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21:23 Jul 31 2020
Times Read: 59


Buyers remorse buyers are so annoying.
Especially when they ask me 20 questions, have me take measurements, the whole song, and dance, and they finally buy just to ask to cancel a day later.
Yeahhh, sorry, I tend to ship things pretty quickly which is usually a good thing, but not with these people. How dare I ship their items they paid a lot of money for so fast. In my opinion, if you pay $11 for shipping then it should be shipped same/next day, you shouldn't have to wait.
So no, I can't cancel. Even if I could, I'm not obligated to, I have every right to still ship, and keep your money. Would I? Probably not, I'd be nice enough to cancel, but then block you forever for being a pain in the ass. Don't buy things if you're not sure. If I give you measurements, and you buy, don't turn around the next day, and be like, "This won't fit." Then why did you fucking buy it? Especially after you told me your measurements, and I gave you the measurements, and you were like, "Oh, perfect." We both know this isn't about not fitting. It's that you spent almost $200 on two dresses, and you have buyers remorse. I get that, but I feel like it's a good lesson for her. Be absolutely sure when you buy things. You can't expect cancellations. I don't personally, but some people live sale to sale, and it's really shitty to buy a good amount of money worth of stuff then cancel. And if they don't fit, resell them. She probably won't be able to get as much for them as she paid me, but make some of that money back.
She also told me she found one of the dresses a lot cheaper than she paid me for it. I don't wanna be rude, but that's also not my problem. Do your fuckin' research. Whenever I wanna buy something, I scope out the absolute lowest price I can find, I look everywhere. I never buy anything without looking to see if it's cheaper somewhere else. So yeah, I paid $15 for that dress, she paid $89. To be fair, it was originally a $90 dress,  but currently on the site it's on clearance + 30% off so it's super cheap on sale now, but it is a $90 quality dress, that's what it sold for at full retail. And I say that because it's super fucking annoying to me to watch people buy things for a couple bucks from Aliexpress, then mark it up by like $50 when the quality is not there. I don't sell things at high prices that aren't quality, that weren't originally pricey to begin with. And just because Killstar decides to put something on clearance, doesn't mean that, that dress isn't still worth full price. Sorry if you found it cheaper from somewhere else, but you paid me, I shipped, I did my job, and it's not my problem that you didn't do your research.
Now there are some buyers who will do their research, and find it cheaper elsewhere then message me to be like, "Hey, I found this cheaper here, but I'll offer to buy it from you instead at the same price." That's usually a pass from me because I can almost always still sell it for more, but I appreciate that they would rather give me their money than the big vendors. They at least make the offer, and that's nice. They don't just immediately, "Omg, I found it cheaper, you charge too much, scammer!" No, for those people I like to go look into it myself, find it for even less than they claim they paid, and show them that they still paid too much. Oh, $75 was too much, you found it for $50? Gee, I just found it for $25 somewhere else so suck it, bitch xD
It's kinda shocking that I'm not banned from more selling apps. Probably because I make them a lot of money in fees. I'm an excellent seller, I'm extremely polite, and helpful to people who are reasonable, and equally polite. But when you start acting like a rude little immature bitch then I have no problem treating you as such. I may lose future business from you, but I got plenty of good buyers, and I refuse to work with assholes, you do not deserve my clothes.

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08:11 Jul 31 2020
Times Read: 79


A brand new, pretty pink Sailor Moon skirt :3
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Neinmortlan
Neinmortlan
20:50 Jul 31 2020

sailor moon, yay





 

