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Today has been a very odd day. I had only one class today so i decided to visit my old highschool. All the staff were there and it was a bit like being back in school. Though at the present moment my school is about to close, and i am trying to figure out where to go now. If i went to the library i would most likely find myself on the edge of murdering everyone. I hate people sometimes. However i hate my house even more! And of course everyone has to be busy on the same day i am dieing of boredom, so i can't go to a friends. It seems like whenever someone wants to do something, i either have no time, or i have too much work to do. Though whenever i want to do something everyone else is stuck at their house or somewhere else they can't get out of. It just sucks ASS!!!!

why is it that when u do someone a favor once, they always come back with another favor? I try to do anything i can to help people, but lately i have been taken advantage of. I fuckin shit! I watch my neighbors kids for an hour, with her saying "I promise i won't ask you to do this again". Then she comes back over and over again until i say enough! I'm so tired of it! About a month ago i helped a teacher clean her class room because she said she really needed the help and i figured i wasn't doing anything important anyways. But this morning she asked me again to help her for about the fifth time. But this time i was actually doing something important for a change and told her i cound't help at that very second. Now she thinks i'm a selfish little whore. That bitch!!!

What the hell does it mean when you have a dream about death? Again last night I had a dream that a Man with a pistol was hunting me down! It all started late last year when i first had a dream that some crazy woman with bright red hair came to my house and shot me 6 times in the chest. but i was still alive and when i got up she started beating me with a bat but i couldnt feel it anymore, then i got up, took the bat, and hit her across the head, and when she was on the ground, i shot her until the bullets ran out. Ever since that dream i've had at least 15 more both where people were coming after me, and also where im going after others. I've looked it up online but they all say ao many different things on what they cound mean, but it seems like im more confused now, then when i was before i started researching it.

Well, if you havn't noticed i am new to VR, so this is my first entry. I honestly don't open myself up like this to...well anyone, but lately it has felt like my mind is going to explode and though i've even gone to the extent of yoga for help, it has not changed anything. So why not keep up with a journal? I guess in some insanely odd way it might be of use to me. So this is my starting entry, and i will try to continue it as much as possible. Also, before i end this off today i must inform you that what i write may not always make sense. And also as i wrote in the above paragraph, i don't usually go rambling off the top of my mind. Usually i think before i say anything to anyone, and i really don't like telling people to much, i guess i have a fear that they will find out something that i'll regret in the near or far future. So keep this in mind if you read any of my future entries.