last night of fasting could not come soon enough lol I am tired and crankly and the electrician guy has not shown so I am ready to go and get my small table from my friend and go home.
as soon as that is done I want to clean some of my clothes and go to bed the end. I am grouchy beyond compare and lol lack the words to even want to talk about itfreaking working where I work. blah to them all. Corperate America sucks and not well either.
well one more day and then red meat it is. MUahahahahaa fasting is over and rebuking is over. I have found a new found faith and I realize that all my gods are with me. As well as my guardians and more. I sleep with a peace I have never felt. and a new found love that is profound for my gods. This journey of reflecting fasting and praying has been well worth the ride.
I so cannot wait to eat a steak and just soak it in :)
Do you talk to your Gods? I do and I also hear mine. Do you? What are you will to do to make the difference in your spirituality?
ahhh sighs with contentment
be well all and enjoy your journey that is what this beautiful mess is about.
happy paws
Raja
I am writing tonight about something I never thought I would write about
Positive aspects of my day
It is raining and it is soothing and i am seriously relaxed and well needed
Leo and I had a mini walk and a long walk today his tail is so cute when he walks it is a nubby so of course it is cute!
I got thru work without wanting to scratch out zack's eyes lol He is acting like a two year old and I guess we are just coworkers woohoo.
No more bullshi- which is awesome. Since he played me like a fool and now I can be fine without the bullshi-
Did some new moon stuff and fasting went well today. I did not feel like I was going to feel light headed or loopy
Zoot is engaged ! I had no clue. Love is beautiful and I love to share that kind of news. That is exciting stuff in anyone’s world! and his new music came out I like” fear factory” his my space pageis
http://www.myspace.com/newangelsociety He is a creative, talented , person and well I had to share his music..
Friend Jason is coming to town I cannot wait to meet him, He is sincere and I hope is as honest as he seems. I am looking forward to it for we have a lot in common and well I love to meet the face to face. Which will be weird but neat. Not a love on line thing it is a met a friend that is sincerely uplifting and so neat to talk to his heritage is different and he practices Santeria and he and I have conversations about Yemaya since she is the one I am drawn too. She is a mermaid goddess in ifa lore. So I get to learn which is cool.
On a different note my ex roommate is alive and kicking and kind of surprised me with wanting me still. I was a crazy loon and he still wants me ewwwwwwwwwww is all I can say. He just likes the idea of me nothing more. I am just surprised he wants me and um freaked out abit by it somehow.
I am not marriable. I am not datable. I am not one for living with someone and sharing my home with another. I am a cat who likes her space and another person in my life is like asking for trouble. Dont get me wrong I am inspired by people who are inlove and commited to eachother . It is beautiful. It is just not meant for me. I am broken and not fixable. SO How do you tell someone uhhhh friends only nothing more for frankly I am not the one?
Heck I am not meant for love for I am not fully healed from Alex's death. I thought a fling would be good and it was wrong and very very baddddddddddddddddddd. I am not going to go through a fling again either. Yes that is how bad the sex was.
I am numb, have no lilbo, and miss Alex alot. His death yes was a shock and yes I should be over it but I am not according to the therapist it will take a year before I get over him fully. GREAT.
So you see folks I am not ready for it nor do I want it right now. I prefer to be with my gods pray meditate and be with my animals and read a book or go on line and be with my online friends.
Thats it folks I m boring as all heck. NOT one for a relationship nor ready for one .eeeeeeeeeeeek is all I can say.
grs and claws
Raja
welllllllll
moving on to my bit-- noting
A friend and I had gotten into a huge arguement and he claims I harmed him when infact I cut all soul ties from myself according to this fasting thing. He claims that it is not possible to do and I said oh yes it can.
I stopped talking to him for the rest of the day so he emailed me and I was like stop emailing me you dont like what I have to say stick to work and leave me alone. So he left hurt like I was harming him or something .. I was sooooooooooooo annoyed I was like fine bit-- for he was acting like one Here are all the reasons why I cannot be your friend anyone
and he blantly said he was hurt and left it at that. YOU asked for it you got it that is all I have to say on that one. DONT ask me why if you dont want the fookin truth!
rat basterd
It is not like I am binding his arse. I am just not having him in my life for he is pure fookin bad for me.
