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In this world, yes. But blame her body if you wish, it is her soul I am concerned with. And that soul is not responsible for my actions.

*sigh* I know his decisions. I never implied that you made him because I very well know you didn't. I meant you got what you want as in he made the decision himself, for I know you wanted that. He stopped talking to her and chose not to see her of his own choice. I know that too. Leave my Rayne out of this for she has said nothing to you. This is all me. These are my own thoughts that she tried to keep me from posting but failed. Don't punish her by my own actions. And I excuse my utter passion... You must forgive me but the tiniest thing bates her and it hurts her. She would rather think you didn't give a damn about her than see you looking at her page much less rating it in the least. She would rather think you wished her dead than see you on her profile. And as a matter of fact, she has wished you both all the luck because though this hurts her... she accepts it and she knows it was meant to happen...



I said nothing of anything else. I was only referring to you and Brett. I'm sorry if I was not specific enough.



Again. I know it was specifically HIS choice. You had nothing to do with it. I never accused you of that. It was him that hurt my girl... and she knew it was going to happen long before... and she still supported him as much as she could... and she hopes that he can be strong enough for you and your daughter. Her thoughts on all of this? Nothing but wishing you two the best. Yes, she's hurt but... *shrugs* It hurts her more to be angry... To tell you the truth, she'd TRIED to tell him to work on things with you first and he wouldn't listen for being an idiot... She simply admires him for being strong enough to make the decision now before too late...



Again. Please do not blame her for my own anger... but you must understand... she's been in enough pain... I don't believe you thought to harm her... but it did hurt her... And believe me as I say... if either of us could take your pain away and let your daughter meet her grandfather... we would do it... Rayne feels for you whether you'd believe it or not... she HAS been reading your journal in hopes to see that you're okay... And wishing she could talk to you to see if she could help... *shrugs*



As for the wretched soul comment... I am sorry about that... it was very wrong of me... But demons aren't always the most sensible, eh? I don't think clearly when it comes to her though I know that is no excuse. I believe you to have a great soul shrouded in much pain... But I also believe you strong enough to fight through it.



And I would like to say that I am not so much ignorant though the arrogance makes it seem so more often than not. *smiles*



I AM sorry, my dear. But I've been doing what I can to pull her pain... help her handle it and I've learned that humans... can experience pain far greater than I'd ever suspected... So my mind has not been so... sharp... *sigh*



We wish you well... but for whatever it's worth... don't ever think of us again...

I never felt the need to put a journal entry before... but I will now...



As it seems, Lady, that you've gotten everything you wanted. Exactly how you wanted. My girl is hurt and still recovering... she is doing better but these little things like rating both our profiles a 1 which I will say, my own probably does deserve that but hers doesn't. Either way. That is low and childish and was unnecessary as it seems all you wanted was to rub it in her face that you got what she misses terribly and will not have. She is now crying, yet again, right as she was getting better. I hope you're happy about that. She's now angry and furious again. I hope you're happy about that too.



We had been trying to take the high road and not block you so you would suffer no penalties but that has changed. You are blocked. Don't ever speak to us... look at our profiles... or even think about us again...



Oh. And just so you know, dear. Only yesterday she'd been reading your journal and actually had been wanting to HELP you because she felt sorry for you and wanted to help you get better or even just be there for you. She felt true sympathy for you and cares deeply about your pain. And here you are... with everything you wanted... causing her MORE unnecessary pain out of spite. I've lost every bit of respect for you that I could have had and I hope very much that karma comes back to BITE you in your ass.



May the gods have mercy on your poor wretched soul.