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why must quitting smoking be so hard. I want to quit, I want to be healthier, but i crave that cig after every meal, or just having it with my morning coffee. i wish i had never started smoking at 17. I am so stressed, my nerves are shot right now every little thing seems to upset me and i am on meds for that shit. I just want the cravings to stop. I want to be able to kiss my husband without him tasting the cig i just smoked. i want to live longer for him and my daughter because they need me. I feel like i am failing them if i keep smoking. I dont want to be a bitch especially to them. its also hard not stuffing my face with food to try and stifle the smoking urges. someone just shoot me!

Go ahead and keep stalking my profile because that is as close as you will get! i can see when you view my shit and you know that. you are pissing my husband off and me. you had several chances with me and you blew them all. now live with the bed you have made. you were never a real friend and you sure as hell aint my daddy. so stop now before you embarrass your self even more. remember i have shit on you

I have loved you since the day I brought you into this world
I will love you till the world is no more
I have laughed with you
I have cried with you
I am worried
I am proud
You do not remember me
but I have never forgotten you
I see you in my dreams
And hope for the day I may hold you again
Its been too long
but I have much more waiting to do
Will you hate me
or will you accept my choice
Just know I did What was best for you
No matter how much It hurt me

my life has been one shit hole after another, but finally i catch a break this year. I got married to a wonderful man, moved to a new area away from hate and death, and now i have a job interview.
Too many good people are going through hell when there is no real reason on why they should be. this country is falling apart and it gives no shits about the people. we would rather send money to other countries then help our own. my faith in humanity has been shattered beyond repair. very rarely do i see a person helping another, but 99% of the time its just people turning a blind eye to those in need. this world makes me sick. too much hate! as a person who has lived in the darkside of this world and lived through its unforgiving hell I would not wish that on anyone. not even my worst enemy. I know what it feels like to go hungry, to be living in the cold, to sleep under a bridge just to try to escape the harsh bitter winds. your fellow man is suffering and yet you stand there letting it happen, not offering a hand up. even if its just a can of food, or a bottle of water or a warm blanket. what has happened to people? what has happened to humanity?

just so much has happened in the past week. I feel like i need a week long nap just to process everything. i am just really happy for my friend not letting us go homeless. it just sucks that i am finally back on here full time and its practically dead, the cams are messed up, the covens are messed up. what happened to this site. this use to be the go to site.

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BloodyReaper666
19:26 Jan 12 2018

go, on spellsofmagic.com i like that site.

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all you do is bitch and complain about not having a real life when your whole life is all online. you want to control others when you have no real control of yourself. you think you know best but what life experience do you have to compare to anthers life. you were asked to be a friend but you do not know the real meaning of a friend. you have turned your back, thrown your opinion around too much but to someone who has not see much action from your end so stop listening. I was always there for you but you only wanted me around when it was convenient. you talk about people behind there backs yet when called out on it and proven wrong you instead call them being hateful. not sir you are the spiteful one, you are the one walking around with there eyes closed to there own life but judgement wide open on others. how about you take a step down off your self made high horse. i dont think you ever once actually cared for anyone else but yourself.

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Pfffffftttttt
23:06 Jan 10 2018

dammmmmmnnnnnnn tell the dark prince how you feel lolololololol

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RedHeadedDemon
23:08 Jan 10 2018

oh i am

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KatherinexArduxBloodwolf
15:53 Jan 11 2018

O.o

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RedHeadedDemon
19:59 Jan 11 2018

he wrote one about me so i figured i would shoot one back

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Steel to my tremblin' lips
How did the night ever get like this?
One shot and the whiskey goes down, down, down
Bottom of the bottle hits
Waking up my mind as I throw a fit
The breakin’ is takin’ me down, down, down

My heart’s beating faster
I know what I’m after

I’ve been standing here my whole life
Everything I’ve seen twice
Now it's time I realized
It's spinning back around now
On this road I'm crawlin'
Save me 'cause I'm fallin'
Now I can't seem to breathe right
'Cause I keep runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' from my heart

'Round and around I go
Addicted to the numb livin’ in the cold
The higher, the lower, the down, down, down
Sick of being tired and sick
And ready for another kind of fix
The damage is damning me down, down, down

My heart’s beating faster
I know what I’m after

I’ve been standing here my whole life
Everything I’ve seen twice
Now it’s time I realized
It’s spinning back around now
On this road I’m crawlin’
Save me 'cause I’m fallin’
Now I can’t seem to breathe right
'Cause I keep runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' from my heart

Oh, I’m coming alive
Oh, I’ll wake up now and live
Oh, I’m coming alive
A life that’s always been a dream
I’ll wake up now and live

I’ve been standing here my whole life
My heart’s beating faster
I know what I’m after

I’ve been standing here my whole life
Everything I’ve seen twice
Now it’s time I realized
It’s spinning back around now
On this road I’m crawlin’
Save me 'cause I’m fallin’
Now I can’t seem to breathe right
'Cause I keep runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' from my heart
'Cause I keep runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' runnin' runnin' runnin'
Runnin' from my heart