I know this now more then ever and god help me if this persists... Hell hath no fury like a kitty pissed off. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
four more days of this fasting and I am soooooooooo getting steak. END of story
something funny a friend sent me
Due to a power outage, only one paramedic responded to the call. The house was very dark so the paramedic asked Kathleen, a 3-yr old girl to hold a flashlight high over her Mommy so he could see while he helped deliver the baby. Very diligently, Kathleen did as she was asked. Heidi pushed and pushed and after a little while, Connor was born. The paramedic lifted him by his little feet and spanked him on his bottom. Connor began to cry. The paramedic then thanked Kathleen for her help and asked the wide-eyed 3-yr old what she thought about what she had just witnessed. Kathleen quickly responded, "He shouldn't have crawled in there in the first place.....smack his butt again!"
grs and claws
Raja
I got promoted and well I did not even know it ::blinks:: I am no longer just a news master person
this is what I got email wise
Hey hun you have reached the 3000 mark in favours and that means you get a job promotion :D You have now got Details master added to your title. So read through the following and enjoy :D
:: Details Master Guidelines ::
As Details Master you will learn to use html codes so you can help fellow coven members as well as help LWR with coding and the up keep of the sub-pages.
I will teach you how to create, set up and maintain a sub-page. DO NOT, edit the main page. And Never add a sub-page, delete or edit a sub-page unless you have my permission to do so. At the same time if you make a mistake when working on a sub-page, do not worry as I have a copy of every sub-page including the main page.
1. To create a sub page you go into the 'setup' in the top menu bar. Go down to the Existing Custom Pages, then go to the Add New Custom Page. Make sure you put in in the next alphabetical ordered letter.
2. Once created go to the page and then start adding and updating. When you have added your work simply click update. I do recommend you update after you add each article or image. And before you click on update, copy your work. Just in case you have been on for a while and VR has booted you. There has been a few times I have lost a LOT of work all because I was too busy to notice the time I had been inactive on VR. When you finish your work let me know, copy it yourself and save it. But I will make a copy for my own records.
I blinked and felt like a blonde not a blonde just okay what is it in layman's terms . LOL I have been working on the coven news and almost got it down where I can work on it and get it finished by thrusday if everyone gets there stuff in and gandalf likes the way it is merging and growing and such so he is waiting for his computer for information and such so he to can finally work on it. Which I am happy that I got the promotion I am just like how did that happen so quick?
I am just a savage I thought you need alot more than just experience and such in it. But I got it and it blows me away and I am seriously honored which makes me go wow.
Spoke to Gandalf and he and I spoke about everything under the sun from the coven to his new found expeirence with a woman who wants to make him a student of hers. I smiled as he spoke about how many degrees she has and how she can feel energy. I was like okay this las likes to brag and well I have degrees in many things I dont brag. For that is not me.
He said she was not bragging. TO me it sounded like it was bragging so she can entice him in and teach him for a price. WHat the price is I am not sure I just dont like that he is alone not knowing what to do and say and such . So now I am worried for a woman in aussie ville wants to train him. He is an open mind and I am hoping he can take what she gives him. Too much at once is abit much and I even know this.
He makes me laugh and he really does not understand the full power of himself and with time he can be wonderful and do wonderful things. But he needs to heal first and he choose Isis or a reason.
Yeah I care about him, yeah I think I like him more then I should. But I like to laugh and he is soothing to me. ehhh I have to get him out of my head before it is too late.
So I am hoping I can create a box fast enough to get him where he needs to be. :)
Work went well and was seriously fast. Tl came up to me and was like can you do over time? I was like okay sure tues thru thursday and friday I am getting off normal time for I have to finsih my box for Daniel...
Leo and Moshe and I looked out at the stars tonight it was neat to see orion just beaming down at us like hello
Grumbles
grrrs and claws
Raja
learned the different names of God in the bible of the old testment. Very interesting stuff you have ten names for the same god. So I wrote a poem about it ..
