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02:41 Jan 31 2021
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22:00 Jan 29 2021
Times Read: 134


So... I managed to track the Angelic Pretty Halloween Treats OP down, and in red❤
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I didn't even know they made it in red, apparently it was a special release color. At first, I was set on finding it in white, but... White would be extremely hard to keep clean. That's a major problem I have with wearing Lolita more often, I don't want my $300-400 dresses to get dirty. The price on this one was around $300, very reasonable since the seller said it's in perfect condition, and comes with the matching bow. It was a seller in Japan, I just have to suck it up, and realize that I will have to get certain dresses there since that's where they come from. It's not that I mind, it's just that the shipping can take months. But it's not like I need this dress immediately for anything, it's just another prize in my collection, and let's be honest, this dress was made for me.
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How fucking adorable, spooky cute sugary things. There's actually a ghost purse that looks just like the one on the dress, it's a marshmallow ghost, and I'd love to find it, but I'd say even if I did it would be marked very high. Technically, this dress released for only about $200, but when things are sold out, and rare people can definitely make more off of them, and I think it's worth the extra money. I could probably flip it, and sell it for at least $500 myself, but... I wanna keep it xD
I was debating on whether to get this one or another AP classic, Horror Garden.
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This one is also selling on LM for $300, and I do love the design, I just don't think I love it enough to pay $300 for it. $200, absolutely, but something about the fabric is off-putting, too shiney maybe on top. I definitely made the right choice, but if I find this one a bit cheaper I'll happily pick it up. And this is the JSK version, the OP version with long sleeves is probably what I'd be willing to pay up towards $300 for. Halloween Treats is also pretty rare, I don't see it come up often at all, and when it does it's usually the purple version so very happy to have found it :3

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05:57 Jan 29 2021
Times Read: 160


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He calls me his Bunny Valkyrie♥
I would have given myself a sword or a spear, but Wolfie doesn't like when I wield sharp objects xD

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05:46 Jan 29 2021
Times Read: 161


Wolfie messaged me this morning.
"I'm feeling lots better."
Yay ^^
Just those little words mean the world to me. He's been in a major depressive funk for over a month now. I'm glad he's starting to come out of it. I don't think I'm a very needy person, Wolfie just gives me a lot of stability and comfort. It's hard when he's not entirely around, and not himself. I tried to explain that to him without sounding clingy xD I'm fine on my own, I can handle myself, and I really don't like having to rely on anyone, but he really keeps me balanced. I understand why he isolates when he's depressed, it's not a fun thing to deal with or be around. His mood tends to change very quickly, he gets very snappy, extremely sensitive or completely emotionless. It's a mess, and I get why he doesn't like having anyone around especially the woman he loves. He doesn't like me seeing him like that. He's normally so controlled, and the depression takes the control away from him so he thinks it makes him look weak, and he was raised that you never show weakness to anyone, especially the woman you love. That's so backwards to me though, if there's one person you should be vulnerable with it's the love of your life, and I've tried to teach him that. Wolfie is sincerely the strongest person I know, I don't know with his life how he made it this far. He's endured an extreme amount of pain, and trauma, most of it from when he was a child, but he grew up into such an amazing person, and he tries to be a kind, compassionate, gentle man. He's my Alpha, and protecting him is important to me.
Honestly, I wanted to tell him it's been difficult without him, but... I didn't want him to feel bad for not being there. I'd really love to collapse into his arms, and just breathe. But I need him to know I'm strong, and everything is fine when he needs to take space. I refuse to put that on him, and I hate feeling so needy, and clingy, and reliant.
Someone told me I need broken people because I'm broken. Well if I am how could I possibly love someone that's whole? Someone who hasn't seen the darker side. Someone with no pain or trauma couldn't possibly understand me.
Who on this planet is really whole anyway? One way or another we all end up in pieces. But that's what makes humans interesting, watching them get busted to bits, but keep going. I just want someone whose pieces fit into mine.
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Ok, that sounds kinda dirty xD

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05:57 Jan 28 2021
Times Read: 202


Two tries, and I beat that bitch, Sister Friede. She was really my main target in replaying Dark Souls 3, I hate when there are bosses I haven't beaten. She's a lot like Maria from Bloodborne, if you attack fast enough you can stagger her, and keep her from attacking until your stamina runs out. Save just enough to dodge away before it runs out, let it refill, go at her again. Her third phase is hard, but she is dodgeable, and backstabbing is your friend.
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I've read a lot of interesting theories about this statue you find behind Father Ariandel. Personally, I think it's Priscilla or what's lest of her anyway. There are people saying it's a half snake woman... Snakes aren't a huge theme in Dark Souls. But dragons are. Looks like a dragon tail skin to me. Ariandel is said to be the painting on top of the painted world known as Ariamis. Who lived, and essentially ruled Ariamis? Priscilla, the half-dragon woman.
And then there's the painting girl herself.
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Granted, she doesn't have the same color eyes as Priscilla, but they're both slitted, maybe she got her eye color from her dad, who fuckin knows who that is. But she also has scales across her body, she's clearly part dragon, but the dragon blood isn't as strong in her since she doesn't have the tail. She also mentions that she wants to paint a cold, peaceful world much like how Ariamis was described. I'd say Priscilla is her mother. Then there's Yorshka, ANOTHER pale, blonde, petite half-dragon girl, Dark Souls really has a thing for them. Yorshka is clearly related to Seath, but is Priscilla related to Seath? That's a big part of the fun of any Souls game, running around trying to put the pieces together in a way that makes sense. I saw a really interesting theory about how Gwyndolin may possibly not even be Gwyn's biological child. And looking at him compared to his siblings, it totally makes sense. And obviously you don't kill Gwyndolin in DS1 since he makes it into 3, so did he fake his death or did that just never happen?
I really need Wolfie to take about a month off, and we do nothing, but play through the Dark Souls games, he's the only one who can competently talk about the lore with me xD Anytime I ask him a question about what he thinks about something it turns into a 5 hour long conversation. Part of why I love him so much :3 He's the only nerd I know on my level xD

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19:17 Jan 27 2021
Times Read: 224


This is the Ladyhawk Dress by Widow♥
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I've wanted this dress for awhile, and saw they only had one left in my size so I had to make her mine. It's really beautiful. Remember the old movie? I don't think I've watched it since I was a kid.

Anyway, now onto my $200 KS haul
 It's basically just a bunch of velvet and lace, but who could complain about that♥

Wake the Dead
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Laid to Rest
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Fall from Grace
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Meave Blouse
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These plus four other dresses that are for resell. I also got my new rug that I was wanting.
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They do have a couple other rugs, but they're Satanic garbage that I'm just not interested in. The one on the right is definitely my favorite, I wish they made them in bigger sizes, but I understand that would be a pain to ship.

There's also this thing...
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Yeah, I dunno xD It's really pretty, but what do you put inside? Some kind of plant? Crystals? Cookies?

Not bad for $200. I've got another package coming in from the US warehouse by Friday that has more shoes♥ So what do I want now...

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01:46 Jan 27 2021
Times Read: 311


If you wanna live judgment free in the BDSM lifestyle then maybe you oughtta stop judging the shit out of other people first.
For real.
Hypocrisy isn't a pretty color on anyone.
Ya know I read recently on someone's profile that they hate men who are fake Doms, and women who are fake subs... So you're ok with fake female Doms, and fake male subs?
Cause uh... These things aren't gendergated, and it kinda makes you look like the fake around here for implying it, juuuuust sayin'...
I personally love it when people go on, and on about they much they hate fake subs...
You know what bugs me more than being fake? Because fake can be taught, it can be corrected, it can be improved. But bad subs are actually the worst. The bad ones are usually the ones that go on about how much they hate the fake ones when it's clear by their behavior, and mannerisms that whoever trained them was probably pretty shit at being a Dom. It's especially heinous when these terrible subs claim they're a Switch so they're out there teaching their terrible behavior to whoever they're training. It's just an endless cycle of bad. The bad ones are also usually the ones who walk around big dick swingin' like they're Queens of BDSM. It's just gross.
If I meet someone who doesn't necessarily behave as though they're as well versed in the lifestyle as they claim, I reach out, and try to help them. Subs should support subs, not attack them, that's straight up INSECURE, another indicator of bad training. Having years of experience doesn't necessarily make you good, I've seen some subs that claim to have been at for years that clearly never had a good Dom in their life. Poor training isn't entirely your fault, but if you've had multiple Doms, and still behave in a way that is shameful to the lifestyle, the problem is probably mostly you. You don't wanna be judged? Stop telling other people how fake they are, stop worrying about what they're doing. That's one thing I love about BDSM, there are millions of ways to do things, everyone is different. One big lie I see all the time is that BDSM needs a sexual aspect to be legit. If you think this, you should do your research, and better your views because you're making yourself look like a fucking idiot. And uh, you should probably mind your own fucking business.
I've been a sub for 4 1/2 years. Am I a perfect sub? No. Do I know everything about the lifestyle? Hell no. But I take the opportunity to learn at every chance. To explore, experiment. My Master is pleased with me. My Master is proud of me. My Master thinks I've grown immensely, and bloomed into something more than I was when we met. My Master loves me, and that is all that matters. So to any subs who do get ridiculed by insecure bitches, you don't have anything to prove to anyone except yourself, and your Dom. If they're happy with you, and you're happy with yourself then don't let anyone take that away from you. BDSM is a journey, it's a beautiful experience, an opportunity to learn and grow. As long as you're doing that, you're doing just fine. I'll tell you what I tell my nieces, and nephews... There will always be someone out there in the world who's going to hate you just because they can. The important thing is to be yourself, and give no fucks what anyone thinks or says about it xD

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LORDMOGY
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03:55 Jan 27 2021








Crowscat
Crowscat
07:18 Jan 27 2021

And you my friend, couldn't have said it any more perfectly and beautifully♡





 

00:20 Jan 27 2021
Times Read: 335


So I just today noticed that Sugarpill released an adorable spooky capsule to their palette collection.
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I would buy this for the Psycho Candy color alone, that's officially my stripper name xD
And...
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It's beautiful when you're just browsing around, and find something that feels like it was made especially for you♥
Gonna have to remove those tackyass safety pins though. I don't understand the safety pin thing, Killstar has,a necklace that is essentially a giant safety pin on a chain, like why? That just ain't classy.