05:24 Jul 31 2020
Times Read: 103


I've told the kids that Uncle Wolfie is going to visit us soon. They're always so excited when it comes to him, and they're not kids who immediately take to everyone, but they've always loved having him around, and seeing him. They started calling him Uncle Wolfie themselves despite how many times I've explained that he's not technically their uncle yet, but they accept him as their own, and he really needs that loving family bond that he's never received from his own family.
I haven't told them that he intends to steal their favorite auntie away for good this time. It's a sorta cross that bridge when we get to it situation. I know they'll be alright, they're already so big except for the 2 year old. She knows me as, "Kittykitty," because every time she comes over my cat loves all over her so that's how she knows me as the kitty lady xD She'll miss my cat more than she'll miss me if we take him.
Wolfie was telling me it's going to be hard to find alone time since the kids always constantly want to be up in his face, but I'm totally going to keep him to myself for a couple days first. Sorry, but when he gets here, I'm not sharing, it's been too long, I need some of that xD Not even sex, just some quiet intimacy by ourselves.
I am curious if he intends to tell my parents he's taking me away for good this time. I think my dad would tell him, "She's your problem now, sucker, no refunds, no givesies-backsies." Obviously, I'm an adult, I can do whatever the fuck I want, and I like to think they trust him to take care of me by now, but having me move 9 hours away is kind of a big deal. Back in the day all a dude had to do was ask the dad's permission then he could literally pick the woman up, and take her. That's how it happened with Hades and Persephone, he actually had permission from Zeus to take her, and back then that's all you really needed. I think that would be hilarious if Wolfie drove up in a black car, threw me over his shoulder, shook my dad's hand and left. But he would have to fight past several children first, my tiny minion army. Lucky for him he's very tall, and can easily step over them xD Except the oldest one, he's about to be 11. I can still remember how excited I was when my oldest sister first told me I was going to be an Aunt. I was actually in California at the time with an ex, and I was screaming, jumping up and down. Now here we are, 11 years, and several more constantly in my hair later. I'm not sure I ever would have made a very good mom, but I've been a pretty bitchin' aunt :3

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Neinmortlan
Neinmortlan
20:52 Jul 31 2020

from my experience: being an uncle is way more fun than being a dad





 

08:26 Jul 30 2020
Times Read: 139


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He just makes everything better :3
Being owned by a Dom has done a lot for me, but one of the most important things is that it's given me a tremendous amount of confidence in myself, especially in my body. I'm just more comfortable with who I am than I've ever been because I've felt like this is the first place I've truly belonged with Wolfie, and in the lifestyle we share. Being a Sub makes me feel the most myself, the most comfortable, the most confident. Even when I'm not by my Master's side, I'm still collared, owned, I still know who I am, and my place in this big world. It's difficult to explain, but it just makes sense for me. That, "Oh! This is what I've been looking for my whole life, this is what I've been searching for," moment when Master claimed me, and began to train me. I don't know if it was like that for other Subs, but it was just completely life changing for me.
Not only that, but being with a man who genuinely loves me. Wolfie, and I have had our problems. Mostly due to his extremely severe episodes of depression. He completely loses his mind occasionally, and it's not his fault. But when he's not in that, when he's himself, things are so good. Things are vastly usually more good than bad, his episodes have gotten a lot better, and further in between over the years which he says is mostly due to my presence in his life. Having a man love me, and treat me well was a completely foreign concept to me before him, and I don't really like talking about my exes with him because it doesn't matter, but I do want him to understand how amazing he is simply for treating me the way he does. I don't wanna be fucked up, and broken together, I want us to make each other better, and I think we really do♥

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09:00 Jul 28 2020
Times Read: 182