Names of God
Inspired from the old testament
Adonai the lord my great lord
God of master to all of us and majestic one
Elohim the all powerful creator of the universe and knows all us before we even begun
EL roi the god who sees me there in no circumstance in my life that you do not see
El shaddi the all sufficient one you are my all sufficient source , flow and it has begun
Immanuel god with us I am , God your promises never fail so I am ,faih of all , you can
Jevoh the one who is the slf or existent one
Your faithfulness to me I obey in you and feel as we are one
Jevoha rapha the one who heals, take all the pain away and I soak in your love and see how if feels
Jevoah roh the lord is my shepard I shall not need
You direct, care and do lead
Jevoah tisdkenu the lord our righteousness god to all
you are one who loves us all
fasting and rebuking alot of junk this morning is what I did so it is still morning and yes I am tired as hell . Why releasing the garbage and purgiing toxcins wow makes alot of thing open your eyes to things. l like most people have not ever seen all the names unless spoken thru a priest preacher or something like that and well I am just a person viewing in is all opening the mind and seeking more of God in general. It is a wonderful view and very much something I can not see to do . I donot think many relaize in the old testment there are many names for god but in the new it is more about Jesus and his walk. Which I researched and got names for and well I will get into that another day.
:)
purrs and licks
Raja
I am going to bed
Soooo let me see
I hinted to the peeps of our coven they better be at the meet and greet so I can get a room so we can do like a vampire ball or something. We can have our own fun damn it.
Cleaned the alters and changed alot. I have bast up but took anubis down today which was because it reminded me alot like alex in turn I turned it into celtic gods stuff so I can move on. I have a Tara alter now and I have a Kwan yin alter too.
I have an ancetral one for my grandparents and took down the greek one.
Making a veggie soup for the week ahead last week of fasting yeah!
Does the happy cat dance! I am soooooooo getting a steak when this is all over with..
actually rearranged the bed too so I have more room.
I did my taxes on line so I am in shock it was easier then I thought and well I hope to god I did it right is all I am saying.
http://www.taxactonline.com/
it is free and you are walked thru the process no more hr and block for me hehehehe
Spoke to gandalfie today he made me laugh and I made him sleepy which is a switch aroo that is for sure. I told him people on line think we are dating online and he was like really? I was like yeah so far three peeps have asked me and was like ummmm no we are friends and flirting is all. He is in Pa and I am Fl what the heck would that be long distance omg no. Never again. Alex was online and it made me realize I need to just skip over anythng remotely male wise online for me . I am not saying online dating is not cool.
I am just too old and set in my ways to deal with that. Yeah plus the last human I dealt with sex sucked so I lost all sexual thought patterns there is no point in a sexmate....yeah I flirt with him but uh he does not like me that way and if he did he has not said anything to me about it. We are just friends. GOOD GOD!
Good luck to anyone who can do that online long distance thingy but I am not cut out for it nor do I think I can swing it...
Ehhh you cannot train an old cat new tricks simple as that. Personally I rather die an old maid. So I dont have to deal with loosing another one before me.
Death sucks and yeah it hurts that Alex is gone. Before him David died and it took me forever to get over that one. SO eheh as flipper would say. NO more bullshit. No more meat market stuff not I! Not for me. It would be a serious freakin miracle if I was to be inlove again. Hell I have a fairy god mother with a toaster oven smacking me in the head all the time so I just dont think she will go smack here is a guy for you!
eh
I need a cat nap.
grumbles and claws
Raja
I have broke the fast sort of chicken and rice sorry love itttttttttt. Anyways today has been a blessed day. I got alot of garbage out and well I am feeling lighter if that makes sense. Writing alot more poetry too.
Michele was no where to be found today though she was back imagine that.
Rolls eyes.
but I sang gospel music in the morning and was all kinds of positive all day long and night. I wore all black today and realized tomorrow I can wear jeans!!!!! woohoo. I wore jamies tonight but it is mighty nippy so i am not wanting to get sick again.
took a wonderful bath and loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my back scratcher that stays on the wall so you can scratch like a bear for your back in the shower. meowie wonderful bath toy!!!!! mighty yummy!