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03:51 Jan 26 2021
Times Read: 365


I'm absolutely loving the aesthetic of the upcoming Resident Evil. Beautiful bloody Victorian Era gothiness with a coven of possibly psychopathic well-dressed vampiric women... Right up my alley.
But I am beyond disappointed that they're bringing Ethan back as the protag... I didn't care much for RE7 in general, mold people don't exactly unnerve me, and I just didn't connect with Ethan, he's a very meh main character to me, not a fan.
Now Chris Redfield... That's my man❤
I almost called him Chris Shepard xD That's canon in my head now that after years of battling Umbrella, Chris went on to save the galaxy as Commander Shepard.
Shhh, it could happen, you don't know xD
I'm still Dark Souls questing for rings, miracles, sorceries, and pyromancies.
Great Chaos Fire Orb is my new favorite thing❤

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21:38 Jan 25 2021
Times Read: 398


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H.naoto x Nightmare Before Christmas Lolita OP dress.
In general, I think Disney is usually pretty much shit, but I've always had a soft spot for NBC, it was a big part of my childhood watching it countless times.
This dress is everything I've ever wanted♥
What I could really use now are some headdresses or bonnets to really complete my Lolita looks. I make a rather good Lolita being so petite. A friend of my mother's saw me walking from my sister's house a few weeks ago, and asked my mom if I had just turned 16.
Come on... I don't look THAT young.
Ok, I kinda do xD
It's funny because I'll take my nieces, and nephews to their football/basketball/baseball/whatever practices, and these haggard looking women who are my age if not younger always think I'm simply the older sister. The way I dress does affect this, but excuse me for not wanting to look sloppy in t-shirts, and ragged jeans.
That's what you get for looking like a proper lady, stares and whispers. But go out looking like a haggard, ragged dishcloth, and no one bats an eye. That's what this world accepts. Humans are so backwards.
That's ok, I'm used to stares♥

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04:24 Jan 25 2021
Times Read: 429


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Even the wolves in Dark Souls love me :3
He wasn't glitched or anything. He ran up on me, but then refused to attack. We stared into each other's eyes, and made a soul connection.
It's a sign❤

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Tlsvamp21
Tlsvamp21
08:16 Jan 25 2021

Your literature is amazing I accidentally unadded you from my friends list but I added you again





Tlsvamp21
Tlsvamp21
08:18 Jan 25 2021

Travith my own name I made means crossing of the morning star





 

18:13 Jan 24 2021
Times Read: 462


Dark Souls wolfie snuggles ^^
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Ok... Kinda morbid since I'm pretty sure the wolf is dead. Or sleeping? And it's supposed to be Sif? But... didn't we kill Sif in DS1? That's one reason Artorias has always been my favorite knight, and one of my favorite characters in the game, as little interaction as you have with him. But... He used his shield to protect his friend, to save Sif from the Abyss, instead of himself. And then you find Artorias, and it's too late... You have to kill him, mercifully, to save him from the corruption. And it's interesting that Elizabeth tells you Artorias fell to the Abyss because he had absolutely no darkness in him. Darkness = Humanity. The Abyss is swarming with humanity. The Abyss consumed him. Humanity consumed him. He died because... he wasn't human? I mean, obviously, he's up there with Gwyn, and the other "Lords", whether they're actually gods or not is unclear. I don't think so?
Farron is Darkroot Garden is Oolacile... I never noticed that Elizabeth is dead in the cave in Farron. Or maybe she's sleeping too. Those poor lil mushroom people though... I never killed them in DS1, they were too cute to harm. So finding a pile of them dead always breaks my heart.
This is why we need a Dark Souls 4, I wanna go back in time in DS4, and ask Gwyn all my questions xD Sit on his lap like Santa, and be like, listen, big daddy... I need you to explain everything to me, even the parts that you don't exist in. No matter how many times I play these games I just end up with more questions, and I think that's part of why so many people love them. As obscure as Bloodborne seems, it's actually much more straightforward story wise than Dark Souls, I could explain pretty confidently what's going on in BB. But DS is stretched across three huge games where you're constantly thrown back, and forth in time so... It's confusing. I think it said Lothric is the point where everything meets. And Sulyvahn is the big bad guy in DS3? You think you're just killing him to get to Aldrich, but he's actually like, the main villain of the story? This wimp I can beat in one try with my mighty butter knife, he's the huge source of evil?
Anyway, I'm trying to get all the rings/sorceries/miracles/pyromancies. It's gonna take at least three playthroughs. Oh no, I have to play it again three more times, darn it... I would just go in my old NG+++ character, and hunt rings there,  but I've sold so many of them I don't remember which ones I need... Besides, it's fun to start over, that's when all the questions start churning again :3

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02:40 Jan 24 2021
Times Read: 490


Presenting the Velvet Broomriders, and Hellbound boots.
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These Hellbound boots...
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They are so gorgeous. They look a bit chunkier in the pictures, but they're actually perfect. Like I said, these were originally $150, they are now like $36 so very worth it.

The Broomriders are cute too...
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Not quite as beautiful as the others, but still. Velvet shoes don't really seem very practical, but these were also very cheap, and since I already own them in pink I know they're comfortable.

So two more KS orders on the way, another two pairs of boots in one of them xD Hey, getting $125-$150 boots for under $50 each is way too tempting, that's why I wait for the 40% off sales. If I don't like them they're easy to resell for full price or more after they sell out. I actually had someone contact me today to ask me if I'd keep a purse on hold for her til next Friday. This poor woman, she gave me this big long story about how she'd been scammed on Facebook, and she's seen a lot of people using my pictures to pretend that they have things for sale that they don't actually own, but they offer people really good deals for their "items", get them to pay on an app with absolutely no buyer protection, and keep the money without ever actually sending anything. I wish people would wise up to this crap, if a price is too good to be true, it's probably a scam. I might charge you a little more, but you're going to get what you paid for, we'll packaged, accurately described, shipped fast. It's a good lesson on not being cheap. I understand wanting a good deal, but if you're looking at buying something, and you have the option of buying it cheap from somewhere with no protection or a lil more money from a reputable seller, you kinda get what you deserve for going cheap. It sucks, but people really need to think about where they're buying things from. She also had a bad experience with another seller who was supposed to hold the purse she's now buying from me. Apparently the other seller promised to keep it on hold then sold it to someone else out from under her, and that really sucks, it's just super unprofessional. I can understand if they offer you substantially more money, but if you promise to hold it you should honor that because buyers talk, and if you burn the wrong one you could alienate the whole community. She did say she's seen some people using my pictures though. I've tried to watermark them, but you can edit that stuff out. I've tried to warn people that I don't sell on FB or IG, but there's only so much I can do. On one of the apps I sell on you have to add your own pictures, not just stock photos, it's their policy so I can't not take pictures of my stuff. People just need to stop being so fuckin dumb.
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07:12 Jan 23 2021
Times Read: 527


I love it when people contact me to find something for them. Makes me feel like a dress bounty hunter xD Especially when they tell me they'll pay me ANYTHING to get it for them...
This is what I'm hunting.
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The Hell Bunny Malice in Wonderland dress. An older design, I'm talking one of Hell Bunny's firsts. Finding it in a good size, in good condition with the sleeves... That's tough. I have come across this dress before, but always passed on it. It's a bit cheap, and costumey for my liking, there are better Wonderland dresses out there. We Goth girls tend to be a bit obsessed with Wonderland. Most people don't know that the skull bow tattoo on my leg was inspired by the skull bow on the back of Alice's dress in American McGee's Alice.
 Classic-back
It's not exactly the same, I wanted to draw mine myself, and it had to be striped of course. I think it would be boring not to make it my own. I absolutely love the dress designs in those games, if I were looking into a gothy Alice dress that's where I'd start, they make some beautiful replicas. If they do release another game to the series I want to see many more dresses.
The White Rabbit on my arm also says, "Only a few find the way..." People often ask me what that means. Well if you don't know, you're clearly not one of those few. So obviously those games mean quite a lot to me. I believe I was 12 or 13 when I first begged my parents to buy it for me. I used to play it on my computer before I left for school. It came with a cd key that you needed to access the game, and I lost that motherfucker several times. Such nostalgia...
But, if anyone can find this dress, it's me. But the price I'd be willing to part with it for... We'll see. It is a very rare piece. She wants it, but so do about a million other ladies.

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05:02 Jan 22 2021
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So instead of spending $300 on one dress, I spent it on several dress, skirts, shoes,  and the rug I was wanting.
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This is just part of my order, lots of things to sell, a few for myself. Retail this is almost $1000 worth of stuff so it'll be easy sales especially since most of it is sold out. I fuckin love a 40% off sale especially when I have a 15% off voucher code. Wolfie is always telling me to invest my money wisely, and I think I do it pretty smart :3 He's still dealing with his massive depressional episode. He responds to me when I check on him so that's good, he's not completely isolating, but it's still pretty bad. I wish I could do anything for him, I know it just needs to pass. I really miss him though. He's still there, but he's not fully himself.
I've dived back into Dark Souls 3, and for whatever reason decided to do a dagger run xD I guess because I always start as a Thief, and your starter weapon as a thief is a dagger. I felt pretty accomplished though taking down the Abyss Walkers with nothing but a knife xD Abyss Watchers is easily one of my favorite boss fights, and definitely one of my favorite boss songs. I'm actually already up to Aldrich, and it still pisses me off seeing what he did to Gwyndolin. My covenant has always been Blades of the Darkmoon so it hits hard every time seeing him like that. It's always interesting going from Bloodborne to Dark Souls, it makes me feel so slow... But I don't think I ever even once backstabbed anyone in Bloodborne, the windup takes too long. But with the dagger in DS... It specifically has a special ability made for backstabbing. And you really need that because the range, you really gotta be up on them to hit them. But the dagger also does base bleed damage, and it adds up pretty fast so it's rounded out. I dunno, I'm just not an Ultra Greatsword kinda girl, it's not challenging to fight with a huge sword, and shield, I prefer to make the game even harder by going after everything with a butter knife xD Clearly because I'm a masochist. Kill me more, and harder, please♥

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23:24 Jan 21 2021
Times Read: 593


Ok, this is just cruel...
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It's red, and black, and diamonds, and it's covered in bunnies, and it is RIDICULOUSLY cheap.
But... It won't fit me. I looked up the measurements, and the bust at max is 35 measly inches. Whhhhhy. They did make a JSK version of this with shirring in the back, but this one has no shirring, no stretch, only tiny tits allowed. Ugh, I've wanted this dress so long, and the price is fantastic. Damn. I could alter it, but it's a pain in the ass, and it won't look as perfect.

