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ya kno i think im being punished for somthing. am i so horrible that no one can be my friend? i kno im not the best thing to look and but dont i deserve to have friends or love 2? i mean seriously it just seems like ever sense i got transfered to ldhs no one wants to talk 2 me anymore especally lately. im so lonely. i finaly told my mom about the cutting and she made me stay ovenight at the hospital in fucking suside watch all fucking night but i think it finally scared her enough to get me some help cause i go see a therapest next monday and he is gonna get me some medication and stuff so i hope it helps. but hey maybe just slitting my fucking wrist w/ help. i hate being so fucking alone and i dont kno what 2 do anymore my life is so fucked up and im sick of it. maybe im not supposed to be loved. that explains everything. everyone i love always goes away so maybe im poison or somthing i aways hurt everybody maybe i should just buy a house in the middle of nowhere and just stay there for the rest of my miserable life i doubt i will have much of one anyways why do i even bother? why do i try to make friends cause in the end everyone hates me so im just gonna stop trying. stop trying to be somthing at all and maybe someone will feel sorry for me and finally put me out of my misary.



i love you guys so much



im so tired and lonely



i hate myself