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I have lost all motivation inside of me. I once was full of passion, i was driven and yet now i spend my days in search of entertainment through media. I can't seem to understand how i could go from doing things that were damn near possible to struggling to do what most people manage to do. Live... I don't talk to anyone besides my best friend and even then it is difficult cause i hide things from her as well. I just can't seem to be social towards anyone content to shut everyone out, and to push everyone away. I don't wish to be this way any more. i want nothing more than to go back to how i was. Driven to helping people, open towards all, kind to all and with no secrets no lies. just to wake every morning with a smile on my face knowing that even if my life is difficult at times at least i'm living it right.