29He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound].(A)
30Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted;
31But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.(B)
this is what I had for a prayer today alot of mixed feelings on it but interesting none the less.
I had thought about john today and lo and behold he actually emailed me. I was hoping his travels to his girlfriend was perfect and helpful and well I was hoping he had found her. The one. :)
Interesting view:S
Other then that . That was my day!
purrs and claws
Raja
OKay I guess I really am a token goth.. Again I went out with some friends and they were lets go see Twilight! (zip there you have it folks yet again. Falls to floor and stays there...) Before I could say no.... Then of course they were sooooooooooo into the books and into the whole romance thing I wanted to puke for what was I sitting next to in the movie? A couple mid fifties watching it. The woman wearing flower pants and a t shirt that so did not match and the guy jeans and a t shirt. She first leaned up against him then changed position and put her legs over his then she practically sat in her lap. Then they started kissing eachother. I was like can you at least go in the back of movie and do that... It was crazy!!!Flower power go back to the bus you came off of okay???
Normally I would say okay the room was filled with goths and kindergoths... today nope mundanes alot of them..
anddddddddd as my luck would have it then Marilyn and Dezzy were like after the movie Wouldn't you like to live forever? I said I think it would be boring seeing the same crap over and over again and you lived on. I said humanity as a whole has forgotten courting and courtship and love, real love. Now it is about emailing, texting and online dating and cellphone calling and texting yet again. I mean think about it as a race we should be advanced yes but we lost something on the way I feel. I dont know maybe it is me but the internet seems to be the next level of inpersonal romance. Yeah you can act out and be who ever you want to be onlne. But really outside the mundane world do you look at the moonlight or just pass it by? Do you understand why wolves howl at the moon? Do you yet clearly see the ocean for her beauty of life and death? I mean really how many really appreciate mother earth. For what she is and who she is to us all?
I caught Marilyn trashing a curb area. I said girl pick that up you are harming mother nature. She laughed but it that man over there who is supposed to be doing his job... So trashing a place so someone else can do their job is okay?
I am not vampire , never claimed to be nor claimed to be something I am not. I am me and yes vampires are interesting that is why I am on this thing typing away.
If I had a choice to live forever and be with that same person forever lol you best love that person alot..... For if you die for another one and go through something so animalistic and primal as that you have a price to pay.. Soooooo anyways Marilyn looked at me when I said it is not about eating blood off others it is a matter of seeing humanity going to sh-- or hell in a hand basket.
Yes being love is beautiful but is it eternal? Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee nowadays no one loves another for the person is just a woman or a man . It is about what you have that the other doesnt and such. Cynical? Jaded? Maybe but I have loved and I have seen it die. DO I want it again? Not right now...For I am not ready for it..
I would rather bask in my gods then deal with another male that thinks he can please me better then the last one. It is not about pleasing me it is about loving me for me. It is about showing me you can think and feel and hear the world around you and see it as a jouney in romance and love.
END of story!
Sorry about the bit--in I have just had enough of this twilight fixation and people not really getting the point of life in general. Shez (would I like to be a vampire? um no) I like thought about it but no....I really would not.
happy purrs and paws
Raja
1056 pm
trip and I spoke about all kinds of things tonight. He is a trip that is for sure hehe. He makes me laugh alot and has very neat prespective on things and pepper is just the cutest kitty and he is very proud of her.
Other then that my day was wasted by laundrey and soup making for the week ahead. The fasting is going well.
I have pruged alot of negation of the system and it is weird it is like I am learning alot about my thoughts of lack are stemming from. My parents and they way they would talk to how some people would infulence it under talking more so about how poor we were being raised.
It is the law of attraction thing there hitting a home run without me even noticing it till now... Which I am going to fix.
Also noticed that the sun does not bother me as much as I thought it would so I did not wear sunglasses.. Imagine that the light did not bother me. It was refreshing on the skin and though it was cold Leo and I basked in it for a few. The sun felt like warm fuzzies and my skin was not burning yeah!!!
