new job, It's been a while since I've done any work this physically demanding. After the first day I was exhausted and sore as hell, after the second day it was the same but more than twice as bad, after the third day I was worn out, a little stiff, and had a tension headache but that was the worst of it. I'd have thought that the third day would have made it worse and that it wouldn't get better until after my days off but I guess my body adjusts better than I thought. I'm happy about that.

Yesterday was great. They took pity on me since my shoulders are an even 2 feet wide and the isles for picking are the same and switched me to shipping instead, I'm still going to be trained as a picker though and that's cool by me. I'm sore as hell today after work last night but I'm happy, I haven't really done anything that physically demanding in a while and it felt really good. The people there are fun to work with so far too. They started me out on what they call the swing shift and that goes from 5-1:30, eventually they'll switch me to my normal shift of 7-3:30. I'm definitely going to have to remember to take food with me, when I got off work lastnight I was ravenous.



In other news, I couldn't remember if my Aunts Shelly and Nancy lived in the area and today I confirmed that they do. I'm pretty happy about that too, it's been a while since I've seen them and now I have their address and phone number. Well, that's all for now.

Hopefully in the next couple weeks I'll get my own net back so that I can be on more than a few minutes and actually do stuff on here.

Living with my aunt has been ok but it's starting to get to me. It's not her fault, as much as we are alike we are also different and having someone around me constantly that I don't mesh with quite enough grinds on my nerves. It doesn't help that her cats annoy me or that I'm allergic to cats. I can't wait to get my own place.



I've been in a lonely mood lately, not in the sense that there's nobody around but in that I don't feel any sort of companionship with them. I need my own friends.

I got a full time and long term job! It pays $10 an hour and I start on Tuesday, down the road I'll get bumped up to $12 an hour with nice benefits as soon as the trial period is over. I'm psyched for this.



I'm on the business center computer at my aunt's complex right now, no internet in the apartment since my wireless adapter isn't working and I don't want to shell out for a new one.

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Lolita
04:39 Sep 05 2009

CONGRATULATIONS PLACID!!! :)

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placidchaos
19:51 Sep 06 2009

Thanks!

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