And then when it seems that nothing will ever bother you again, when the world is bright and your world is just as you always wanted it, it crumbles, not once, not twice, but three times in the shortest time possible.
In times like this you realise that what you always thought didn't matter, does!
You sit alone, concealed into your world listening to sad songs just so you can feel worse!
Words like love, loneliness and longing echo in your head, like a curse, a burden.
Nightmares haunt your dreams, eternal sleepless nights polluted by images of something supposedly unimportant.
And the more the images flash, the more your heart breaks, cracks open and plumates into a dark abyss!
You want to cry tears of blood, of heat and passion that flows from your heart. But you can't, you may not! your are forced to put on a happy face for the others to see.
While your heart continues to fragment and you call out to the darkness, why? why? why?
But positivness takes you over and you suddenly know that it's not over, life goes on.
If not now, sometime soon life will be good again! And what you believe is lost is still there... somewhere!
The reality which you simply would not face surfaces and hits you like a canon ball.
And as much as you regret it, cry and fret over it, you know it simply had to happen.
Again the same old question roams you, haunts you like a constant threat. Why? Why can't I be what I want? Do what I want? Go where I want? You curse my destiny!
It's as though all you want is not what someone has planned for you, yet you try, in vain.
You intoxicate yourself just to drown the pain. Only to return to your senses feeling worse!
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