If it would come true I would wish to leave my current situation and feel nothing I would be my own person . No threat of marriage or being with that person for the rest of my life . I could walk the earth and be the person I always should of been . I know I should not feel this way but its the truth . I live in hope that the chains will be broken and I can be free forever .
Everything has changed for me . Its change that I convinced myself that I wanted . But its just me hiding myself and the real me . I waited so long for things to change for the better . I lived in hope that I would be saved from my misery . One day I would get to be the real me . I thought I had been found 5 years ago . I thought he was going to free me up but I blew it . Now Im trapped in a hell of my own making . No escape for me now . If I did make it out someone els would be hurt . Even though I don't want that to happen . I know I would still do it .
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