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Someone offered me $300 for my Hospital Bunny JSK. I did seriously consider it... I put it up for sale for $1000 just to see if anyone would make any offers on it. It was originally a $100 dress, I paid $112, I think so $300 is definitely pretty generous. I thought that I would sell it at around $350. But... I can't do it. I just love it too much. But I haven't worn it. I'm like a dragon, and the dress is a princess that I'm keeping locked up in my closet because she's so beautiful, and perfect, and I can't bear to take her out knowing she might get dirty or ruined. But she deserves to be out, to be shown off for how beautiful she is. It's suffering from, "Too good to use," syndrome. Like in Dark Souls when you have the Divine Blessing, and you wanna save it for the toughest boss because it's a full heal, but then end up never using it. It's so beautiful, and perfect that I don't want to ruin it with even a single mark. It's like a holy relic in my closet. But a dress that perfect deserves to fulfill it's purpose, be worn, and loved. Not sit in a closet until it turns to dust. But if you've ever tried to obtain this dress then you know. It was a hard road full of disappointment, and cancelled orders. Now it's finally mine, and I can't part with it. I thought I could for the right price, but I can't. If I did sell it for $300, I'd turn around, and buy $300 worth of other dresses, but none would be so perfect as the one. It's better have one perfect thing than several nice things in its place. Plus, I tried it on again, and was just like, yeahhh, you really belong on me, only I am deserving of you, oh holy dress xD
I'm super excited for my Krad Lanrete dress to arrive, it is tracking. I expect it to take a few weeks to get here though. I almost got my hands on Angelic Pretty's Horror Candy Shop OP. I found it in lavender for only $200. But I really REALLY want the pink version, and in the split second it took for me to decide I didn't want it, someone else immediately bought it from underneath me. It wasn't my preferred color, and it was missing a bow, and the waist ties. Technically, $200 is still a great price for a dress that sells for $400-$500 at least, but used, missing parts, and not the right color wasn't worth $200 to me. I would pay $500 for a mint condition pink version with no hesitation. And it would also sit in the most holy shrine xD

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04:01 Jul 27 2020
Times Read: 221


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Mhm :3

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Oh yeah xD Knife bunny needs a friend.

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02:19 Jul 27 2020
Times Read: 246


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Sometimes Wolfie will say he's a monster, that he's just like his mother. I hate when he feels that. He's not abusive. He's not violent. He takes care of the people he loves, even the ones who don't deserve it, who never took care of him. I know he has a vicious dark side, I don't ever pretend it's not there, but when he is himself, when the depression, and darkness isn't covering him... He's the kindest, gentlest, sweetest, most loving, protective man I've ever known. Love isn't being there when it's all rainbows, and happiness, and abandoning them when the sun disappears. It's being there, holding through darkness and light, good and bad. Being with someone with emotional mental illness is not for the weak. There will be times they hate themselves, they feel like they don't deserve anything, especially love or happiness, they shut you out, they run away, they're self-destructive, or worst of all, they just stop feeling anything because it's all too much so they literally can't care anymore. You have to be strong, you gotta have thick fucking skin for what they're going to throw at you. No one in this Universe is more perfect to handle Wolfie than I am. I think sometimes about what would have happened to him if he'd chosen to open his heart to someone else. But it was me, he found me, and he went for it. And I am the exact perfect person for him. That's fate. That's the Universe at work. He could have went up to anyone, talked to anyone, found anyone, but he found me. And life had given me the compassion, the kindness, the strength, the courage, the heart to love him when anyone else would have ran away. I see Wolfie's dark side, but I am not afraid. I love him whole.
He's nothing like his mother. But I think that's his biggest fear that he's going to hurt everyone around him, and end up just as alone as she is. To be fair, she has her own share of mental problems so I try to be understanding, but there's no excuse for most of the things she's done, and continues to do to him. There's no excuse for telling your child how worthless, and disappointing they are for almost 30 years, for beating them bruised, and bloody, for making them feel like no one will ever love them. It's unforgivable. And his father is no better because he didn't even try to stop it. I haven't met his father, he's this sorta mysterious, enigmatic, distant genius that doesn't have much of anything to do with any of his family or most of humanity in general. But if I ever do meet him it will be hard to restrain myself. I'd like to sit both his parents down, and give them the ass chewing of a lifetime. How could you do this to your child? How could you let this happen? Do you see how extraordinary he became despite you two useless, incompetent motherfuckers?
I wish I could inflict every little bit of hurt he's felt right back onto them. But I've always promised Wolfie I would play nice. I leave it to the Universe to handle scum like them, they will get theirs, the darkest, pointiest, most shark and bear infested Hell hole is too good for them, they deserve worse. But that is not for me to inflict, no raining down unholy retribution down upon them, Wolfie says to be a nice bunny. So I'm going to take care of the man I love how he deserves because he does deserve it. I will not focus hate on worthless people, I will focus all the love on the man who deserves it.