Buuut, my KS stuff did come in.

Morticia Rug.
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Sitting next to the KS Yin/Yang rug that I bought months ago. I really like them, they're decent sized for only being about $27 each. They're actually thick enough that I use them like yoga mats when I'm working out or doing yoga, and obviously they're great for the gothically aesthetic inclined. They do make a few other versions including a zodiac one that I really want to get, but it's constantly sold out.



Selena Jumper.
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I love an oversized jumper that's long enough that I don't have to wear pants underneath xD Considering I don't own any pants, that's definitely a good thing. It's not exactly like the anime jumper I bought, but it's still pretty comfy.

Sacramental and Cauldron Dresses.
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Simple, cute, spooky black dresses. Mostly got them because they ended up being only £10 each. Could probably sell them for $75 each since they're now sold out so they will probably end up on my sale rack.

My new KS boots should be arriving tomorrow, we'll see if that actually happens. My h.naoto is set to be here on Monday. I saw a Lolita collaboration going on with Junji Ito. The designs were... ok. Not anything spectacular, and honestly, pretty cheap. I think h.naoto and Junji Ito would make beautiful, nightmare dress babies together, that's a collab I'd rather see.  I sold another dress this morning for $70 so I am considering another brand Lolita purchase if I find the right one. KS is having a weekend 40% off clearance sale so Imma check that first...

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06:26 Jan 21 2021
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Vampire Nocturne by Alice And the Pirates...
I'm so tempted, must restrain myself from buying... It's only about $300, that's kinda my price range for secondhand Lolita. This dress is pretty rare, an older design. AatP actually has an entire series of vampire themed dresses, and I'd REALLY love to own at least one. The only thing that's holding me back is that the seller is from France... Last time I ordered something from France, it took like 2 months to get here. So I'm hesitant. If this was a US seller I would have already bought it.
Ugh, the temptation is killing me... I mean, I sold a $60 skirt this morning, an $80 dress this afternoon, and a bundle of items for $225 this evening so it's like, the Universe gave me the money specifically for this dress, it wants me to have it xD
I'll admit, I'm getting a bit addicted to brand Lolita. It's one thing to wear some cheap knockoff, but it's a totally different feeling to walk around in the real deal name brand dress. I don't necessarily support replicas, but I can see both sides. Yes, it is someone stealing an artistic design, and using it without permission to make money. That is bad. But a lot of Lolita brands are fairly small companies, they don't make huge quantities of their dresses, and what they do make is a bit pricey. Not everyone can afford $300 a dress, why pay that much when you can get the knockoff for $50? Well, the quality is generally a lot better in the authentic version. Although I did briefly own a Holy Lantern knockoff before I got the real thing, and it was pretty impressive for how cheap it was. But it wasn't pink, and I really wanted the pink, so I sold it, and hunted down the real one. It cost $25 for the ripoff, $384 for the real deal. So I get it, but there's a sense of pride in having the actual brand dress. I was reading that Angelic Pretty has these events, tea parties, and such, and if they spot you in a knockoff AP dress they will straight up kick your ass out. And I get that too because if you work hard on a design, then someone steals it, and alters it just enough to say it's not stealing, but it totally is, that sucks.
But I want this dress... I don't own any AatP, it's missing in my life♥
There is someone in the US selling a similar version for only $200, but it's in a brown colorway... Ick. I don't want brown, I want black. Or red. The red is really pretty.
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This is just hideous. It looks so gorgeous in the black/red, and a change of color makes it garbage. My heart can not wear this.

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21:43 Jan 20 2021
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Two beautiful new additions to the bat wing shoe collection♥
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The heels are just perfect, I like them a lot better than the last heeled ones I bought. The wings on these are lace so they're a lot prettier, and the heel is obviously a bit wider so they're easier to walk in. As sexy as stilletos make me feel, they're not the steadiest thing to walk in so for everyday heels I prefer a little bit of a wider platform. They're also a tiny bit shorter than the others. Who doesn't love those sky high 7/8 inchers? But again, the higher the heel, the more unsteady I feel walking in them. I used to run the halls of my high school in heels, literally sprint from class to class, then I stopped wearing them for awhile, but I've picked them back up in the last few years. Partially because I love the way they make my legs look, and partially because my boyfriend is like 15 inches taller than me xD It's cute that he has to bend over, and kiss me, but he really likes me in heels, and I really like buying them xD Like I said, the other pair, the platforms, I've owned a pair of them before. They're actually SUPER lightweight for as chunky as they look, and the design is just adorable.

And to go with pretty bat shoes, a gorgeous new bat dress♥
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This dress is super rare, I can't believe I found it for only $40 in perfect, brand new condition.

And here is my Cheer + Grumpy Bear romper onesie ^^
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I took this out of the package, and immediately thought, ok... what sort of 75 pound anorexic barbie do they expect this to fit? Because it looks really small. But it actually fits me perfectly despite having very little stretch, the bust is roomier than it looks. Wolfie doesn't care how I dress, what makeup I wear, how I do my hair so I'm always threatening to come to bed in flannel pajamas because he says I'm so beautiful it's distracting xD But we'll see if he likes this :3 I don't think he will because honestly, it's kind of a pain the ass to get unbuttoned, and you have to unbutton it to get it off...

Last I got this super adorable kawaii goth set.
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Just something cute, and simple to wear. I really like this design, I also have it in a dress.

So now I have my Killstar orders which one is supposed to be here tomorrow. That's why I love the UK KS warehouse. I ordered Monday night, it's here Thursday morning. I ordered those boots from the US side what... Friday? Didn't ship til Monday, might be here next week maybe? It's not entirely Killstar's fault, they generally ship using FedEx from their US location, and in my experience, FedEx is way slower than UPS. As long as everything gets here intact then it doesn't really matter how long it takes. My h.naoto dress also shipped today so I'm very excited for that ^^

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05:20 Jan 20 2021
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I thought about drawing Wolfie as Brave Heart Lion since he is a Leo, and his name means lion, but he's always been my Grumpy Bear :3

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Crowscat
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06:40 Jan 20 2021

Omg Bunneh this is too damn adorable!!! I love your sketches:)





 

23:44 Jan 18 2021
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Ok, so I'm a sucker for packaging, we all know xD But I've never tried anything from the Creme Shop, and I basically got this for free. I took it up to pay for it, and the cashier couldn't find a price on it so she charged me like $1.99. I'll admit, I'm a bit of a make-up hoarder... Which is weird since daily I don't really wear much, I usually just do my eyes. But I also really love the song Moondust by Jaymes Young, it's been stuck in my head since I saw this.
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I fucking love that song♥
I also put in another KS order before their bogo sale expired.
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That moon sweater is brand new, just added today, and it looks like it's the same style the anime sweater I bought is, and that thing is super fucking comfortable. That rug is also a newer edition to their site, I knew I wanted it as soon as I saw it. I have another rug from Killstar, the yin/yang kitties one, and I really like it, I'd like to own a couple others. Will probably end up selling the dresses, but we'll see, I actually have one of those already so it's definitely just to sell. Surprisingly, my boots shipped this morning. There have been times it'll take the US Killstar warehouse 3+ weeks to ship so I was kinda shocked, but happy they might actually be doing better. My Care Bears romper shows up tomorrow/Wednesday so I'm excited about that too since I love the Care Bears sweater I got, super cute :3 I actually wore my pink Hello Kitty jacket out today, and got told by someone it's the cutest jacket they've ever seen. I know :3

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Crowscat
Crowscat
06:18 Jan 19 2021

Omg that jacket is so damn cute! Girl you are killn' it:) Along with anything Kaname:p





FracturedExistence
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13:21 Jan 19 2021

You will definitely have to check out Tony Moly and other Kbeauty brands. I am also a sucker for packaging. :-)





 

01:23 Jan 18 2021
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It reminds me of Castlevania, every time xD
An interesting bug happened during my NG++++ victory lap of Bloodborne. I fought Ludwig, and I didn't talk to his head, I just kept going. When I came back the head had been killed, I think it gets killed by the NPC guy who's following you, but it dropped not one, but THREE Holy Moonlight Swords. These swords are useless to me, they don't go with my build, but they sell for 56,000 blood each, and that's pretty good.
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I know I keep saying I'm going back to Dark Souls, and I will. I think Dark Souls 1, and Demon's Souls are the only other ones I've beaten every boss on, and in 2, and 3 the ones I haven't beaten are mostly DLC bosses, but I'll probably restart my characters just for fun, and because I have absolutely nothing better to do, and there's nothing better to play xD Having a weak immune system sucks, I'm basically an alien, someone could sneeze on me, and kill me. Ok, it's not really THAT weak, but I try not to go out too much because humans are fuckin gross.

