.
VR
Alanddownunder's Journal


Alanddownunder's Journal

THIS JOURNAL IS ON 4 FAVORITE JOURNAL LISTS

Honor: 667    [ Give / Take ]

PROFILE




13 entries this month

 

18:37 Jun 25 2022
Times Read: 17



COMMENTS

-



 

16:51 Jun 24 2022
Times Read: 36



COMMENTS

-



 

22:36 Jun 23 2022
Times Read: 64


I'm a part of you. You brought all of yourself and put it into me. You may hate me but on the inside when no one is around you think of me and love me. But obviously you would never admit that. But I know as I feel it. I know you love me and care even if you don't show it.


COMMENTS

-



 

21:18 Jun 23 2022
Times Read: 67


Die Dead Enough


COMMENTS

-



 

03:15 Jun 12 2022
Times Read: 116


Everyone has demons. Even those who are pure of heart and say their prays by night.


COMMENTS

-



 

01:12 Jun 12 2022
Times Read: 118


Were the Wolves go. The Ravens follow.


COMMENTS

-



 

22:51 Jun 11 2022
Times Read: 126


You exist outside of the stricture
Of the structure,
Which binds and confines
In the tedium of

Time -

The mind; set your self
Free, always, at
Every opportunity

Dash headlong

Into the shifting face
Of chaos,
Heart hurled in a

Swirl
Of a song,
Longed for, all

Along:


COMMENTS

-



 

16:09 Jun 11 2022
Times Read: 150


Down in the valley of shadows lurks my withered soul
Cradled in moss and fungus left to rot under the black trees
Slowly disintegrating transforming back to energetic dust
Nearby a dulled key lays apart on a tri-color chain shedding rust

Lonely? Alone? Quarantined? Isolation? Singular?
Hidden in a world full of people unknowing
What adjective am I? Are you? What word describes your state?
(Mental? Physical? Relationship? Parental? Medical?)
What Pendant do you wear on your chest? Your forehead? Your soul?

Is it one word? Two? A Phrase? A sentence? A rallying cry? A joke?
Is it serious your illness or commonplace ignorant?
Is it life threatening or everyday happenstance?
Is it the bullet that got you or the knife in your back?
Is it attraction you crave or something you think you lack?

Down in the valley of shadows deep through the mountains of darkness
A spider weaves his web between tree, soul and key.


COMMENTS

-



 

00:16 Jun 10 2022
Times Read: 202


I have BECOME
Synthetic
Fucking PSYCHO
Somatic

Pushed beyond suicide
To the edge of homicide
The details are in the devil
The madness in which we revel

I won't be
What you made
Me to be

Stripped down to the bone
Steeped in the ways of blasphemy
I am the maggot in your synapse
The evolution of brutality

Breaking THE MOLD
Obsolete
Fucking BRAND NEW
Violence

My soul was crucified
And drowned in the cyanide
The devil is in the details
And stitched together in entrails

You can't be
What you want
To be

Stripped down to the bone
Steeped in the ways of blasphemy
I am the maggot in your synapse
The evolution of brutality

The reigning blood
Digitized nightmare
It snows in Hell
Laying all to bare

WE CAME FROM
NOTHING TO
BE NOTHING
SO WE LIVE
A HALF LIFE
AS PHANTOMS

all the biometric synthetic aesthetics
are pathetic though poetic in their
prophetic designs

WE ARE THE VIRUS IN THE MACHINE

Stripped down to the bone
Steeped in the ways of blasphemy
I am the maggot in your synapse
The evolution of brutality
Stripped down to the bone
Steeped in the ways of blasphemy
I am the maggot in your synapse
The evolution of brutality.


COMMENTS

-



 

20:36 Jun 09 2022
Times Read: 238


I feel a glitch in the cortex
Like a ghost in the shell
Caught the devil playing mind tricks
I feel the dread close in like the walls of a cell

I cannot sleep
I cannot hide
I cannot take
One more night on the dark side of my mind
I close my eyes to sleep, the shadows speak
And they won't stop when I'm awake

Everything they say would seem
Feeds the fear inside of me
Let it feed the fear inside
Help me take this pain away
Sleep is now my enemy
Now it feeds the fear inside of me

The fear inside of me

The fear hit like a shell shock
Body froze like my heart stopped
REM waves got my limbs locked down but my eyes wide open
Sheer terror manifest before me

I cannot sleep
I cannot hide
I cannot take
Living this way on the dark side of my mind
I close my eyes to sleep, the shadows speak
And they won't stop when I'm awake
Everything they say would seem
Feeds the fear inside of me
Let it feed the fear inside
Help me take this pain away
Sleep is now my enemy
Now it feeds the fear inside of me

I close my eyes to sleep (Sleep paralysis)
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me the fuck out

Let me the fuck out

Everything they say would seem
Feeds the fear inside of me
Let it feed the fear inside
Help me take this pain away
Sleep is now my enemy
Now it feeds the fear inside of me
It's the fear inside of me

I cannot sleep
I cannot hide
I cannot take
One more night on the dark side of my mind.


