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Some times we wish for things that we can never have.

I seek in this life to find the one who will know me understand me, love me for who and what I am and be there through the ups and downs the good and the bad times life will throw at us....How many times have I been told I am not them that I will never leave!



I guess humans are right what I am is a monster who should not know love, nor joy. I wish I was mundane ( Human ) maybe then my hunger would end. I sit and wonder why god made me what I am if only to punish me for being what I am. Or why can he not make me happy for what I have. I mean to me money is nothing, but to everyone else it is everything! in my heart as long as I have a ruff over my head and food well that is what I need to get by. Today I was told my son would be better off without me because I have nothing to offer....Hmmpp.. is not love good enough anymore.



I am going to school to do something I love not to be rich but to enjoy life and to try and find some happiness with what I know I can do. But I was told it's not good enough. As always put down and left in the dark.



I know some who would give up and end this life hoping for the next to be better, but to me this old fighter that is a cowards way out..I am left here alone in the dark no one to let me be me and be happy with me for who I am....I am coming into an understanding on why being Vampyric is a lonely life! I must say that I do wish with all my heart that when my brothers and sisters died I to was there, that I would no longer be alone and in so much pain...and then my younglings would never see me as the low life thing that I am............