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04:40 Jan 16 2021
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Another massive check off my Lolita wishlist...
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The h.naoto Nightmare Before Christmas OP❤
I love h.naoto designs, they're more Gothic Lolita focused. They tend to be a bit more expensive than other bigger Lolita brands, buy their clothing is so gorgeous. I did own one of their dresses about a year ago, but it was too big on me so I sold it. I kind of regret that since it was such a beautiful dress, and was never sold outside of Japan, but I didn't want to keep something I'd never wear. There is actually another one of these listed on Lace Market for pretty cheap if you're interested in this dress. For any of the Lolita style dresses I mention, that's generally the best place to look.
I've been hunting this dress for awhile, the trouble was I couldn't find it outside of Japan. I had been watching a couple on Ebay, but I really wanted to buy it from someone closer. Once again, Lace Market saves me, found this for only $110 with free shipping. So new dress, new shoes, happy bunny.
Oh, and another good thing, the return request from the buyer who "changed her mind" after she found the dress she bought from me for less... Declined and cancelled. I knew she wouldn't win, but it's still a relief that for once they actually sided with me. I'm sorry she found it cheaper elsewhere, and now has two of them... But that's on her, she should have found it cheaper before she bought it from me. Do your research. She even made me the offer that I ultimately ended up accepting so she clearly thought the dress was worth that much. She actually offered me $85 on one app, and before I could even accept or decline she offered me $125 on another. So... She really wanted it from me. And now she got it :3
AND. The sale I had to cancel because the buyer was acting super suspicious trying to get me to send to a different address than the one on her account? That dress already resold, and for more than the first chick tried to pay. Pretty awesome.
Wolfie always says I'm a good luck bunny :3 Maybe he's right.
Holy Hell, this outfit though...
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When the world ends, I need this to run amok in❤
And this dress, omg, I'm dying...
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Must look away before I spend like a million dollars on things I'll never wear because they're too beautiful xD
If I ever decide to get married, that's my fucking wedding dress. I especially like the hands tied behind the back with pearls look, every lady needs to accessorize...

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22:44 Jan 15 2021
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KS is having a BOGO 50% off sale so for the low price of $113 I ordered myself some new boots.

The Hellbound Boots.
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I really, really wanted these when they first came out, but then I completely forgot about them xD But as I was browsing their clearance section I noticed that they were on sale, lucky me. These were initially $150, so... I got them plus another pair for almost $40 less than they originally cost. Bitchin.

Broomrider Velvet Boots.
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They make this style in several different varieties, I actually own them in pink, and they are super cute and comfortable. So I figured, might as well get another pair in black, and velvet on top of that. They have these, a silver glitter pair, and a glossy black pair currently on clearance, but I chose these because obviously, velvet. But if you're looking for cute moon accented shoes, these are great.

I've seen some bad reviews on KS shoes, and all I can say is that I've owned many pairs, and personally never had a problem aside from their knee high+ boots being made for ridiculously thin legs. I had this problem a couple months ago with a gorgeous pair of pentagram knee high boots, I'm a jogger, I don't have huge legs, and I couldn't get the zipper up over my calves. I even ordered a size up, I'm normally a 5/6, I'm petite in general, got a size 7, could not get them zipped. I would expect that of my thighs, they're not as small, but that's kind of ridiculous that they're that small, my calves are like 9 inches around at the thickest part. So if you weigh anything above 100 pounds, you probably can not wear them xD And that's sad. Other than that, I haven't had any issues, but I understand that the quality of their items has slipped a bit in the last couple years as they've become immensely more popular. Their prices have dropped, but so has the quality, and that sucks. I'm also finding most of their designs are super unappealing to me too within the last year or so. I understand wanting to have styles that encompass different subgenres of Goth. The military, and cyber stuff, and the satanic crap, it appeals to other people, but it feels like they've strayed too far away from their original ideas, and that type of stuff usually ends up in the clearance section pretty quick because it doesn't sell. Needs more ghosts, and bats, and moons, and spookyness, that's what I like. They keep releasing these garbage limited edition plushies that people buy then charge 10x the price for in reselling it. That's one thing I praise Angelic Pretty for, when they're releasing a new design, especially one that they know will be super popular, they limit you to buying 2 of the style because people will buy them for $300-$500 then resell them for like $1000, and they get away with it because these super popular designs sell out within minutes. Angelic Pretty could say, who cares as long as we're making our money, but they want their designs to be bought for a fair price, not just bought up, and dished out way overpriced for greed. I get it, I resell things, sometimes for way more than I spent, but generally not for that much more, hardly ever more than 2x the price.
Like with the Sailor Moon Colourpop collection. When it first came out, and through several months of restocks, it instantly sold out because people were buying these $22 shadow palettes, $9 blush, and $6 lip gloss in bulk to resell for ridiculous prices to desperate fans who just wanted makeup packaged with someone they loved. Like me, I grew up on Sailor Moon, I loved it as a kid, and I still love it, and seeing people buying her merchandise to scam people out of so much money was just nauseating. But the funny thing is... I was browsing the collection on Colourpop's site a few days ago, and everything was available for the rock bottom prices they were intended to sell for. So all those people who bought up all that makeup to make so much money off of the desperation of people, they can suck it, they're stuck with piles of the stuff that they'll probably have to sell for below retail now, and that's karma. Even the glitter is in full stock right now, the $10 glitter they were charging $40-50 for? You cam get it for $10, maybe $9 with discount code. You can get the whole collection for less than $100, and people are still on ebay trying to sell it for $250. That's why you always do your research before you buy, you might find it cheaper elsewhere.
Just saying, I like places that put limits on the quantity you can buy, it's an honorable thing. Sure, people can get around it with multiple accounts/payment methods/addresses, but I admire the people who at least try to keep things fair. I'm a Libra, I demand equal, fair, justice xD That's why I love the concept of karma, balance. Even though I may be a bit chaotic, that's one reason Wolfie, and I fit so perfectly together because he is structure, order, control, and I'm chaotic, impulsive, wild. We're both a lil crazy, I can admit that, but we balance each other so perfectly❤

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21:58 Jan 14 2021
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Wolfie asked me once, "Bunny, if we ever broke up, would you date another Dom?"
I really enjoy being a sub, and being involved in the bdsm, S/M lifestyle. It's a lot of fun, it's extremely satisfying, and it fulfills me in ways I didn't know I wanted.
But. I wouldn't turn down a guy specifically because he wasn't a Dom. And if I met a guy, and he wasn't, I wouldn't try to force him into that role. I would mention my interests in it when the subject was brought up because some people do need an introduction into it to even know it's an option. That's how it was with me and Wolfie. I knew absolutely nothing about the lifestyle when we met. It's funny because we were already falling for each other before anything sexual even happened. We had known each other for a few days, and I noticed he hadn't flirted with me at all. I'm kinda used to guys aggressively flirting with me constantly xD I am an aggressive flirt myself. But not with anyone who hasn't displayed interest in that with me, I don't want to sexually harass anyone, so I hadn't made a move, and he wasn't making any moves so I finally just asked him why he hadn't tried anything at all. And of course, since it's Wolfie, he told me he was simply trying to be a gentleman, and get to know me without all of that. So sweet :3 But... That he also had some usual tastes that he wasn't comfortable discussing so openly with someone he was interested in, and didn't want to scare away. After a bit of poking, and prodding he eventually told me what he liked, and requested that if I was really interested in it then I should do some research on my own, and come back to him with my own opinion on how I feel about it. Because it's easy to get into something just listening to someone you like talk about it, he didn't want me to jump into it just because he likes it, he wanted me to judge it for myself. So off I went, an innocent little bunny looking up bdsm online xD But aside from the mountain of porn I found some good, well-written sources with detailed explanations of roles, and rules, and styles, and fetishes, just a whole world opened before my eyes. So I went back to Wolfie, and told him it was all incredibly intriguing, and later would realize it was something I'd been wanting my whole life I just had never had anyone introduce me to it before which shocks Wolfie because he says I'm such a natural sub. I remember when we started training, and asking him silly questions like, what do I call you when we're doing things, how should I do this, how do you like that? Wolfie is very into scenes, and roleplay. Like the naughty secretary who's secretly a call girl, who will do absolutely ANYTHING to get a job from the high powered business man xD Which sounds super silly, but it's actually a lot of fun. Like, oh, Mista A, let me unbutton this tight dress, and show you my qualifications...
xD
Yeah. It's kinda corny, but it's fuckin fun, and fuckin should be fun.
Would it be fun with anyone else? Would I want another Dom if Wolfie was gone?
I just... can't really think about that. I can't imagine it. It definitely wouldn't be the same with anyone else. Do you think most subs feel that way? That there's no one like your first.
If I had to train some poor guy how to Dom me it would be a disaster xD I do meet people who are curious about it, and I try my best to explain, but it's like Wolfie said, you have to see it for yourself to decide. They say that the best way to learn how to Dom is to sub for one. Wolfie helps train clueless new Doms sometimes. He gets so exasperated, he'll tell me, "Bunny, these guys are hopeless... Every single one of them wants a sub just to have a personal porn star." Poor Wolfie xD He actually hands on trained one of his good friends, and I can't tell you how uncomfortable that makes me especially since she's a successful artist who lives in Paris, and she's so fuckin French, and ohhlala. Gag... But trust is extremely important in Dom/sub relationships, so I suck it up, and smile, and I don't want to be the kinda girl who says, ok, you love me now, you have to get rid of everyone you cared about before we met. That sucks. You can't expect to erase their past just because you're their future. Besides, she's become a very aggressive Domina since they've parted ways, so on top of having me, he's 100% not interested in subbing for her. And she's apparently more interested in female subs so he says she's super interested in ME . I've informed him that if she tries she's not going to like my response, and they will probably not be friends after xD
I've also informed him that if he ever goes to Paris again without me he's going to have a very bad day... That fool was actually planning on going to Europe after he left the island because apparently several people in Slovenia, and Austria, and France all owe him money. And I get it, he wants his money, but they got banks in Europe. They have entire systems dedicated to transferring money around from different countries. It's funny because this time last year he was telling me he was going to spend the entire month of March there before coming back to me. Oh no, would you look at that, his plans just ruined... And he deserves it. But ya know, it's time for him to come home. Well, not straight home, here first.
I dunno, I'm just not friends with any of the guys I've ever been involved with so I guess I don't get it, but most of the women he was involved with it wasn't romantic so maybe there's the key difference. Like I said, they all decided to throw me away at some point, and then later, every single one of them has tried to come back in my life. You know my favorite line? "You probably don't remember me, but..." Oh, believe me, I remember. And it's not like I'm still upset or bitter or anything, but why would I give one more second of my time to someone who so callously threw me aside? Prove me wrong, prove you deserve my attention. Otherwise, get fucking bent, you are not worth my time. I guarantee I am not the person you left behind.
But yeah. I definitely wouldn't specifically go looking for a new Dom. I've seen a lot of subs do that, Dom-hopping from one to another, trying to talk about how amazing, and special they each are, one after another. "Finally, a man who treats me how a woman should be treated." Ok, but... didn't you say that about the last guy? And the one before that? And... on and on. I mean, how many times do you need to say, "He was right in front of me all along!" Well, goddamn, how many men are in front of you, are you a fuckin taco truck? No offense, but maybe the problem there isn't the men you choose. I especially love when subs who are clearly not very good at being a sub based on how they conduct themselves, talk trash about other subs. I think if you have to constantly attack other subs by calling them fake that's another thing that the real issue is probably you. *cough*MASSIVE INSECURITY*cough*. Just sayin.
I don't want to be like that. And I genuinely can't imagine myself without Wolfie, not just as my Dom, but as my best friend and lover. None of us are getting that fairytale ending that the 90s Disney movies promised us, relationships take work. The right one always takes work, they take more work than any other one, but it's worth it.