COMMENTS

-



 

18:14 Jun 09 2022
Times Read: 246


You think you are safe in the dark
But I was forged in the shadow
Live with a target on my back
In league with those who lurk below
And when it is kill or be killed
Fear runs deep into the marrow
I have lost what makes me human
Animal instincts take control

Because I can't stand this self centered shell
There is nothing, THERE IS NOTHING you can do
You can run today but there's no hideaway
Let's play Seek and Strike
Because I can't stand this self centered shell
There is nothing, THERE IS NOTHING you can do
You can run today but there's no hideaway
Let's play Seek and Strike

There is a B U L L E T
With your name on it
POINTED AT MY H E A D

Seek and Strike
The end is nigh.


COMMENTS

-



 

16:37 Jun 09 2022
Times Read: 255


Holding your picture before the flame
A reminder of times so far gone
They won't catch me letting go of you

A war I cannot win
The enemy is me
My own blood on these hands

The fire it burns hungering now
It can taste you within the embers
As I press your picture to my lips

And I hope that wherever you are
I know you see just what I am
I CAN'T HIDE behind masks
Inherited all of your pain
I am battling your demons
And keep them FOR MY OWN

My courage is broken and hollow
This creature conforms when you're not here
I hate what I am when you are gone

Nothing left tomorrow
To kill this enemy
The devil knows my name

Your image, a ghost in flickering light
You let me know I walk alone
Jagged edges slide across my wrist

I'll follow you wherever you are
So that you see just what I am
I CAN'T HIDE behind masks
Inherited all of your pain
I am battling your demons
And keep them FOR MY OWN

DARKNESS AND MADNESS
HIDING IN SADNESS
THE WHSIPERS ARE SCREAMING THE LOUDEST
WHEN LOVE BECOMES HATE
THIS WORLD I CREATE
THE WEEPING IS BLEEDING THE UTMOST
EMPTY AND HAUNTED
WASTED, UNWANTED
CROW'S MURDER AND THUNDER DETAIL MY HELL
YOUR FACE REMINDS ME
WHAT I USED TO BE
AFTER EVERYTHING I CANNOT LET YOU GO

can not let you go
can not let you go
can not let you go

I CAN'T LET YOU GO

And I hope that wherever you are
I know you see just what I am
I CAN'T HIDE behind masks
Inherited all of your pain
I am battling your demons
And keep them FOR MY OWN

I'll follow you wherever you are
So that you see just what I am
I CAN'T HIDE behind masks
Inherited all of your pain
I am battling your demons
And keep them FOR MY OWN.


COMMENTS

-



 

23:13 Jun 08 2022
Times Read: 290


You can’t stand me

I can’t stand me either

Want to be left alone

I just need a breather

I try to get lost

Try to get me some help

Try to learn to love life

I just can’t love myself

The lights are all on

All my thoughts come undone

They don’t stop, don’t relent

The damage is done

I do what I have to

Just to get by

I’m scared that I’ll leave

And I won’t say goodbye

How to calm all these voices

Can’t figure it out

The scenes in my head

Keep playing them out

I want to get better

Really I do

I don’t want to think

I really am through

The guilt eats me up

All the secrets I keep

I must drive you crazy

My problem’s so deep

Just tell me to stop

To leave you alone

The farther I get

The closer I’m home

I need to cut ties

It’s my only way out

Ties with those who hurt me

Those who want me around

I want to self medicate

It’s so easy to do

I want to feel numb

To not have a clue

I’ll never be happy

These thoughts I can’t fight

Just leave me alone

So I can shut off the lights.


COMMENTS

-






COMPANY
REQUEST HELP
CONTACT US
SITEMAP
REPORT A BUG
UPDATES
LEGAL
TERMS OF SERVICE
PRIVACY POLICY
DMCA POLICY
REAL VAMPIRES LOVE VAMPIRE RAVE
© 2004 - 2022 Vampire Rave
All Rights Reserved.
Vampire Rave is a member of 
Page generated in 0.1069 seconds.
X
Username:

Password:
I agree to Vampire Rave's Privacy Policy.
I agree to Vampire Rave's Terms of Service.
I agree to Vampire Rave's DMCA Policy.
I agree to Vampire Rave's use of Cookies.
•  SIGN UP •  GET PASSWORD •  GET USERNAME  •
X