The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

I feel empty inside like some part of me is missing, not an essential part like my brain or kidney but something inside. I feel as though I'm here for a reason and I'm soon to fulfill that reason and its going to me a major change for me I can feel something changing in me I don't know what but for the last 3 weeks I have been empty I don't understand what caused this drastic change in me but something did and I just hope that its a good change one for the better. The change is going to be soon I can feel it inside but what change is yet to be discovered.

I don't know why but I feel like its hard to describe its like I love what a vampire is and what they can be but yet again if I were to meet one I don't know what I would do, say would I be my self or would I be sacred s***less? the creature itself is fascinating to me though I don't mean creature as an insult. I am mortal and I think I want to meet a immortal, I believe in that sort of thing, things that others don't. To me people are creative but to create such thing as a vampire someone must have seen something along those lines to think that a creature such as that exist. I want to meet a vampire but then again I don't want to be in danger I like to live.