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07:18 Jan 13 2021
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Wolfie asked me recently...
"Bunny... do you NEVER wear clothes at home?"
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Gee, I never thought I'd see the day he'd complain about that... Well not really complaining, he just thinks it's odd how almost every time he asks for a picture of me or video calls me I'm half dressed.
What a coincidence that he always manages to catch me in such a risqué state... Totally not on purpose❤
There are some people who would say, "What happened to humility, and being humble, and modest?"
Nahhhhhhh xD
Look, I'm proud of my body, I enjoy it. If you have a problem with it, the funny thing is, that's just it, it's YOUR problem :3
We certainly wouldn't want sexuality on a VAMPIRE website, how dreadfully scandalous.
Anyway! I love this headband. It's a tiny bit big for my head, me being so petite and all, but if I stick it in my pigtails it stays put.
Lemme just talk about that eyeshadow though cause holy shit, it is amazing. It's actually three shades, Black Magic, Sinner and V-amped, from the BH Cosmetics palette Lil' Bit Psycho. This is my first time really using it, despite having bought it back in October. It was a whole whopping $14, and totally worth it, the colors are crazy pigmented❤

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18:46 Jan 12 2021
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Introducing, the Little Witch Cutsew OP by Angelic Pretty in the pink colorway♥
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Ain't she just gorgeous? Kawaii as fuck. And in immaculate condition. This dress was totally worth the $300, it's perfect. It's actually covered in little glitter polka dots, so cute. And despite being from Japan it actually fits over my boobs, big plus. Japanese women tend to usually be a bit more petite so often times buying a dress from Japan is risky because it could be a few sizes too small. I think Lolita brands have been trying to correct for this by making dresses stretch with more elastic fabric, and wider portions of shirring. This dress could probably easily fit up to an XL in US sizing, but also super comfortably fits me at around a Medium. Lolita is an interesting style that I do love, but not something I like to wear every day. It definitely satisfies my kawaii side.
But the hunt continues...
There are more AP dresses I'm looking for.
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HCS comes up pretty regularly on Lace Market, the problem is most them come up for sale in Europe. There's currently a pink one for sale in Germany, but the last time I ordered something from Germany it took about three months to get here for whatever reason. It's not like I need it sooner, but it sucks to have to wait that long for something you paid so much for.
HT is a bit trickier, I don't see it come up much, and they don't have a pink colorway for this one, but I do really like the white version. There's also a limited edition, even more rare orange version too, and there's actually one for sale right now on Lace Market, but... I don't want it in orange at all. It's cute in orange, but I don't really wear the color. Definitely white.

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01:13 Jan 12 2021
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And that... is Bloodborne 100% across the board.
I did it, I beat Orphan of Kos, I am the greatest there ever was xD
But there is so much more work to be done in Dark Souls❤
Missing endings, unbeaten optional bosses, mountains of lore to further explore...
There just haven't been any games released within, I dunno, a couple years now that I've really found worth playing. I did see there was a new Harvest Moon coming out :3
Could we get a Stardew Valley 2, as well?

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captainglobehead
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03:47 Jan 13 2021

Loved Bloodbourne. I like Dark Souls as well. Liked Dark Souls III. Never seen Dark Souls II.





 

23:59 Jan 11 2021
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I think someone wrote this song about me and Wolfie xD
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I was jogging, and it popped on, and by the end I was just standing on the sidewalk, crying. And then I laughed, and I kept going.
Yep, sounds about right xD
Music has always had a huge emotional impact on me, songs randomly make me cry all the time. Can you imagine driving down the road, and seeing this random short, blonde pigtailed girl burst into tears on the sidewalk? And did anyone stop to see if I was ok? Fuck no, that's the world we live in. Then again, I probably woulda been like, "What the fuck do you want ya creep? I'm tryin' to have a cry here!"
xD
It's just that... Wolfie thinks he's a monster, he thinks he's so horrible, that he doesn't deserve love, that he can't truly be loved... But he is. He's had such terrible things happen to him, and it's so hard for him to let it all go. He's not as bad as he used to be, but those thoughts are still there, that he deserved it all, and deserves the bad things that happen, and doesn't deserve happiness. Well it's not true, and that's everything I try to show him. He's tried hard at times to get me to leave so that I wouldn't be hurt by how he is. Well you know how he is? He's kind, and sweet, and gentle, and extremely loving. You just have to get past all of his defenses to get to those parts of him. It's worth it once you do. His view of himself doesn't match up to who he really is, and I do everything to make him see himself in the light.
We're getting there❤
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20:56 Jan 11 2021
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This is the Bunny Moon Doll Dress by Collectif❤
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Sadly, it doesn't actually have any bunnies on it. Oh majestic Universe, bestow upon me a dress that has both moons and bunnies. That would be bitchin', thanks :3
I did manage to land a rare new dress, and even rarer batsy shoes for the extremely low price of $40 each❤
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Free shipping for both on top. Those shoes alone could probably be sold for $300. I did own a pair a few years ago, but they were too big so I ended up selling them for like $100 maybe. I've come a long way as a seller, I know these are worth more IF I want to sell. I have an extensive bat shoe collection, and these are a beautiful addition... That dress is also something I've been hunting for. It sold out so fast about a year ago, and they never restocked it, not even once which is obviously a huge mistake on their part, but lucky me, I finally found it, and in brand new condition on top. So what we have here is a dress that sold for $40, and could probably resell for $200 at least. Again, if I decide to sell...
Unfortunately, a lot of countries in Europe are having major complications shipping to the US so they've just... stopped doing it. Like Collectif, they're having an amazing 50% of sale, sale, and they won't ship to me. It's kind of a problem since I buy a lot of my stock from Europe. If the UK Killstar warehouse goes down it's going to hurt my business. Probably not destroy it, but I do get a lot of my stuff from them so it will be inconvenient. I'll have to shop at the US warehouse, and not only do they take 3x longer to ship things, they constantly mess up my orders, and make getting refunds extremely difficult. So I hope this all gets worked out for my sake xD Totally selfish, do it for me :3

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01:13 Jan 11 2021
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New to my Angelic Pretty wishlist...
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The Bunny College shoes.
Ugh, so fuckin cute. Although I wish they made them in white... I'd totally take pink or black. The thing is, whether you buy them from their Japan, US, or Paris shop it runs about $200. Not a huge amount, especially for shoes, but I did just buy a $300 dress so... But those pink ones would look so cute with the dress I bought x_x
I can totally afford them easy, but the Wolfie in the back of my head is saying, "Bunny... is that really a smart investment?"
Yeeeees?
Maybe if I give the bunny eyes to the Wolfie in my head he'll relent, and let me get whatever I want... That's how it works in person xD
It's not that Wolfie is cheap, it's kind of the opposite. When he buys something he gets the best, usually most expensive there is because he wants it to last so he doesn't have to replace it for a long time. He has shoes in his closet he's had since High School, I tell him he probably won't ever wear them, but he won't get rid of them because he might need them xD Wolfie spent a lot of time with his grandparents as a kid, and these were people who lived, and fought in huge wars in Russia. For part of their lives they didnt have anything, there were times they didn't know if they'd have food day to day let alone anything else so they impressed on him the need to save, spend wisely, be very careful with money. And he tries to make those same impressions on me... And I try to be responsible bunny, I always pay my bills first, I always make sure I have money in my savings before I buy anything, I don't spend his money. That's why Wolfie voice is in the back of my head poking me to think about my investments. But then Wolfie is also constantly saying, "Bunny deserves nice things, whatever will make Bunny happy."
Ahhh, the conflict xD
In even more good news, I got the money on one of the return requests, AND got my dress back in perfect condition :3 So this bitch bought a dress from me, and decided it was too small for her so she filed that I sent her the wrong dress. Despite me messaging support with my picture, and video proof of exactly what I had sent they still allowed her to return it. Major bullshit. So I went off on them, completely nuclear. I am a 5 star seller with over 200 confirmed, completed sales, my buyers love me, I am awesome at what I do. Being a scam seller is just plain stupid, honestly, because these apps hold the buyers money until they either rate, and approve of what they got or three days pass. They have three days to determine whether what they got is what was listed, and if not to try to return it. So if you knowingly send a box of dirt or a book or an empty box, they can file for a return, you do not get your money unless you can prove you sent what was listed. Which I did. I'm sorry to the customer support associate who had to deal with me, but for fuck's sake xD I proved what I sent. Still got approved, and shockingly she did send my dress back the way I sent it. But then they also gave me my money for it. Maybe to shut me up, maybe to cover for their huge mistake, I dunno, but I'll take it. I'm kinda shocked my account there hasn't been suspended because I do not take shit from buyers. You're encouraged to be polite, and talk things out, but fuck that, if you're being an asshat that is how I will treat you, buyer or not. That bitch is a scammer, she lied to get a return, they let it happen so they owed me. Fair is fair. Now I just need the other return to get denied because it states in their policies you can NOT return for changing your mind. This is the only app this happens on, their return system is shit. Anywhere else, the buyer submits a return request with their evidence, the seller is informed, and they submit their evidence, and it all goes to a human who decides who's probably telling the truth. That doesn't happen here so buyers get away with anything. I've also been reading a lot of bad reviews saying they can randomly close your account even if you still have money you haven't transferred out, they just keep it. It's definitely making me leary about selling there, but it's where I make most of my sales. I hate that a few crappy buyers can totally ruin it. I love getting messages after a good buyer gets their stuff, and they tell me how much they love it, and how thoughtful the packaging is, and how awesome it was to work with me. I want it to be a good experience, but some people just fuckin suck.

