Not written for a while . The last couple of months have been very difficult indeed. A big family crisis and now my health is becoming a problem for me . I fear that now I'm 40 things for me will only decline further . Which brings me to question everything that goes on around me and with the world its self . I live in a country that is ruled by people who have never lived in the real world . A backwards country still hanging onto to its royal family in spite of us all knowing what evil corrupt scum bags they really are . But here is the question I want to know before I die . Are vampires real ? Were they ever real ? Did I waste my life chasing a illusion ? Im not talking about people who drink blood and say they are vampires . To me they are just nutters with a blood fetish . Not interested in the energy vampires either . And I have no interest in anybody who shouts out you have to be born a vampire . I know thats nonsense . Im going to go into me more detail in my next entree . For now anyone who has taken the time to read this . Ask yourself the question do you believe !