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eeeeeeeeeeeeeeek im going to hide under my desk now and become friends with the dust bunnies.......

maybe make a little fort under there,... and not come out for a few weeks =)

........... i just got called a tramp and a bimbo.... by my grandparents for my use of "colorful" language.... oi.... what is this world coming to!

help

well its one of those days... actually its been one of those weeks... kind of a blur... exactly a week ago today, 2 of my very good friends were in a horrible car accident.... one of them was killed on impact... and the other is in the intensive care unit of a hospital about an hour away from here....they won't let anyone in but immediate family to see him... and its annoying as fuck... last tuesday was the funeral for Kristin..she was only 20 years old... hers was the hardest funeral i've been to.... i positively hate crying in front of other people... let alone a room full of people... but as soon as i walked in and heard the sad music... and saw her laying there in the casket... surrounded by flowers and a bulletin board of pictures of her and friends... it just happened.... i couldn't even make it up to the front to .. to pay the last respects thing....

how can things like this happen?.... i know the world can be such an evil unfair place at times.. but its at times like these that it really hits home... i wish more than anything i could have said goodbye or something... and now i don't even know if my other friend malachi is going to be alright... i know i can't go through another funeral like that the other day... its wierd because last night i had a dream about him coming home from the hospital... it was great until i woke up... bleh... its so cliche to say.. but it really isn't fair...