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20:42 Jan 10 2021
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I'm getting major red flags from a buyer who purchased a dress from me last night. So I've had issues with this buyer for a few weeks now. It started with her making me extremely lowball offers. She'd offer $15-25 for dresses I have marked for $80-150, and message me asking if I'd do free shipping with her extremely low offers because it was the holidays, and that clearly meant I owed it to everyone to hand out my items, and ship for free. These messages were all ignored though I should have blocked her right there. Eventually she contacted me about a $50 dress, and asked if I'd sell it for $33. I replied that I could do $40, but would not include free shipping. So she asked if I'd keep it on hold at $40 for a friend who would purchase it for her as a gift. I agreed, but when her friend came to purchase, she offered me $33... Sighhhhh. Declined. That's not what we agreed on. I even delete the listing, and relist at the original $50, if she wants it now she can pay full price. But it's not over xD So last night she finally gives me a decent offer, $77 on a dress I had listed for $92. I hesitated seeing that it was her making the offer with all of my intuition screaming to decline, and block her. But in extreme generosity I accept, and she even messages me to thank me for accepting. But then... A couple hours later she messages me again saying she needs me to ship to a different address, and not to cancel the order. That's not how it works... When I get an order in I get a prepaid shipping label with the order with the shipping address the buyer has on file. I can't change it, you have to cancel, put in your correct information, and repurchase. If I don't ship using the label the app sends me with the tracking number provided they never know if I actually shipped or not. Basically, she's very lazily trying to scam me by trying to get me to ship to an address that's not on the purchase so then she can say she never got it, keep the dress, and get her money back. And even if I went to support, and showed the messages of her asking me to ship elsewhere, it would still be my fault for doing it, and I would get nothing. Really lazy and stupid, and anyone who falls for it is even more idiotic. I went ahead, and blocked her finally, she's just too high risk. Sure, maybe you possibly moved, and forgot to change your address before you bought something... But it's highly suspicious especially since she's been trying to weasel things outta me for nearly free for weeks. That, and she has practically zero feedback. I can sell that dress for my full asking price no problem so it's not losing anything, in the end, except a bad customer.
In good news, my Angelic Pretty dress is already set to arrive on Tuesday :3 I am going to put it up for sale just to see what people are willing to offer for it, but probably won't end up selling it, it's just too rare and adorable. I collect dresses almost like Wolfie collects old books or art. Even if I don't necessarily use them often they're still a beautiful piece for me to own, and say are mine. And if I do sell them I'll make twice my money back at least. Or maybe they'll get passed down to my nieces someday. They already come into my room, "I call this when Aunt Bunny dies." "No, I want that when she's dead."
Yeah, hey, I'm still alive, guys, thanks xD

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03:40 Jan 10 2021
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Another dumb fuckin buyer trying to make a return today... Her reason?
"I found it cheaper somewhere else."
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I'm sorry, but why is that my problem? Now, this dress took over 3 weeks to get to her because the postal system has been overrun the last couple months, so that sucks. But if I spent almost $150 on a dress I think I would wait it out before going, and buying another one, cheaper or not. She even posted pictures in her return request that the dress arrived brand new, and exactly as I listed it basically proving my side of things, that I did what I was supposed to do, and her buying one when she already had one coming is her problem.
This is a classic case of buyer's remorse so it should be declined, and my money released. If she wins I'm probably going to be done with this app. I'm sympathetic to her situation, but no one forced her to buy it somewhere else, she's responsible. This is the only app I've ever had returns approved on, and in both cases the items were brand new, and shouldn't have qualified for a return, but they somehow did when the buyers claimed I didn't send them what I had advertised. Yet when they returned my items they were exactly what I had listed... And when you take that evidence of the buyer being a total scammer to support? Completely ignored. I was reading that on this particular app if you file that something you recieved is SNAD(significantly not as described) it doesn't even get a human reviewing it, it just automatically gets accepted for a return without the seller even having a chance to prove anything or defend themselves. That's major bullshit because it basically means buyers can return anything on a whim just because it didn't fit or they changed their mind or they got it cheaper somewhere else. Lucky for me this buyer didn't file snad, she filed under "Changed my mind," she admitted she got exactly what she paid for, she just doesn't want it anymore because she got it cheaper elsewhere. It explicitly states that returns will not be approved for the buyer filing for changing their mind so I don't even understand why it needs to be approved, I guess to give the seller a chance to accept the return, but fuck that, I did my job. Should be an easy case in my favor, but these apps have so little seller support it's ridiculous. I knew this was going to happen with this dress too because I noticed it had restocked after she bought it, and it was completely sold out when she bought so I was expecting it. I'm just glad she was stupid enough or honest enough not to give a scam reason. There are a ton of bad reviews from other sellers for this app, lots of people complaining about the returns system, but at the end if the day there's nothing you can do except not sell there. The thing is, most other apps charge almost twice the selling fees, but maybe it's worth the extra 10% fee to have better seller support and protection. It just sucks because I've made most of my sales on this app, and I hate to boycott it over a couple fakeass returns, only a couple in 18 months isn't bad at all they just seem to be hitting all at once so it's especially annoying.
I mean, I had another woman message me earlier today to ask for a refund because, "The dress is shorter than I expected." And I politely told her that she had every chance to ask me for the measurements prior to purchase. She seemed cool about it, I even told her she could use my pictures if she decided to resell, but I'm waiting for the return request from her next since she didn't bother to rate me. People please, before you spend $100 on a dress from a reseller, ask for the goddamn measurements. If you don't, you are totally to blame if it's not what you were expecting. I saw one seller on her listings state, "I don't do measurements, don't even ask." First of all, rude fuckin bitch. Second, not only not offering to measure, but stating she refuses so don't ask, that's asking for returns, and she probably gets them. Not someone you wanna do business with.
Another fucked up bit of policy from that app that I noticed recently is their shipping protection. So they offer $200 protection on items you ship using their labels. The catch is, you have to file for this within two weeks of shipping. But sometimes, like now, things are moving super slowly through the postal system. Like that dress that took 3 weeks, if it had gotten lost past two weeks in, and never marked delivered, they would have refunded the buyer, and left me with nothing. I didn't know that though, I only found out when I went to see what I should do if it never got delivered, and the answer was basically at that point if you waited an appropriate length of time for it to be delivered, and it wasn't YOU'RE SCREWED.
It's really dumb, the whole app just fuckin incompetent.

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20:56 Jan 09 2021
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04:01 Jan 09 2021
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I really need to stay off of Lace Market... I always end up with a $300+ dress xD I just go to browse, and see if there's anything good for sale, and then...
But... it's completely sold out on site. And it's pink. I have a major weakness for pink Lolita dresses...
This is the Angelic Pretty Little Witch Cutsew OP.
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And I just bought it for $308. Which is only about a week's paycheck from my embroidery job so it's not THAT bad.
The thing is, these dresses are an investment. I've seen this exact dress go for $750. Of course... I'd like to keep it. But if I decide to sell I can possibly double my money. $300 is pretty cheap, especially since this design was just released last Fall. I'm really trying to slowly build up my Lolita collection, but I'm picky about what I want. Quality brands like Angelic Pretty, Alice and the Pirates, Baby the Stars Shine Bright, they aren't cheap so I like to  invest in designs I really love. I prefer spooky, creepy, Gothic type stuff, and bats, cats, tarot cards, spell books and moons are right up my alley :3

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17:25 Jan 08 2021
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I'm so tired of buyers trying to return things because they don't fit. These people buy sizes they know are too fuckin small then expect me to just take the loss, and accept the return. I'm not obligated to accept returns on sizing issues especially when it's marked VERY clearly a few times throughout the listing what size I'm selling, and they have every opportunity before purchase to speak with me about fit and measurements.
Someone this morning put in a return request for a dress. She stated, "Doesn't fit, thought it was supposed to fit like an XL(16-18.)"
Ok... But the dress is a size MEDIUM. Why would you ever think a MEDIUM would fit like an XL? Granted, Killstar dresses, and clothing in general has pretty crazy sizing, often too big, sometimes too small, rarely true to size. But before she spent almost $100 on a dress she should have asked me for measurements instead of just hoping it would fit, but oh well, I'll just try to screw the seller if it doesn't. That's the general buyer mentality I run into, and it sucks. She even posted a picture of herself in an XL shirt in her evidence, why? You bought a MEDIUM dress xD Then, after I declined her return, she messages me, "I think I accidentally closed my return request, I want a refund, this doesn't fit like an XL." Omg... Lady! You bought a MEDIUM!
Of course, I calmly, and politely pointed it out to her, and she has not come back. Hot fuckin damn. I'm guilty of it too, buying things I know are too small. I nearly bought that Care Bears romper in the XXS fully knowing there was no way in Hell it'd fit over my tits, and ass, but I wanted it so bad. And if I had, I wouldn't have sent it back, I would've accepted that I made a poor choice, and either have resold it or gone on a diet xD But Wolfie likes me curvy so it's not worth getting down to a size 0 to fit into one romper. Lucky me they put out some bigger sizes, but I'm just saying, that would have been my fault. I swear people on this planet just don't understand taking responsibility for your own actions. If they can punish someone else for their stupidity to get away themselves, they absolutely will. Clearly it's MY fault she either didn't read or ignored the size she was buying, I clearly owe it to her to fix her mistake.
Fuck xD

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captainglobehead
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22:03 Jan 08 2021

You can't be held responsible for someone else's stupidity.