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00:02 Jul 25 2020
Times Read: 280


I've talked to Wolfie about taking Kitty with us when he comes to pick me up. I wasn't really sure I wanted to bring him with us because this is his home, and I know my nieces, and nephews would take care of him when I'm gone. But... He is mine. Well, pretty much. He just kinda showed up out of nowhere several years ago, and decided he belonged to me. That's why he's never had a proper name, I don't know what his original owner called him, but he responds to Kitty so that's who he is. I don't want to leave him behind. Plus, Wolfie loves him too, and we always planned on getting a cat when I fully moved in. I would love for us to also get a kitten together, but Wolfie says we start with one, and if it goes well then maybe we get kitten. And Kitty is very good with kittens. He gets a bit jealous, but he's never actually been dangerous to any he's been around. He just kinda bops them on the head with a paw, then runs, and hides all guilty looking when I get onto him. He's still my baby though, and I really hope we can take him.
I've talked with the kids about my leaving, but I've also told them not to worry about it because it may never happen. Because when they look up at me with their little faces, and say, "You'd choose a boy over us?" I just can't tell them it actually may be soon. It's hard to explain to 2-9 year olds that they're going to have their own lives in a few years, and they won't really need old Auntie as much. They're already getting too big as it is. Besides, there's video chat, and it's only about an hour away by plane. Unless we actually do move to Europe. I don't think Wolfie is really going to move us there so soon though. He's always talking to me about how we need to fix up certain rooms of the house in certain ways which tells me he isn't immediately planning on selling it.
I'm more worried about him going home, and his mother being down the road. She was supposed to move back to Russia, and never did. Instead, she bought a house pretty close to his. She is, and has always been an extremely abusive person towards him. And it takes all of my self-control with that woman... Because he's asked me to be nice. I'm waiting for her to try, and turn me against him as she's done with people in his past. Oh, please, let her try... Give me any reason to tear right into her uppity old ass. Wolfie is a noble, amazing person because she has absolutely no one else, he is the only person who will deal with her. According to him, all the women in his family have been complete physically, emotionally abusive, violent lunatics. He says that's one reason he grew to like his women collared, and obedient, it puts him at ease because most of the women he grew up with were fucking monsters. And then he tries to tell me, "That's just how Russian women are." I don't believe that. I think his family is just legit psychos.
So I fit right in xD
Except not really because I'm not violent towards the people I love, I'm extremely protective. And her being a huge trigger for his depression just isn't going to work for me when I'm living there. A big part of him still having her in his life is also because she's really one of the very few people he has. He has a lot of friends, but I think most of them don't really see him. Then there's me. He's always afraid I'm going to realize what a horrible monster he is, and run away from him.  His dark side certainly is a bitch, but nothing I haven't proved I can't handle. But that's why he hasn't had me move in yet because he feels like if I spent more than a few weeks there I'll change my mind, and abandon him. We all know that's not going to happen, I just hope I can convince him. It's not going to be easy navigating long term with his depression, but I'm confident in us, and he thinks it's time we do this. He's more stable now than I've ever seen him, I'm just worried about when he gets home, and has to deal with his mother. I'd like to say that because I'll be beside him maybe that will help, but it doesn't always. It doesn't help that they speak in Russian to each other so I don't even know the horrible things she's saying to him until he tells me. I really need to learn the language... I would love to call her out in her native tongue xD
No... I promised Wolfie.
Must be calm.
Must be good.
Must not destroy pure evil even if it would make the world a better place -_-

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22:09 Jul 24 2020
Times Read: 307


Omg, these shoes just came in😍

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So pink, spikey, pentagrammy
So me.
This whole outfit is just perfect.
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The skirt is a little bit big, but it's completely sold out so I'll just alter it myself. The ribcage on the top is actually velvet which I didn't know. It would look epically cute with a pink pvc bra underneath since it's slightly see through, but not completely.
Wolfie says they look like good stripper shoes so they definitely suit me. I could pretend to be offended by that, but he's right xD

