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!. He tells me that in order to love someone you have to love yourself first



2. We start each day with a hug



3. We go hunting together



4. He says I love you every time we part



5. He compliments me often



6. We appreciate and celebrate our love for eachother



7. We live each day as it was our last



8. We write unexpected love letters



9. We go on a date once a week



10. He sends me flowers for no reason



11. we accept and care for each other and our family



12. Make little signs that say I love you and post them all over the house



13. He tells me to stop and smell the roses



14. Kiss unexpectedly



15. Watch the sun set together



16. Apoligize sincerely after an arguement



17. Be forgiving



18. Hold hands



19. Say I love you with your eyes



20. Rember the day we met and recreate it



21. He lets me cry in his arms



22. He lets me knoe he understands



23. Have a toast to love and commitment



24. We do exciting things together



25. I help him with directions when he gets lost



26. I laugh at his jokes



27. He appreciates me inner beauty



28. We share the household chores



29. We have wonderful dreams about each other



30. We sho public displayes of afdfection



31. We write each other loving messages



32. We record special moments in journals



33. He calms my fears



34. We walk in the meadow together at sunset



35. We respect each other



36. We cheer each other on when we play baseball



37. We give each other equal amounts of love



38. I show interest in his work



39. We do projects together



40. He pushes me high on the swingset by moonlight



41. We never stay mad



42. We kiss often



43. We spend quality tim together

His golden eyes piercing through my soul. I can tell the tension between us getting harder to control. His skin pale and cold as ice. i love you I whisper to him. I had to think twice to believe he was real. I know he trys his best to resist his hunger for me, but I was numb, I became stuck in the moment. He loved me and i loved him. he promised not to harm me. He wouldn't dare. Feeling helpless when he left my side, i want to become like him even if I was willing to die. I want to memorize his perfect looks in the rays of the sun. Is he real/ Or is he just a dream? I feel my heart beatimg fast when he kisses my lips. He was always there to hold me closeby whenever I needed him to. I was positive he cared no matter what. I want more than anything to be part of his world. I didn't want to be normal anymore. He became my one and only. He is my obsession. My heart mealted when he spoke. One thing was for sure I am in love with him.

I stare at the in the mirror. I rember her smile, rember her laugh. the way her eyes lit up when he walked through the door. The way she would talk till her cheeks were sore. How she would never shed a single tear and how spiders were her only fear. The nights she lived for. And the wonderful life she had before she was made a vampire. It makes me sad rembering how she was and how in the course of six years that was lost. Now she's burned every picture she ever had that reminded her of her mortal life. And only thinks of how bad life has been. now every night she cries herself to sleep. She longs for death instead of immortal life. Her friends are gone they all moved on. her new family is distant to see the pain she hides. And the tears that fall on her pillow like rain. Everyday she says she's ok but deep inside she is already dead.

my heart is broken from the pain I feel. I don't know the reason for the sorrow I feel. I'm usually upbeat and happy. but my heart can't fill this empty space that causes me all this pain. It's not from the lack of love or being near someone who cares. How can I fill this empty space that plagues me at night before i sleep.

How long has it been since you wrapped me in your arms? How long are you going to wait to tell me you are proud of me? Tell me now, stop acting like there is nothing wrong with me. i know that i'm different. i can see right through you. Are you ashamed of me/ I don't mean to be a disapointment but its no like i don't try. I want to one day see you cry because you are proud of me. But life is hard for a vampire like me. You use to let me lie in your arms but now i feel you push me away. When i would cry you would tell me everyting will be ok. You would pick me upwhen i would fall. But now you don't even notice that i'm falling inside. Help me! You used to tell me try your best. But now you tell me i'm not trying hard enough. How long are you going to wait to tell me that you love and care about me and that you are proud of me/ A long time gone by I miss thoes times.

It's like a plague that never goes away. Or an animal and its prey.

It waits and waits, until you're ready. Then it closes in and devours you from the inside out. All you see is shadows of the ones you once knew. No more happiness, no more laughter, no more love. It's like a thunderstorm that takes away your soul. Your soul becomes a black hole.Whatever said, heard or learned . Is forgotten, never to return. No longer does anything matter, It's all darkness like a curse that never goes away.

To tell you what I feel is very painful.

But you'r not allowed to see. I'm tired of being hidden. How I long to be just me!

To show my one true self oh how different i want to be.

I just realy want to be allowed to be me. With you I'm just that little who you won't let grow up.

But dad I know you will love me no matter what. But just let me be me.

