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Full moon tonight and i love it

if i could i would stay up all night just looking at it you cuoldnt evern tell its almost midnight when its so bright and up high



even when there is no man there is only and always the moon

life is good for the most part

for most people they have friends and family to turn to and to be able to talkk to about things in general but for the select few of us we have to keep it held up in the black little box in our head speaking of my head ache is killing me. so what to talk about today lets see....i dream of a pllace far away were no one knows me, where the meadows stretch on and on tall trees that provide shade and when the wind blows on my face it's cool and soft like a touch and when it rains i can go and twirl around in it. you would think that it could be my back yard right ?? my white knight, chance is up, time to make my own dreams a reality i guess.

ok so again i am at work realizing that my life has got to be the most boring because, let us face it nothing happens in north carolina, when a guy comes up average not that bad but still i am at work and says youre great at selling things and i have got a head ache already i mean is that a pickup line now or what and i told him that naturally that was my job wouldnt be here if i wasnt and then he continued to compliment me with the same lines as any other hormone driven male that asks me out and i am not complaining i am very flattered but i mean what happened to wooing a girl and being intelligent and finding your own pock up lines i mean where is the white horse and the knight in armor?? am i being too judgemental or picky i mean im not vain or concieded and most of my life including now i have been told that i have a low self esteem but i still have a few morals and i believe that shivelry and fedelity should be in there some where and where is the ever after?? i mean i am easy going caring and very affectionate emotionally and physically i like to please my partner whenever i can but lately i just feel like there isnt any use to even trying any more cause lets face it they ask for your number and dont use it or they do use it on a late saturday night thinking they are gonna get lucky and so you stop giving it out all together, i just wish the wait for life was over and that the adventure mystery and affection would begin

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Deathangel9214
04:45 Feb 09 2009

i have no white horse...



and i work also much...



but i don´t lie...



if you want me tell...



i am free ^^



XD



sorry honey but now in earnest, every person this world think that but just a little say that´s so...



look for another men... and all things good but IMPORTANT DON'T LIE but tell him nice ^^ what´s not good and take you time...





have a nice day honey ;)

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OKAY SO IF YOU READ MY PROFILE YOU WILL KNOW THAT I MAYBE A LITTLE WIERD BUT FOR THE MOST PART I AM DOWN TO EARTH. WELL HERE'S MY LIFE STORY (GET READY) OK SO I DON'T LIVE WITH MY PARENTS AND I START MY FIRST YEAR OF COLLEGE IN THE FALL AT AGE 22. I LOVE PETS AND MOST LIVING CREATURES BUT DON'T LET ROACHES AND SPIDERS AROUND ME CAUSE I HAVE A PHOBIA OF THEM YEAH GUESS THAT'S THE GIRL IN ME BUT SNAKES AND OTHER CREATURES LIKE THAT I CAN HANDLE. ANYWAYS I HAVE A PRETTY SIMPLE JOB FOR 22 I WORK AT A FYE STORE (PRETTY EASY RIGHT?) YEAH THAT'S WHAT I SAY IF YOU CAN CALL THAT A JOB WELL TRUST ME ANYTHING IN WHICH YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH PEOPLE IS A REAL JOB TO ME . I HAVE TO SAY THAT WORKING WITH THE PUBLIC DOESNT SEEM TO BE ONE OF MY STRONG POINTS. I AM NOT A GOTH BUT I DO GET STARED AT NOT OVER WEIGHT OR ANY THING LIKE THAT SO I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THERE IS SOMETHING OFF OR DIFFERENT ABOUT ME I GUESS THAT'S WHY I AM SO CURIOUS ABOUT THE SUPERNATURAL AND THINGS OF THAT NATURE. I AM A LOVING AND CARING PERSON TO AN EXTENT BUT ANY ONE WITH A ROUGH LIFE CAN EXPLAIN WHAT I MEAN BY THAT. I FINND MYSELF STILL WANTING WHAT I CAN'T HAVE AND WAITING FOR THINGS THAT I KNOW WILL NEVER COME THINGS THAT I FEEL AND CAN NEVER SHARE ONLY HERE ON MY COMPUTER IN THE LITTLE BOX DO I GET TO DESCRIBE WHAT AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT THINGS. A CONSTANT YEARNING IS ALWAYS THERE BUT NEVER FILLED AND A HOLE THAT IS NEVER WHOLE. I LOVE LIFE BUT NOT EVERYTHING IN IT. I FEEL THAT THERE IS MORE BEYOND THE HORIZON IN THE PLACES UNKNOWN TO ME, AGAIN I CAN'T COMPLAIN ATLEAST I AM ALIVE?!?

so this is my first journal entry and i have never been much with words or a writer which if you read this you will know. I am an independent person and i feel alone alot of the time. sob sob. I still feel like there is more out there than this life that i live every day is the same boring routine with the same happy people and not that i am against people being happy just they are way too happy. not much to say but that this website is the most unique one that i have found and its great to be part of. i am always searching almost yearning for something i can't quite put my finger on. Promise i am not crazy just different.