Annnd I got this shirt dress by Current Mood.
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I guess it's a shirt, but it's definitely long enough to wear as a dress with some knee highs, and my adorable lil kick ass Hello Kitty converse :3
I've never ran from or hidden the fact that I've never felt like I belonged here. I know, perfect little miniature barbie thinks she's different. I've always felt more than myself, bigger than my skin, trapped a bit in this place. Maybe everyone feels like that at some point. It's been my whole life. I don't hate my life, I'm actually in a pretty good place with hopefulness, and optimism. But I never thought I'd be here long. My body wasn't meant to live 100 years, seems like an awfully long time anyway. I like to lay out by the lake, stare into the Universe until everything else fades, until nothing feels real anymore, questioning existence, mortality, morality, futility.
But I am here, so I try to have fun with it xD

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22:08 Jul 24 2020
Times Read: 307


Omg, these shoes just came in 😍
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So pink, spikey, pentagrammy
So me.
This whole outfit is just perfect.
 2020-07-24-14-57-40
The skirt is a little bit big, but it's completely sold out so I'll just alter it myself. The ribcage on the top is actually velvet which I didn't know. It would look epically cute with a pink pvc bra underneath since it's slightly see through, but not completely.
Wolfie says they look like good stripper shoes so they definitely suit me. I could pretend to be offended by that, but he's right xD

Annnd I got this shirt dress by Current Mood.
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I guess it's a shirt, but it's definitely long enough to wear as a dress with some knee highs, and my adorable lil kick ass Hello Kitty converse :3
I've never ran from or hidden the fact that I've never felt like I belonged here. I know, perfect little miniature barbie thinks she's different. I've always felt more than myself, bigger than my skin, trapped a bit in this place. Maybe everyone feels like that at some point. It's been my whole life. I don't hate my life, I'm actually in a pretty good place with hopefulness, and optimism. But I never thought I'd be here long. My body wasn't meant to live 100 years, seems like an awfully long time anyway. I like to lay out by the lake, stare into the Universe until everything else fades, until nothing feels real anymore, questioning existence, mortality, morality, futility.
But I am here, so I try to have fun with it xD

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XbluesandX
XbluesandX
23:15 Jul 24 2020

They’re cute, but where does one wear pink, spikey, pentagrammy shoes?





 

19:59 Jul 23 2020
Times Read: 343


That's right, more new clothes xD

My knife bunny pin ^^
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I was so disappointed when I found this, but it was sold out. They still had fucking cat ghost with knife, penguin with knife, corgi with knife, but no bunny. Apparently knife bunny is extremely popular. But I noticed they restocked. They had a few left when I put my order in, and when I went back to look at it like 30 minutes later they were sold out again. Everybody loves a knife bunny :3 Wolfie says it's just perfect for me ^^

Coffin Dress.
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Only one dress this time. I don't do skulls anymore, but I love adorable skeletons.

And then just a couple simple, staple pieces.

Grey/black plaid skirt.
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Pentagram tie top.
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Moon phase skirt.
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I think I have a couple more things coming in tomorrow. My spikey pink pentagram shoes that I am most excited for ^^ I'm a huge sucker for the combination of dainty, and sweet yet badass xD

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05:07 Jul 23 2020
Times Read: 374


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I could see myself wearing this around the house, pointing my scepter at Wolfie, commanding him to make me more pancakes xD
Hey, he makes good pancakes.
More cakes, my love slave :3
That's when he gives me the look.
If you have a Dom wrapped around your dainty finger then you know the look. That raised eyebrow, playful, slightly evil, "Time to muzzle, spank, whip, cage you, and remind you who's actually in charge here you disobedient little kitten," look.
I love that look, it just melts me.

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03:43 Jul 22 2020
Times Read: 409


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I found an adorable little pastel goth dress, and I want to DIY it up like the shirt. I do still have the cute little patch of the ghost with a knife so I may sew it onto the collar. I prefer to sew rather than use an iron that way I can easily take them off if I don't like them. I also have on the way that super cute bunny holding a knife pin so maybe ghost on one side, bunny on the other. Oh, and I have those adorable kitties with knives necklaces. That would be perfect :3
Adorable knife theme. I like it.

