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I have this ultimate fear of
Being alone.
Living alone, being alone with no
Friends or family.
I'm not sure.. but..
I think I kinda enjoy it.

Well, ok....
So, I had this roomy I found after
Looking for over a year.
Since covid and I have restrictions..
Because I'm not dumb.
He lived with me in my house,
For all winter.
And .. I liked the company.. but
After while.. I noticed that
I missed my privacy.
My space.
My aloneness.. in my house,
With my cat and my dog.
I mean,
He was a sweet man.
Was funny, thoughtful,
And helped me when I needed
Help. But.....
I don't know guys... really.
Even when we were friends,
Appart of me wanted him to
Leave.
So,
When it was his time to move on.
I was sad, but happy he was gone.

I kinda faced my fear for 3 in a
Half years, and now..
I...
Don't..
Know.

I don't know how i should feel.
Should I be happy?
Or is this bad?