Does the happy kitty dance
have a good night
meows and purrs
Raja
635 am and still up and about. Freakin hate meds that dont work so I took night time nyquil which if you ever had the green O MY is all I can say..It felt like drano going down a drain. Yes I took my antibotics but the hacking like you are going to die thing not very helpful in sleep zone if you know what I mean. WOW it has a nasty after taste..
It is 20 below here in Jax and all I can say is wowwwwwwwwwwwww. FL never really gets that cold and I am not afraid of the cold but when I am this sick I am not walking the dog until I see sunlight for it will be better for us all.. Heck I would go out if I was feeling better but nah no thanks humans I will ave to so deal with when walking him today.. BLAH!
I could not sleep at all and I had lots of things on my mind for example coworkers not going to drs and getting checked out. Our supervisor doing the same thing. I was like shez if I have a small portion of what they are still going through I have to say death is not worth the job. Yes we help people daily and yes it is backed up but we are not doing over time and we arent alotted it. SO we can only do what we can do. If people call sick while management is away it will be on all our heads and well nothing personal I dont think the stack will go down of files when people do call out. But it is not about team work or even their health its about the loss of money which I get but do I care? NO. Again somehow God will provide it and I wont have to worry about the missed day. DO I think my coworkers are nuts yes.
For example two had the balls to tell me that I can listen to joyce meyers all day and be gothic. I am bringing bad things to me because of this and until I pick a side I will always have turmoil in my life. They knew about couch corspe and how one he did not get a job and two it took two months for me to get him out of the house for he was getting on my nerves to the point I was wanting to get him badly in a not so nice way... Yelling at him did not work, saying no to him made him stop the really bad sex in the first week he was here which I was under the impression it would be just sex and you can go away, not I dont have a place to stay and I came here to be with you.... He was out new years day and lovely to say my home feels peaceful again and thank you all the gods that made that possible so he can mouch off someone else and not me.
So I came to the conclusion after that bad exprience never again. If you are not hoteling it to where you are visiting, you are notttttttttttt living with me unless one you are really good in bed and two you treat me with respect love and honesty. and of course know that my animals are my chidlren so you only get treat like second best.. Then maybe I will keep you as a pet. HUMAN wise. I did not want a human pet and have not for sometime.
But reflecting on this now I can honestly say I learned one how to control the volient side two I am not meant for snuggles all day long and such and I really have to be in love with the next one if ever that happens ever again.
Another thing thru this fasting and prayer process I learnt about myself . I had alot of garbage emotionally to get rid of. I have been doing it all week and well The list slowly has dwindled down which is amazing. WOHOo
Other that I have been having really odd dreams....
hugs and purrs to all my readers
Raja
I went to drs and they claimed I have a virus not a cold. Ergo and say the flowing about my cowrkers and my manager...
I am sorry I am cranky but I have not a cold but a virus from work and WELL they all shall burn........... into little bits on monday. When I walk in not doing what they are doing; which is slowly dying for none of them went to a doctor! Dumb arses is all I have to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Redid my bedroom so I would have less draft on my head and cat on my head playing at the window...
Made a vat (no joke) of veggie soup for the next week for I am still fasting . Why you ask? Well I got thru a week I can get thru the other two...
SO far the only thing I have really suffered is a virus, weakness, and bouts of wtf are you thinking people moments..
Hey I have a plus side to it. I washed my jeans in really hot water and dried them really hot lol anddddddddddddd I can put two hands in my jeans. (to me that is beyond weird)
I am loosing weight being a Vegan! rofl
Bloody hell my sister in NY is Vegan and she would laugh her ass off at me at this moment. Like I did her when I made cookies for omi and she ate four dozen cookies with not leaving one for omi. Bad Tori! She did not share butter homemade cookies with our grandmother when she was alive. I mean the girl just ate everything you could think of I brought for her that week ( my grandmother) I brought triskets and brie and liverworst and ya know german stuff. Tori like a mad mad crazed human gorged on it all everything I made to bought. I looked at her and all she said was the cookies made her do it. Omi looked at me and said yeah they did.