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06:22 Jul 21 2020
Times Read: 442


Wolfie's birthday is coming up the beginning of August. His birthday is actually 3 days after my dad's. It's funny because Wolfie's a Leo, I'm a Libra, my dad is a Leo, my mom is a Libra. They've been married 35 years so that seems like a good sign. Leo and Libra really compliment each other amazingly. I can never makeup my mind, and he knows exactly what he wants. I have to stop, and view, and consider every angle of every possible decision. And Wolfie's like, "Ok, well we're doing this, this is what I want, this is what's  best." Honestly, I love that about him because it's exhausting deciding things on my own xD He's a natural leader, my alpha. I guess calling him my Lion seemed a bit unoriginal, at the time, though I have occasionally called him my big snuggly kitty xD The whole, "He's my lion, and I'm his queen," has been done to death. But I'd never seen or heard anyone refer to their partner as their wolf back then. I'm sure I'm not the first to do it, but I hadn't personally seen it as a petname before. It's actually not unheard of in the Dom/Sub community, Wolf and Kitten. Of course, after I started it, I suddenly see all these other people using it. I've always given people in my life special names. Once I name you, you're mine :3 But I'd never use the same name for multiple people, it seems a bit insincere, and kinda gross. I'll probably draw him another picture for his birthday since the island he's on has extended their lock down. I drew him one last year of Bunny falling from the sky, and popping out of a present to facehug him :3 I asked him recently, after all the years of suppressing his emotions, guarding his heart, and keeping everyone at a big distance, why did he choose to let some crazy blonde girl in 4 years ago

"I just needed a bit of warmth.Wolfie was very depressed and overworked,I wasn’t really very happy and I really didn’t show it.So when you came around I thought I might try to feel something again,so I could feel alive..."
"Does Bunny make you feel alive?"
" Very much xx"

I think it's more than that though. We fell in love almost instantly. It wasn't one of those cliche, "They were right in front of me the whole time," stories. We just knew almost immediately for whatever cosmic reason. I could've left it there that night we met. I could've left it many times over the years when things weren't all sunshine, and fairy dust. But I couldn't. I always knew that I just couldn't give up on him. I'm glad I haven't.
I just want him back in the country. I want him to pick me up, and take me home like we planned before the World decided it was out to destroy me -_- The Universe is on my side, but this fucking planet hates me, I swear.

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20:24 Jul 20 2020
Times Read: 474


A couple new Killstar things.

Scary Crop Top.
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I love it so much. Everyone keeps telling me that it's the me-est thing ever xD

Sinister Scouts Mini Skirt.
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A couple years ago they did some Gothic girl scouts themed items, including this skirt. I just love the moon print in the pleats. It also comes with suspenders that I haven't put on yet.

Let's Raise the Dead long sleeve shirt.
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Just because :3 I love cute skeletons. I got this in a couple sizes bigger than I'd need so it'd be long enough to wear like a dress, maybe with some cute tights underneath.

Oh, they just released a bunch of new stuff. Remember when I was talking about beachwear months ago, and I sent a message out to Killstar, via the Universe, to make some bat sandals?
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Apparently, they got the message xD Unbelievable.

Also.
My Krad Lanrete dress made it to the buying service :3
Actually, they politely emailed me to ask me if I'd like to change my shipping for it from them to me. Even though I chose the more expensive option at the time because it seemed like the safer thing to do, they let me know that it's actually taking longer with that service than with the cheaper one, and wanted to know if I'd prefer to switch, with a refund of the difference. I think that's pretty awesome of them to let me know. When I was reading reviews about this particular buying service, the customer service got phenomenal reviews, and I can see why. Since I don't speak Japanese or Chinese, buying brand name lolita dresses can be difficult from the actual manufacturer. That's why they have these services with people who can communicate with you via your language, and can navigate the buying process from wherever you want to buy from. So they will buy it for you after you pay them, have it shipped to them, and then send it to you for usually a small service fee. You can just try to translate the site yourself, but that's not always reliable. I think directly from the manufacturer the dress cost $160something, and from the service it cost $193. That's really an inconsequential amount when you're getting peace of mind in return.
Anyway! He let me know he has my dress, which is most important, and I can't wait for it to get here ^^ It could still take up to a month or longer to get here, but as long as I know it's on it's way to me then I'm happy. He actually sent me tracking for it already so yay ^^

