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Today I haven't done anything at all, but rest I'm so exhausted I keep falling asleep with my bedroom lights on. Dream time has become a chaotic minefield of information to sort out between what is message and what is just apart of regular dreams. My mind is racing with so many things, from regular mundane aspects of life, to more spiritually conscious awareness. The past week I have been trying to clarify all the messages being sent out throughout the Akashic stream, but past things are starting to merge with future things.

I know that our past has a major reference to our future but trying to decode all the information and how it correlates together has plum worn my ass out, mentally and physically.

Okay let my chronicle from the first message I received.



June 1990

A black shadow appeared before me in my bedroom I was living in New Jersey at the time because of family issues between I and my stepfather. I was shipped off by my mother to live in NJ for one year. This year was to be filled with gloom and doom. Before I got shipped off something strange started to happen to me I had been experimenting with kinetic abilities within myself to see how far a person could push themselves with the proper training. My Sensai thought it was a wonderful idea to train the mind as hard as you trained the body, so taking a page from his book I started to study anything I could get on building psychic abilities. In doing so I awakened more pathways that the normal human mind closes out due to following what is the societies normal way of viewing everything as not being beneficial if it can not be used in everyday normal human life.

Now I always had the ability to see what is unseen to most, hell spirit told my mom about my birth and she stuck around until after the birth of my son. Her name was Evelyn and I adored her, my mother never taught us that seeing and talking with spirits was abnormal behavior, we always thought everyone could do it and that we were in now way different from other children.

Well let's just start with the basics, worldly delights of a maniac are rather intriguing to some, but for me it's just the way things are. I love the rain coming down thunder crashing as if it could split the world into pieces if it hits the right spot. The sound of my sons voice when he first enters the door from school letting me know all is well in my little world. The barking of my three dogs to remind me it's time to leave slumber land, and let them out to go run wild in my backyard. My afternoon cup of tea with milk or cream, it soothes me even on the most horrid of days.



Getting that one message early in the morning just before I fall back into a second set of REM sleep, it usually read good morning gorgeous I just wanted to say I love you and have a great day. It's so cute it's sickening but I love my boyfriend to death. The times I get a fantastic brainstorm of a drawing or character to draw to add to my collections of art work.



My life in general when things are calm and life seems lucid and fluid these are the worldly delights of a maniac.

I love it when it rains, we haven't had much as of late. The dark grey sky is bursting with wind and water, it makes me smile in delight. I watch my dog as she lays on the kitchen floor staring up up me from a half slumber, it's curious how animals react to severe weather mine are so calm it's almost scary at times.