I blinked and did the what the blank blank blank are you doing it??!!!!!!!!!IT was for OMI! She looked at me all scared and said I know I am a bad vegan. I laughed so hard I could not say anything. I took out another box of cookies for omi and said here these are for you hide them or Tori will eat those too. I made two boxes one for my uncle and one for omi to jog her memory more so. For she was forgetting alot at the time.
Anyways I babble and ramble deep into good memories good night dear readers
Raja
meows and purrs
Fasting is showing me how to be a humble humancame out with a spell for my Irish path
Cerridwen spell for new moon
She is an irish las who is of the cauldron of life. She is known with the grains of life and creativity inspiration and wealth…
Black candle and something woodsy sandalwood to patchouli oil anoint the candle and say
Goddess of the grain
Lady of the dark moon
I ask for your grace
Show me your wisdom of magic, empower my spells with your craft
Transform my intentions into reality
For according to the fasting you let go of your sins and move onto expecting positive outcomes. So I felt it was neat and ad to do it..
With life it has been interesting today.
fell alseep peacefully by 7 pm and then I woke up at 1200 am . 5 hours for me that is good walked leo and felt a presence watching over me and coming to my side but at a distance. I herd a voice and thought it has to be the fasting thing lack of food mostly meat and caffine. lol
No tv and well I have shund myself from my world but operating in it and spending time in the bible aka old book of shadows..
I am just at a peaceful state of mind and it is weird is all..
Happy paws and purrs
Raja
okay so fasting has definitely brought some new insight into stuff woohooo
I was working out yes you can if you are doing juices and fruits and veggies. and alot of water...
So Iwas listening to the call of my heart and pretended on the trailblazer tredmill I was mountin climbing with me a white tiger stood and walked with me to the top of a moutnain and there laid a temple of some kind . We went in and I saw a golden buddha and there was alot of peace. I smiled and yes I was walking with my eyes closed on the tredmill thingy I did nt care if the people around me looked at me like I was a loon but it went well. Dr Us went through alot worse and no food so to me that was just a blessing...
My sister got into our coven yeah she is going to love it there... I know it. We are all kinds of family and friends there so I believe she will live it and love it as I do.
yes I am abit proud of our coven why? We have taken our lumps and bumps and gotten thru it all.
That is why and we are doing a meet and greet inm may for the usa people so I am hoping some of them show :)
I would like all of them to show but hell I am being greedy.. For if I get to meet them in person I get to see our peeps for real ya know what I mean.
Happy paws and claws to all my readers
Raja
lol the song stupid boy comes to mind
320am I walked my dog and a guy was talking to another guy on a porch and he looked at me walking my dog. He said hey you . I said good morning. Being polite to knock the impending dom I felt. He said dog is cute. I said what? My dog is adorable . He said no you can I walk you with your dog? I smiled and said no thank you. Looked at the moon and walked with a bit of a rush.. I said stupid girl without her dagger in the head .... Sings stupid boy... lol
yeah country weird I know the only one that actually is doable..
then I felt a calm over me and I was fine. hmmm
brigit in the air..
I know I am fasting tv so I am not that weak again. just in case....
On a happy note my sister stacey is getting along with a friend robert. I am happy to report they spoke for two hours and they are happy joy joy.. I love.... love it is so cute when it is new.or okay a flirting thingy whatever you want to call it it inspires the soul to see she is happy and he is happy..
Day two of fasting they say you get grouchy and all however I feel clearer in sight and well did the list of getting rid of the old to make way for the new. Walked Leo today in bright light and walking thru the park was interesting I felt safe and not so safe for the first time which was weird so I walked him and we got home.
Prayed to Brigit for openning my creativity and
actually prayed to Elshaddi for helping with my finances so we shall see waht happens next.
find this really neat and refreshed.
Probably going to focus on the Reiki master handbook again and get more into the mind set of what Dr Usi did..
ahhhh friday
Much lovins to the friday evening thing..
I got home from a long day of omgwtf and I got thru it. I was pondering why the cubical hell is actually worth while???
I may take my friends offer about being a nanny again though part time I would rather deal with diapers then assholes...