Crowscat
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06:09 Jan 09 2021

:::points above::: yup agrees at what the Captain said. Just unreal the reasoning of some right? LOL!!!





 

00:11 Jan 08 2021
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My next Killstar order came on time, and I love everything inside

First off, the Release Me sweater.
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So cuuute, so big and comfy. It is a little bigger than I need, but I don't mind it being a bit oversized. I wish they did their other anime graphics in this style, it's so freakin comfortable, and it's long enough that it totally covers my ass, big plus.

Not Cute dress.
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Omg, it's adorable. I like Skeletor, he's constantly insulting people, especially the absolute idiots around him, I totally get that xD

No Angel crop + Discord mini.
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I must've been in anime mood when I ordered this stuff xD Although I do wish they'd come out with some blonde haired anime designs... I thought these two would look great together, and they do. And what's on the sleeve of the shirt?
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I didn't even see that when I bought it, but it's fuckin perfect. I love when you find an awesome detail on something you didn't notice when you bought it.

Ghoulina Velvet bikini.
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This is definitely not the type of bikini Wolfie likes me to wear... The bottoms are more like shorts almost. But I really like it, it's very family friendly. I like to take my nieces, and nephews swimming without looking like a cheap poolside whore xD So this is perfect, simple, gothy, appropriate.

She's Magic cropped hoodie.
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I adore this look. Especially with the Hello Kitty high tops. Black, black, black, HELLO FUCKING KITTY xD There is a matching skirt that goes with this hoodie, I just didn't get it, it was kinda plain. But it looks so good with this skirt which is probably my favorite KS skirt. I really like the "bondage" straps, you can wear them connected on your chest or your wrists. I prefer connected to my wrists, maybe it's the rope bunny in me, there's just something about being tied up at the wrists... I really love a good oversized hood, it makes me feel like a Sith Lord. Come on, we all know I'd be Dark Side. Wolfie is always telling me I should read this book about
Darth Plagueis, it's one of his favorite books. And I'm just like, ya know... I'm not quite ready to descend to your level of nerdom xD People think I'm bad, he's worse, he's so fuckin nerdy, but that's one reason I love him so much :3

And last, here in my crown of spikes.
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I completely forgot I ordered this so when I found it in my package I was very excited. I also got two more of those moon cup + saucer sets. Wolfie has a lot of dishes, and china, and cutlery, but I gotta goth the house up a bit. He has a lot of stuff, but like... Nothing up on his walls or floors or anything, it's like a typical undecorated bachelor pad that I've been slowly trying to make more cute and homey, and will hopefully be able to do more when he gets back, and we can go home. It's just so beige, we are not beige people xD

Like I said, I'm really happy with this lot. Usually I end up with a couple items I want to sell, but I think these are all keepers. I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to wear when I jump into Wolfie's arms this time once he gets back. I usually go with drop dead sexy, but I think Wolfie maybe needs cuddle bunny right when he gets here. It's been a long year, a long time apart, I don't want to immediately bombard him with sex, I want to be cute, loving, snuggle bunny first because that's what he really needs. Not, "Hi, nice to see you, take off your pants." Besides... He thinks I'm super sexy when I'm cute so either way xD

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Crowscat
Crowscat
06:41 Jan 08 2021

Omg. Out of all of this I saw the HK hightops and my jaw dropped its SO damn cuuutteee!!! Ha you'd totally pull off Dark Sith:p Maybe not Darth Plagueis level, but you'd find a way to make it look good:p If you do read it, totally worth it. Ya I'm that kinda SW nerd LOL!





 

02:03 Jan 07 2021
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Wolfie's ok, he's just super depressed. Which I already knew, but I hate not being in touch. Going a few days without him is awful, I just worry. I'm glad he's reached a point of self-awareness where he can recognize that his mood is so bad he needs space. He said he's barely eating, can hardly get out of bed, so it's a pretty bad episode, and I don't blame him for being distant. I wish I could do anything to help, but it takes time to pass. Like I said, he's always like this, this time of year. Usually from end of November til mid-January he's not in a good headspace. It doesn't help that it's January, and he's still not home, he's been gone an entire year. He said he's planning on being here next month so fingers crossed. I just need him back so we can go home, and every day I can touch him, and hug him, and keep him, and know he's ok. I'm a bit overprotective of him, I know, but he's my Wolfie so I'm supposed to be xD It's just... he's had a lot of really crappy people in his life, women especially. And not just his mother, former girlfriends who had treated him terribly, taken advantage of him, stolen from him, lied, cheated, all of it. That's why he gave up on having a girlfriend, and decided to just have subs. No love, no romance, no mess, no way for another woman to hurt him, just him in control. I'm not really sure why he decided to let me in, some crazy, random blonde girl he'd just met, I guess maybe I do have that effect on people. But I don't ever want to betray that. He opened his heart for me, that means a lot, I want to take good care of it :3

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Crowscat
Crowscat
06:57 Jan 07 2021

From the years of you sharing your experiences with us, you have shown him how good you are together. The growth of you both is so very endearing to read. Even when it gets bad, you both work in the dynamics of a couple, Master/sub and all that makes you stronger as one. You both are an example of cherished reality and it is encouraging as well as awesome to see one overcoming the obstacles that present itself. You evolve. You adapt. You intertwine as a result of it. That, to me is absolutely incredible, and you both are rocking it strong:) Mad respect for you gurl♡





 

21:57 Jan 06 2021
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The New Year's sales are still going so I ordered some more super cute stuff.
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I was so excited to get to order that Care Bears romper. It's the same design as the crop sweater I recently bought. I really wanted to get it with the sweater, but they only had size XXS left. Yeah... No. My boobs, not gonna fit in XXS. But as I was just kinda window shopping there today I saw they had more sizes back in stock, and that pushed me to immediately buy everything I had in my cart xD Which just so happened to be a really cute skirt/top set, and the other pair of bat wing heels I've been eyeing.

Damn it, I just remembered I also really wanted these, but I hadn't put them in my cart.
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Next time, Bunny, next time...

Hot Topic is having a really good buy one get one FREE sale on their clearance, and they just added a bunch of stuff so I couldn't resist getting some stuff for the shop...
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I think I'll keep the shortalls, I dunno, I think shortalls are a cute look, and I only have a couple pairs. The kimono top was the only thing not on clearance, but I needed it, so pretty. I have a couple kimono tops from Black Craft Cult that I absolutely love, and Hot Topic isn't super great quality, but hopefully it'll be alright.

My other Killstar order should be here tomorrow. I was really hoping their new releases would be better, I was planning on spending that money with them, but it's nice to shop other places occasionally too xD

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ReaperSoulMate
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02:16 Jan 07 2021

I love shopping at hot topic one of my favorite stores I actually have a card from them that I get discounts from.





 

18:33 Jan 06 2021
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I'm also in love with the white clothing goth look...
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It's ethereal and ghosty. Really beautiful. People who limit their Gothic wardrobe to simply all black are missing out.

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16:46 Jan 06 2021
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Ugh, I fuckin love cute and creepy♥

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05:58 Jan 06 2021
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I am, perhaps, not entirely stable when Wolfie is absent xD It's just like, I don't really give much of a fuck anyway about anything, but when he's not around, all fucks are kinda gone. It's not that I'm dependent on him, maybe slightly emotionally dependent. It's probably weird that as unstable, and occasionally out of his mind as he is, he's my stability, my constant. I never really stop to think about how much his absence affects me until he's suddenly not there. And I know better than to allow myself to become so reliant on someone who is so unstable themselves, but it just happens when a person is there all the time then suddenly they're not. And he'll be back, and it's just like things snap right back into place, the balance of the Universe is fully restored. But until then everything feels sideways. I guess you could say I have abandonment issues, especially when it comes to guys. Feels like every guy I fall for leaves. People never understand that. But then every single one has also tried to come back. To get back together, to be my "friend", to make peace with me, whatever. It's just that usually when I'm done with you, I'm just done. Why would I want someone in my life who has proven how easy it is for them to hurt me? Maybe people grow, maybe they change after years. It has nothing to do with needing to forgive anyone, I don't care about what, and why things happened years later, I've moved on. But if you've proven you're capable of being a complete garbage person to me, why would I want that around me? That's what I tell my ex on our routine calls. Usually about every 12-18 months I'll actually answer the phone, and speak to him. Because despite it being like 7/8 years since his ultimate betrayal, he's still tried to talk to me, to explain, to apologize, to make things right between us regularly. And ya know, to keep doing that for 7/8 years, to consistently keep trying makes me want to believe he genuinely means it. Or that he's completely fuckin psycho. Maybe both. And we argue for like 2 hours every time, and people always know when I'm talking to him because he's the only person I raise my voice to xD.
"Just tell me what your problem is so you can go away!"
"I just want to talk to you."
"It's been 7 years, we have nothing to talk about!"
It makes me wonder if 25 years from now I'll be yelling at him, "It's been 32 years, just let it go!"
xD
Do I believe a word he says? Hell fuckin no. But ya know. Seven years is a long time to try. Maybe give it 25, and I'll cut him some slack, maybe he'll deserve it by then. Part of me sometimes feels like having a face-to-face sit down, and just having a 100% honest conversation would put things to rest. But the bigger part of me feels like if I actually saw him in person again I would probably stab him with a butter knife. I mean, probably not lethally, but still. I don't think that would quite make us even, but it sure would help :3
Look, I'm a Libra, when things aren't even, when the balance is tilted, it has to be made right, even at the cost of a little totally harmless poking.

