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Ever had one of those day where all you want to do is run away?



I have the urge to run today, and it's almost overpowering .......



I just want to jump on my bike and haul the throttle back, lean low over the tank and just scream my anger and frustration at the world into the wind at 180+ km an hour.



To smash something ... to put on my old SCA armour, dust off my sword and hack something to bits .....



Sink my claws and teeth into flesh and rip assunder



'Sigh' But I can't .... when I'm in this sort of mood I'd just hurt myself or some innocent.



So ...... it just gets bottle up and pushed aside. One day I'm going to snap!! It's just a matter of time.



Footnote: These moods do give me ideas for my stories ...... and it also let me know I'm alive!!

Funny how you can be in the best of moods and then one unthinking comment will pull the rug right out from under you.



Normally I'm pretty upbeat but the last few months have been ....... ODD to say the least.



Plodding along doing the 9 - 5 grind and home to do the dredded house work ..... it just dosn't cut it anymore. I don't just want more from life ..... I NEED it! Like I need air!! But what?? What is it I want .... I just can't seem to put a finger on it. One moment I want to travel, the next I just want to hide from the world.



I know it's not just me that feels this way. I know the look in my eye now ..... and I can see it in others.



This modern pace of life, this drive to spend, spend, spend !! It's killing us.

I'm a frustrated artist. I love to create. Writing, drawing, woodwork, even making my vegi patch was a creative outlet.



My dream is to be able to support myself financially by creating something.....ahhhhh but what!! There's too many things I like to do. So many projects lying around the place.

Arrrrrgggggghhhhh !!! Not enough time in a single 24 hour day. (Tears hair in frustration!)



"Sigh" Only got myself to blame really. Just too dam easily distracted......hang on...there's someone at the door.....back in a min!

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