I lay alone at night on the cold meadow floor and wonder why am I here? I do so much for everyone why don't they show they care? I hang out with this guy named James who tells me he loves me but then he breaks my heart. it's always up and down. There is so much anger and so much hurt. i feel trapped inside. Sometimes I wiah James would love me in a good way instead of causing me so much pain. I sometimes feel my life is just a lie, like the smile I put on my face each and every day. I know outside I'm smiling. it's the face I fake for the sake hiding the pain I feel caused by James. But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing i can do. I know Laurent and Valerie love me. I'm there to stay with them. I'm sick of feeling like this. i lay in the grass and wonder what the hell am i doiing here. Can I wake up from this dream? Can I please just disapear.

To you i'm style, beauty, grace. At least I appear to be. But no one knows the who hides behind the face that you see. my self esteem is all but gone. There's so much pain behind the mask that I wear upon my face. Depression is controling my life. With far to manytears, my smile hides my pain. I have been doing it for many years my cover is what attracts you. to the story within me, and i am afraid without it no one would bother to look at who i am.

The gentle wind blows under the moonlit sky. Do you hear my undying cry's? Below the branches here without. Do you sense my fear and doubt? Flowing ruvers , sparkiling streams. Do you not hear my painful screams? In the feilds covered with dew. Don't you se my heart's in two? Beneath the twinkling stars. Do you feel my jagged scars? I am scattered through the moonlit skys. listen to my lonely sighs. I'm drifting in the gentle rain. A symbol of my silent pain. I'm buried under the meadow floor. joined with all the sorrow there. I'm lost among the starsthis night. Too far to ease my quiet fright. No wind to touch my heart. Because it is all torn apart.

Hopelessly bound by the chains of love's grip. The greatest gift, fate's cruelest curse.

I weep knowing the joy, the warmth, at feeling peace. The fire unable to be complete or just to be. Your kiss hot as flames. Not knowing, loving and not loving. Seeing but not toucjing. Breathing but not feeling. Holding but not loving/ Because I am no more.

You know somethings up. Something not quite right. You've been falling down, withdrawing from the light. Feel the darkness setting in? The dark seduction of your sin? Just give yourself up again. Let the sweet agony begin. Blowing people off with disreguard. You push them away so far. So far from your breaking heart. Are you going to let your self fall? Will you let yourself be so careless and slip? Or will you continue on? And mend your heart, darkness is setting in. Feel it closing all around. Will you keep going? Or will you fall to the ground. Keep going or give up? Hurry and chose before it's to late.

Hot lips are roses, her eyes are darts. She will fly away on a lovers wing. Away Far from home. At night she sleeps on the rolling ocean. her eyelashes gather morning dew and On her lips. Just as the grass in the day. While the children are away. Alone she roams at night, in the dark. In the night she 's on the swins there in the park.

Each cut more satisfying than the last. The deeper the better. The sharper the faster. With each drop that falls, so does a part of me. I bleed for you, I bleed for me, I bleed for us. Hide the cuts no one should know. More pills, more cuts, light another cigarett. Deeper the cut stronger the pills. I like life and love death. My dear I love you too. Found a few friends to fill the void. More substances, sharper objects. I feel myself drifting away. I love this journey. I love you more. Will I o.d this time/ Risks aremeant to be taken and I'm taking them is capsule form. Needles, knives, razors, glass. Drugs and food I fall on my ass. How about this subtract the food add the drugs! No need for weed! Why smoke when you can float. Huff and puff to much effort. i'm stepping closer to insanity. I'm fully under control. Then again maby not.

I may not be beautiful. I may not be rich. sometimes life's hard, and i act like a bitch.

It's easier for you to walk away than it is for you to reach out to me. It's easier for you to look away than it is for you to see my despair. It's easier for you to look through me than it is for you to see me. It's easier for you to distance yourself then it is for you to realy care. It's easier for you to hear than it is for you to realy listen. it's easier for you to judge than it is for you to understand. It"s easier for you to lable than it is for you to know me. It"s easier for you to bask in your glory than it is for you to feel my pain.

Your black eyes burned me, my pulse gone array. The heat within moved me. Lighting a fire through my veins. The pale perfection that is your face. left me wanting more for your sweet embrace. Your thick blond hair, sent my fingers wandering for pure delight. Are you real or just my obsession? This continues to be my burning question. No regrets from me when I joined you. Romance revived by the midnight hour at hand. You watch me sleep in the meadow of green. Should I fear you or chose to stay? Either way my heart is yours. Weather my happiness follows my impending doom. because i fell in love with a tracker.

First impressions

smiling eyes

swiftly sensing how with each seductive glance

they are devouring my soul.

Every bit of all that I know myself to be.

Walls made dense through time. Are now brought down so carelessly. damning all uncertain. Confident eyes teasing me. His look embracing me. I am eternaly yours.