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01:46 Jan 06 2021
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Full disclosure... I admit, I bought this $27 mini palette for the packaging xD
But... it's pink, and pretty, and gamer themed. I need. Although it is bubblegum scented, and I'm not crazy about scented makeup, like why? But, Too Faced is good shit. I saw it when I was out shopping, but figured I could find it cheaper online. You get 20% off, and free shipping with a $35 order so yeah. I've been needing some new mascara anyway. I may have found my new perfume too. My absolute favorite scent is Night by Victoria's Secret. Their lingerie is garbage, but I do like their perfumes. Unfortunately, they stopped making it. Why, I don't know, I get complimented on it constantly, it smells so good. But I've been looking around for something to replace it with, and came upon Good Girl by Carolina Herrera. No fuckin idea who that is, but I love the name of the perfume. The bottles are even shaped like a stiletto heel, and it's tagline is, "It's so good to be bad." This is absolutely a me perfume. My other goto perfume is Gucci Guilty, and I love the smell, but it is SO strong, too strong even maybe, it makes my head swim a bit so I usually end up putting like a drop of the lotion on my neck, and not even spraying myself.
Killstar's first drop was a massive letdown. Basically just a bunch of shirts, no dresses. I don't even know what I want from them anymore, but it isn't crappy shirts.

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05:08 Jan 05 2021
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Wolfie has been keeping himself distanced from me since Christmas. That's pretty typical for this time of year, he just kinda shuts down into himself. He usually doesn't come out of it til a couple weeks into January, maybe longer. As much as I love, and need him, these are the times I really have to be strong, and independent. It's tough. I try, but I can't pretend to know how he feels. My childhood wasn't perfect, but it was nothing like his. I think one of the things I hate most about depression is how it constantly makes him feel like it's a burden to other people to have to deal with him, his moodswings, his feelings. It's really not. I don't like it when he's angry, and snappy, and says some of the worst things imaginable to me, but I've learned in my years with him not to take it personally. It's not his fault. My brother is similar, he's got a lot of mental emotional problems, it's genetic, and sometimes he'll say something to me that makes me wanna push him into a pile of pointy objects, but I restrain myself because it's just how his brain works. But maybe I understand it better because mental illness runs rampant in my family so I'm used to dealing with crazy. Lucky me, I got all the sanity :3 But I handle Wolfie better than most people would, he deserves kindness, he needs compassion, and most of all just honest love and care. I hate that he feels so alone in the world. Even if I'm sitting right in front of him, he still has those moments, like he just can't feel me. It's his brain, ya know? It's hard when the man you love, your rock, your dom, the one you run to is just unavailable. And it doesn't make me want anyone else, it just makes me want him more. I may be a huge flirt, and maybe a bit of an attention whore, but nothing beats Wolfie attention. And I'm not sad or empty or anything, I'm fine, it's just like I know he's missing, and it sucks. I actually haven't heard a word from him since New Year's Eve. He said, "Happy New Year, my fuzzy bunny, I love you." I've tried, but he's not responding. And it's probably something harmless like his phone broke or his signal sucks or maybe he's on his way home, who knows. Maybe he's just stressed, depressed, and needs space. Maybe I am clingy xD But he says I'm clingy in a good way. I just worry. There's always that dread in the back of my mind about whether he's thrown himself into the ocean or something. When we met he was incredibly suicidal, and it scares the Hell out of me that those thoughts are in there especially when he's so far away. He did really well last year with his emotions, but not being able to get home to me was really starting to take an emotional toll on him. Like I said, being a bit distant is standard procedure for this time of year, it just sucks having your support there every day, and then it's gone. I don't he realizes how much of a support he is to me, he's always saying he wishes he could help me as much as I've helped him... He does. Just because I don't wear my trauma on my sleeve doesn't mean it's not there. I'd just rather be light, and bright and happy. Because I'm strong enough to be. Wolfie is always telling me he's trying to be happier. I don't like that. I mean, I want him to be happy, obviously, but I don't want him to fake it. If you're sad, you're sad. Angry, you're angry. It's ok to have human emotions, to feel. It's ok that sometimes your brain feels things for absolutely no logical reason. He can't control that, that's depression. Sometimes I feel like I understand it better than he does, and he lives it.
Ah, to be a lone Bun out in the cold world...
Fuck, I think tomorrow I'll go shopping, surely that will solve my Earthly problems xD

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22:31 Jan 04 2021
Times Read: 1,769


New dresses from Killstar❤

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I don't really wear skulls, but this design is just gorgeous. I love roses, I told Wolfie in Spring I'm going to fill the yards with flowers, especially roses. Wolfie's favorite are white roses, he says they're more fitting for a moon bunny, but you know I've got to have red too.

I've been in love with the moon, with the night, and the dark since I was a small child. Again, skulls, but they're skelemoons so I wanted it. Just a cute, simple little dress.
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More mooniness. I just happened to have the adorable, matching beret to this dress though I am missing the matching socks so they're on my list.
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I also got a couple other dresses to sell, and two really cute little bat purses. I have another order coming in Thursday, and their first drop of 2021 should be out later today so I'm excited to see if it's anything good. I wasn't thrilled with a lot of what they put out last year, way too much satanic, military-goth garbage. It's fine if that's your look, but neither is my thing. I hope they do a good collab sometime too. The Skeletor stuff is cute, but not super resellable since most people are like, "Who the fuck is Skeletor?" Uncultured savages, I swear.

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08:05 Jan 04 2021
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Foolproof, obviously :3

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MasterOfMadness
MasterOfMadness
08:57 Jan 04 2021

Are you sure your not just a fool? :p





XxSithisxX
XxSithisxX
16:40 Jan 04 2021

Gurl you make glasses look good:p





 

05:51 Jan 04 2021
Times Read: 1,862


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00:05 Jan 03 2021
Times Read: 1,921


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For fuck's sake :3

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MorningStarAldan
MorningStarAldan
00:37 Jan 03 2021

Please, I wanna watch? Hellz yea!





 

04:33 Jan 02 2021
Times Read: 1,947


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According to my niece, and nephew, the other day my hair smelled like gummie bears...
Wtf do gummie bears even smell like xD
My beautiful little weirdos :3

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04:21 Jan 02 2021
Times Read: 1,959


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xD

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22:24 Jan 01 2021
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KS is having an up to 40% off Sale soooo...
A Skeletor dress, a velvet bikini, some tops, some skirts, and a headband that reminds me of a lovely pointed crown, yep, that just perfect for me❤
KVD is also having a really good sale, 5 full sized products for $50 so I may order a few things there. My makeup table/drawer are pretty full, but 5 more things couldn't take up that much space... I literally almost can't fit any more clothes into my closet. And yet still sometimes I'll be looking through everything I have, and say to myself or to Wolfie, "I have to NOTHING to wear." xD
I have a goth girl's dream closet, but nope, nothing at all to wear.
I am ridiculous, Wolfie's just going to have to keep his clothes in the garage. And that house has several closets, no, I need them all xD Poor Wolfie, he always thinks it's hilarious when other men think they can handle me :3
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AngelofDreams
AngelofDreams
08:31 Jan 03 2021

nice outfits





 

06:41 Jan 01 2021
Times Read: 1,911


I can't think of a better way for 2020 to have ended... Than with a motherfuckin Platinum from Bloodborne
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I could've swore in that moment I heard the Final Fantasy victory music smooshed together with the Bomberman 64, "I did iiiit!"
It only took 5 years to get there xD
I mean, to be fair I hadn't picked it up since 2016 when I got the DLC which I think is why I shelved it for so long, I just got burnt out on trying to beat Maria, funny how easy she was now. So what happened was, I decided to go back into my old save, and look at my old character, and see if she was any closer to the Pthnumerian Queen, beating her was my main goal. I load my game up, and I am standing right in front of the gate that goes into the dungeon Amygdala boss fight. Guess what he drops when you kill him? The very chalice you need to get into the queen's dungeon. So it looks like back in 2016 I was working on the exact same thing xD But I gave up for some reason. So I go in, kill Amygdala in 2 tries, get the chalice, and Fate fuckin smiled because I had everything I needed to conduct the ritual to open that dungeon. I basically ran right through it. Pthnumerian Descendant, dead, Headless Bloodletting Beast, one try, straight into the Queen... Killed her in one go. Too easy. She staggers so fuckin easy she basically couldn't attack. So then all I needed was the last ending, beating Gehrman without consuming the umbilical cord, embracing the Moon Presence. I walked in, and beat Gehrman in my NG++ game in one try. To be fair, my character in that save is stacked. Over level 200, 99 Skill, 50 Vitality, 30 Endurance, she's a beast. I didn't have the Rakuyo because I never got past Maria in that save, but I had a fully loaded threaded cane.
I still haven't beaten Orphan of Kos xD But... I didn't need to for my platinum, he's DLC. Honestly, I should've went, and tried him before I went into the Gehrman fight, but I didn't think I'd beat him in one go, I remember him being harder. Switching from whip mode to cane mode completely changed my game. Who knew that playing the game as it's intended to be played would work so well xD
I feel ready to beat Sister Friede... Maybe. Maybe I just need a faster sword, a katana maybe. I do like DS katanas, but the durability makes me pass on them. I dunno, I always like Bloodborne better because it's obviously it's bloody, and moonlit, and gothic, but it's also better suited to my play style. Being fast, no shields, no heavy armor, no heavy weapon, mostly just dodging my ass off. It's harder to be a pure Dex character in Dark Souls whereas in Bloodborne you're made for it. They do have some heavier weapons, and like 2 shields, but you're really meant to be fast.
I don't think there's any boss I haven't beaten in Dark Souls 1. There are a few in the DS2 DLC I haven't, but I feel like I never fully explored its DLC. And 3 I also have a few. The platinums are a lot harder to get on them though because they require you to get all the spells, and miracles, and class based things, it isn't just killing bosses, collecting weapons, and getting endings. But hey, it's not like I have anything better to do, clearly xD

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04:30 Jan 01 2021
Times Read: 1,714


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When Master says, "Good girl."
:3

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