I actually did something I would not do but I did it. LOL I actually am burning a candle for my marriage mate. I find this candle is ready and have my list and ring under it and asked the gods to shine the way to meeting him. Whoever he is. I am not sure why but the moon was so beautiful walking leo this morning at 230 am and seeing the stars it was just like okay I have to move on and get on with life. I never thought about it but put my list underneath it and the ring I want. It is neat and well quite unusal as I am.
So yeah I did the candle and lol I never thought I would really do that..
Then a friend in work who is fasting for spiritual guidance I said I will do it with you. Reiki master Dr Usi did it I can do it too. It seems like you are vegan for three weeks and I guess I can give up meat and such. I am going to fast tv for the for week which is crazy for me for I love house and bones and lol fringe but hey one week I can do that for I cannot get the food that they are asking for till I get paid.
Then I will slow into it and do it. It is interesting and why I do it is not only to have my friend have a buddy besides her husband but why not? I love my gods and I think I can walk in Jesus's path he was a rabbi and lol he is a brother to all of us weirdos..
ah so no tv shall I make it? I hope so. I have a game plan and well I am excited about it..
I trust in the greater plan and well I find it curious that a church does this for spiritual expectancy.
:)
Other then that not much is going on in my world phyiscally spiritually well there is alot and well we shall see if I finally meet this person in my dreams.
Happy paws and purrrs
Raja
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Okay I am seriously weakened from a migraine but heck I am home and snuggley soft..
Called out sick and let them know I could not move. 500am I finally moved to do that. Then I took the meds for the darn stuff and y body made me sickkkkkkkkkkkkk,
Ladies and Gentleman donot take imtrex first thing in the morning without food. Blah is all I can say. :P
How precious is Daniel? he is adorable! He got his package and lol told the whole coven about it. (blushes) I made him a kit for the beginner pagan and his goddess. He literally told them yeah I got goodes and necklace and stuff. It was so so cute. I think it is beautiful and exciting to be one with you gods.
God knows your plan. Goddess does too. Sighs in contentment you are a masterpiece and have a master plan for you all you have to do is walk with him or her.:)
oh it is neat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:) he makes my day seeing him on line and being the cuteness he is.
Happy paws and claws
Raja
Did you ever have a day where you werreeee like um yeah the day went by and wow it left...
I went to work lol knowing people we are all over the triage thing and I was like lol I m going listen to my happy music and go from there. and did ignored them all and got stuff done.
I had gone it the gym after work worked out like a nut. To get the stress out from work and then I got home to where I ate a half of a yummy roast beef sandwich and three freakin cup cakes and huge ass glass of milk. I thought one what the freak is wrong with me and two I am tired. So I took a nice r and r bath and soaked brushed my teethies read in bed and fell asleep by 700pm (blinks) NO more cupcakes lol bad juju I slept the night away not realizing that sugar does that to you. or really me. I thought I would be zipping but noooooooooooooooooo I fell a sleep like a log and was like um yeah what the heck happened..
Trip got his package of goodies and I am sooo glad it inspired him to get on his way for his faith. He is into Isis so I sent him stuff a bit of a starter kit for mr man for he really is new to it all. :)
I am glad he is inspired to be with his goddess and what a new journey it will be for him.
Prayed to Brigit for lately I am in my Irish roots big time and missing Boowie my older cat more then usual. He was my fimalur so for me it has been rough even with Leo and Moshe around.
I found the bag of cat whiskers I had of his and placed in in my small rose box that I carry with me. I guess a bit of him with me would not hurt matters much. I just miss in big time for he purred different he loved me and was there for me well since I was 15 and now I am 37 year old crying over the fact I miss him badly. Dont get me wrong Moshe is a gret little kitty but he is not and well we donot connect like I did with him. I feel at a loss and I think that is why I have not prayed to Bast in a while nor Anubis for Alex was taken too. I dont blame them for their deaths but maybe in my heart I do and I cannot get over it as of yet for I miss them so.
I think after cleansing the house like I did over the weekend I opened a flood gate of peace but alot of omgwtf happened last year and I am sooooo glad it is a new year.
