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I stood up for myself to my family and the Clan on the phone for the first time sense my husband died and I let the whole family and counsel have it with no holding back. At first, I was so mad I was shaking and I was afraid of them but the more I let the anger go the better I felt. I actually was feeling good and like I was finally free of all the anger and resentment that I never realized I had towards my husband for dyeing and leaving me with three kids in this world when he promised me a lifetime, I don't even think I ever had wanted to admit I was mad at him for leaving me in this world to be on my own and alone all by myself with a lifetime of promise gone in seconds. I have always done what I was told by everyone in my life because I was always so worried about taking care of everyone but Kathy. A person asked me, what it would take to make me happy and see the old me and I had to really think about that before I could even try to answer. Early this morning It hit me I was feeling the same helplessness I felt just over 30 years ago when I lost my husband as well as my whole life. I don't know how to explain it really but all the sudden a lifetime of anger just flew out of me. I think I was really angry at myself for something I thought I hadn't done right that brought all this kind of misery and I talked to someone who I hold dear to my heart and life and he seems to always know exactly what to say. I can actually say it seems like he makes all my demons go away and I was so resisting being close to anyone out of the fear of losing them to death or lord only knows what else, so all these years it was me torturing myself, it wasn't any kind of punishment because nobody could punish me any worse than I did sense August 25th of 1991. I know I'm a good person and I also know I do deserve to find someone to share my life with without feeling guilty about it but I won't settle for less than what I know I deserve. I have really had a lot of eye openers here in the last few days or really the last week or so and it is truly due to one person and I shall let them remain nameless, but they know who they are, so I want to say I think your simply amazing. I finally figured it out I just needed someone to show me and you did that and I will eternally be grateful to this person. He is wise beyond his years and today he told me it was my right to the pursuit of my own happiness as well not everyone else's and I really had to let that sink in a little before I truly realized what he meant. This person has been more of a friend to me in a week than so many that have been in my life for years, because the difference is he is a genuine true person and the real deal who's not out to just sleep with me like most and that makes him even more trustable in my eyes and I'll never forget that you were the one who helped me set myself free from the terrible nightmare I called a life. He didn't do it for any reason other than just being there for a friend in need and to me that is one of the most selfless acts a person can make of themself. I thank you from the whole of my heart and I will always be here for you no matter what as you have been for me.

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markus666
20:34 Feb 23 2022

Now that your anger is out, is time to start thinking about the "I" and not the "them".

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By my Celtic/Viking teachings, I was told that it was many years ago that one of our goddess's sacrificed herself because there had been a dark shadow cast over there clan and the only way for anymore spirits to be born amongst us was for the curse to be lifted so she turned herself in as a witch to the English so they burned her in the square of the village but by her sacrifice it set the clan as well as all our clansman to follow free and because she was burned is why we are so attracted to fire and if concentrated on and you go to the goddess of fire with a pure heart she will reveal your true spirit guide to you

There is all kinds of myths and folklore to be studied and I'm thinking of going back to school to study Mythology and Vampire Mythology, as well as Demonology. I want so much for this to be more of a place to learn and study and grow with others around you with positive thoughts who want to learn to, instead of it being more of a dating site or place for drama and gossip that just kills it for the ones of us who are sericeous and here to really learn the differences between all the different kinds of paranormal creatures on this earth or who once were here and now only remain in spirits and Myths and Folklore. The only way to keep them alive is to study them and get on a level of understanding that will allow you to expand and open your mind to at least to the possibility. It would amaze you if for just one day you were to just go read about these subjects as well as quotes like the ones I posted but you have to be open minded in order to really picture it and feel every word and then and only then will you understand what so many of us out here already know, and you would also know and understand why for the ones of us on here that are real it offends us to see people misuse the site for things that there are sites they could go to for those things and I'm quite sure everyone knows what I'm talking about I need not be crass about calling those people out. I know I want to learn and meet new people with different ideas and cultures. Well as usual that is only my opinion:)

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“To love is to value. Only a rationally selfish man, a man of self-esteem, is capable of love - because he is the only man capable of holding firm, consistent, uncompromising, Un betrayed value. The man who does not value himself, cannot value anything or anyone”

― Ayn Rand, The Virtue of Selfishness







“The first right on earth is the right of the ego. Man's first duty is to himself. His moral law is never to place his prime goal within the persons of others. His moral obligation is to do what he wishes, provided his wish does not depend primarily upon other men.”

― Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead







“Since knowledge, thinking, and rational action are properties of the individual, since the choice to exercise his rational faculty or not depends on the individual, man’s survival requires that those who think be free of the interference of those who don’t. Since men are neither omniscient nor infallible, they must be free to agree or disagree, to cooperate or to pursue their own independent course, each according to his own rational judgment. Freedom is the fundamental requirement of man’s mind.



A rational mind does not work under compulsion; it does not subordinate its grasp of reality to anyone’s orders, directives, or controls; it does not sacrifice its knowledge, its view of the truth, to anyone’s opinions, threats, wishes, plans, or “welfare.” Such a mind may be hampered by others, it may be silenced, proscribed, imprisoned, or destroyed; it cannot be forced; a gun is not an argument. (An example and symbol of this attitude is Galileo.)






It is from the work and the inviolate integrity of such minds—from the intransigent innovators—that all of mankind’s knowledge and achievements have come. (See The Fountainhead.) It is to such minds that mankind owes its survival. (See Atlas Shrugged.)”

― Ayn Rand, Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal







“The age of the skyscraper is gone. This is the age of the housing project. Which is always a prelude to the age of the cave.”

― Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead







“I love you, Dominique. As selfishly as the fact that I exist. As selfishly as my lungs breathe air. I breathe for my own necessity, for the fuel of my body, for my survival. I've given you, not my sacrifice or my pity, but my ego and my naked need. This is the only way I can want you to love me.”

― Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead







“Roark smiled, "Gail, if this boat were sinking, I'd give my life to save you. Not because it's any kind of duty. Only because I like you, for reasons and standards of my own. I could die for you. But I couldn't and wouldn't live for you.”

― Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead







“As a human being, you have no choice about the fact that you need a philosophy. Your only choice is whether you define your philosophy by a conscious, rational, disciplined process of thought and scrupulously logical deliberation - or let your subconscious accumulate a junk heap of unwarranted conclusions, false generalizations, undefined contradictions, undigested slogans, unidentified wishes, doubts and fears, thrown together by chance, but integrated by your subconscious into a kind of mongrel philosophy and fused into a single, solid weight: self-doubt,

Like a ball and chain in the place where your mind's wings should have grown.”

― Ayn Rand







“Happiness is not to be achieved at the command of emotional whims. Happiness is not the satisfaction of whatever irrational wishes you might blindly attempt to indulge. Happiness is a state of non-contradictory joy—a joy without penalty or guilt, a joy that does not clash with any of your values and does not work for your own destruction, not the joy of escaping from your mind, but of using your mind's fullest power, not the joy of faking reality, but of achieving values that are real, not the joy of a drunkard, but of a producer. Happiness is possible only to a rational man, the man who desires nothing but rational goals, seeks nothing but rational values and finds his joy in nothing but rational actions.”

― Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged







“Reality is an absolute, existence is an absolute, a speck of dust is an absolute and so is a human life. Whether you live or die is an absolute. Whether you have a piece of bread or not, is an absolute. Whether you eat your bread or see it vanish into a looter’s stomach, is an absolute.”

― Ayn Rand, The Ayn Rand Lexicon: Objectivism from A to Z







“Do not let your fire go out spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the approximate the not-quite the not-yet the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists it is real it is possible it is yours.”

― Ayn Rand







“The creator stands on his own judgment. The parasite follows the opinions of others. The creator thinks, the parasite copies. The creator produces, the parasite loots. The creator's concern is the conquest of nature - the parasite's concern is the conquest of men. The creator requires independence, he neither serves nor rules. He deals with men by free exchange and voluntary choice. The parasite seeks power, he wants to bind all men together in common action and common slavery. He claims that man is only a tool for the use of others. That he must think as they think, act as they act, and live is selfless, joyless servitude to any need but his own. Look at history. Everything thing we have, every great achievement has come from the independent work of some independent mind. Every horror and destruction came from attempts to force men into a herd of brainless, soulless robots. Without personal rights, without personal ambition, without will, hope, or dignity. It is an ancient conflict. It has another name: the individual against the collective".”

― Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead







“The only proper purpose of a government is to protect man's rights, which means: to protect him from physical violence. The only proper functions of a government are the police, to protect you from criminals; the army, to protect you from foreign invaders; and the courts, to protect your property and contracts from breach or fraud by others, to settle disputes by rational rules, according to objective law. (John Galt)”

― Ayn Rand



It's a shame I have to keep the identity of this person who gave these to me because I tend to agree with them 100% and would back them up through Hell's fire and back again.