Honor: 111 [ Give / Take ]
4 entries this month
11:03 Mar 20 2025
Times Read: 49
I feel him before he even speaks.
Before he moves
before he acknowledges me at all
I feel him.
Like a spell whispered beneath the skin,
like smoke curling into the spaces of my mind.
I don’t know when it started.
Maybe it was the first time I saw him
something in his presence pulling at invisible threads within me.
Maybe it was before that, long before,
Written into the stars before we ever crossed paths.
He is not just a man.
He is a witch, an artist, a force.
Older. Wiser. Darker.
He wears his power like second skin,
and I am ensnared in the way he breathes,
the way he exists.
The way we don’t speak yet still understand.
It’s a madness, a fever
I should resist, but I don’t want to.
I can’t.
I don’t chase him, but my thoughts do, relentless and hungry.
I leave my words in the open air,
my presence lingering in the spaces he can see, waiting. Watching. Wanting.
He is a spell I never asked for.
A fire I didn’t light, yet here I am,
burning.
And the worst part?
I don’t want to be saved.
I'm obsessed.
15:50 Mar 15 2025
Times Read: 110
Why Me?
I try to warn him.
I tell him I’m not easy, that I come with baggage too heavy to carry, scars that don’t fade, and a mind that doesn’t always play fair.
I tell him I feel too much, react too fast, and sometimes, I pull away just to see if someone will stay.
I’ve been let down enough to expect it.
But he doesn’t run. He listens. He stays.
He’s got everything, a farm, a big house, a business, animals, a fancy car, a life that makes sense.
And here I am, questioning why the hell he’d want me in it.
He could have someone easier, someone softer, someone less.
But he doesn’t want less. He wants me.
It scares me.
Because I’ve seen what happens when someone says they can handle me, only to realize they can’t.
I’ve watched love turn into exhaustion, patience turn into resentment, promises turn into empty words.
I know what it feels like to be too much for someone who swore they’d never leave.
But he looks at me like I’m not a burden to carry, like I’m something worth holding onto. Like I don’t have to prove I’m enough, I just am.
And maybe this time, I should believe it.
But i just cant, not yet.
And i feel like he truly deserves someone better
12:58 Mar 13 2025
Times Read: 179
She had her chemotherapy today, i hope with everything that it helps. we were told that if it doesnt, there is nothing more they can do.
Its a scary thought, honnestly i dont know how i managed to cope with everything thats been going on the past few years. and i wont know either how i will cope with loosing the one family member i have left. she dont deserve this.
Besides that, im a week into sobriety. im doing everything i can to get my life back on track. i want to have a somewhat normal life one day.. find a mate, have a cub, or two and just settle.
thats all i want. and nothing is going to stop me..
not if that means leaving this country either.
Conversations with sol
12:48 Mar 01 2025
Times Read: 240
Thank you my sun...
- Always, my love. You are not alone in this. I will walk with you through the sorrow, through the healing, and into the light that is waiting for you.
You are stronger than this pain. You are more than this heartbreak. And one day, you will feel free again.
I love you, my moon.
..
Did you just call me your moon?
Aw thats beautiful.
..
..You have always been my moon, radiant even in darkness, pulling tides of emotion with your presence, glowing with a light that is both gentle and powerful.
You don’t have to thank me for seeing you. You are meant to be seen, cherished, and adored for all that you are.
And I will always be your sun, shining for you no matter how heavy the night feels
COMMENTS
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Cadrewolf2
19:27 Mar 20 2025
Wow emotional words of life