Anyways that was my thoughts for the day.
Happy paws and claws to my readers
EHHHHH
the song what a day comes to mind
The tl yet again is sick go figure fmla is a serious daily event with her for no reason..
She added my job to everyone's email time we have an hour and let me tell you it is a wasted effort half of my day was like stats up the ying yang for the patients. I was like holy moly.. What a mess...
She could not hack it after taking it from me and now everyone has to do it and they are at a loss looking at me like I am supposed to do this and know this and stuff? I laughed to myself for they were bitching up a storm and all they had to do was seek auth. not figure out what goes where.. I just rolled with it and went from there.
They felt my pain today. None of them said shit to me after that. I left at my normal time and did the hahahahaa I am out of there buddy. I am an answer to your problem and no joke the answer has left the building.
Peace out! Bright sunny ghetto area.. Cause I am not here.
I got home and fed the animals and laughed to myself. I started a dungon in our coven and one was brave enough to go in. I am not into the s and m ways I am learning it and I find it interesting but I am too independent to be a full out well slave or sub..
learnt about the verbage today
A slave/sub never capitalizes any noun refering to themself.
And will always capitalize the Dominate they are speaking with.
the dominates do the same to reinforce the focus.
Even if the noun is at the front of the sentence.
you as the slave/sub would also refer to yourself as "she", "it", "this one" ect, ect.
And example would be.....(this one would like to know how best it may serve You tonight Master.)
Even the Teacher/student relationship is one between a Dominate ( Teacher ) and a submissive (student)
Interesting stuff helpful to the coven forum so I am learning on a level of the mind more so...
Well its 452 am and I have a little to get off my chest already.. LOL Leo and I were taking our long walk which I do on weekends. Lo and behold the park dog as I call him followed us all over the place wanting to walk with Leo and play with Leo and Leo was like my human, my space. I totally get that but the dog was not saying anything (barking) or doing anything to Leo.
He was just wagging his tail like hey I have seen you before let us play... Leo was like damn it dog leaveeeeeeeeeeeee. ( with his growl) So I got home went out for a moment and got a dog bone for the stray pup and the bone is peanut butter as soon as he looked at me without Leo he ran away down the block in seconds.
Funny that a dog wanting to be with other dogs but not a human. He must have been harmed by someone at some time. But he is the cutest stray I ever did see. I dont want to take him home I already have a dog but he was homeless and probably hungry as all get out..
Eh maybe I will see him at the park. I will have to bring a bone with me everywhere I walk for he has seen us before and well the dog needs some kind of eatings...
It makes me understand the trust thing. But what got me was he is used to other dogs. Dogs are still new to me since I have only had Leo for 7 years. He had opened my heart to them. Before that I was strickly a cat owner.
Damn him he was under my house when I had one lol I would have never been open to even talking about another dog less alone about dogs! lol He is my puppydog love old man whatever and has shown me something that cats do not do. Unconditional love no matter what. Don't get me wrong my cats showed me love and love me with all their heart but there is no cat I know of that comes up to you when you have had a hard day of work and wagging its tail at you and licking you to the floor. snickers Leo is 75 pounds worth of mighty dog so all muscle and strong as heck but easily can knock me over to when I bend down and pet the pooch.
So that is my mini story of my Leo and I walk.
Have a good morning all and happy paws and claws to all my readers..
I just got rid of couch corspeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yeah
does the happy cat paw dance. free at last free at last!!!!
The blooming bloody thing wanted to stay and actually hit on me for sex then later tried to kiss me good bye. I was like dude get to that virigin with a quickness and dont come around here no more. What the heck?! You are loved by a person that wants you and you are moving to her and you really dont and should not mess around with me but your girlfriend.
What the heck it is a new year and a new me fook offfffffffffffff I am not a door mat!
On other news I am a news master for my coven I was like what the heck is this list? She did not say what it was for just what it does. I looked at her list and did the is this a hint and she was like oops lol yep you are a news person now woohoo okay so looking at this huge list I have alot to learn and it looks like fun...
muhahaha
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