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23:56 Jul 19 2020
Times Read: 521


A woman approached me about buying 3 tops from me. I have these tops marked at $65, $55, and $50. That's $170 total. That's a lot for 3 shirts, I admit, but they're rare, completely sold out, and individually reasonably priced, not much more than retail, actually. But I offered her 30% off + free shipping putting it at $119. I feel that's more than reasonable. But she wants them for less than $100 on top of free shipping. Uh, no, I can sell them for a lot more separately, I was trying to be nice, and give her a good deal together. Some people are just ridiculous. On top of which, she wasn't being very cooperative. She told she wanted, "The black crop top with the white collar."
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I have like ten different versions of a black crop top with a white collar, and she would not be clear on which exactly she wanted. The one with the moon? The patches? The skull sun and stars? The coffins? "The black crop top one with the white collar." She responded like this 3 times. Which one?!  I guess she didn't agree with me giving her $51 off, and that's for the best because like I said, they'll sell for more separately, and she just kinda seems like a bad buyer.

But this just absolutely disgusts me.
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These glitter gels sold originally for $9 each... And people are asking for this much. Now I'll be the first to stand up, and say that if something is sold out then it's worth more. But the only reason the entire Sailor Moon collection instantly sells out after every restock is because douchebags like these flood the site, and buy as many as they can for the cheaply retailed price just so they can resell them for ridiculous amounts. Which brings me to my second point. This is cheap make-up. It's barely above dollar store quality. And it's made to be cheap not to be truly functional, but to have that pretty packaging for the lifelong fangirls. It's not $70 quality, and it should not be sold as such. Don't pay $70 just because it has Sailor Moon on it. I know, we love her, but doing this with her makeup is evil, and shameful. $70 for glitter. For fucks sake. I'd love to own to entire collection, but I can't because of these leeches. I wish they'd limit the amount you're allowed to purchase. This person has an entire fucking pile, $70 each. No thanks. I could see selling them for $20, that's reasonable when you account for shipping, and sellers fees. But this is just god damned dirty.

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06:13 Jul 19 2020
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Aw, I think that's one of the sweetest things he's ever said to me :3
It reminds me of the Burning Man in Fallout New Vegas. I haven't played through NV in at least a year... I've probably beaten it 10+ times, but it never gets old. I have never once aligned myself with the Legion though. I know it's just a game, but I can't bring myself to do anything other than blow Caesar's fucking head off as soon as I get to him. Little bitch.
I remember the first time I took down the mother deathclaw. I had wasted all my ammo sniping down the alpha, and all the lesser. Instead of leaving to buy more, I made due with a pocketful of explosives. I lined the path with lots of mines, baited her into chasing me, and led her right into a massive explosion. It was glorious. One of my favorite moments in video game memory. When you kill the Reaper in Mass Effect 3. When you realize you're in Anor Londo in Dark Souls 3. When you first laid eyes on the Dragon Aerie in Dark Souls 2. Fighting the Dragon in Dragon's Dogma, such a good dragon fight. When you get attacked by that fucking alien in the elevator in Prey xD
Good times.
Ya know, sometimes he doesn't want people "oogling" me, but then other times it's, "No, wear that tight, strapless red dress to the club."
I feel like as a Dom he enjoys showing me off, but as a boyfriend he's like, "No 😐"
Either way, it's pretty cute :3
It's gonna be exhausting for him to deal with every man who oogles me xD All that firewood, save the trees!

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04:17 Jul 19 2020
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A few new things in today from Killstar.

Velvet Procession Shirt by KS.
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I absolutely love it. I'm addicted to velvet. More of a classic look. Paired with their pleated Abbey skirt, just gorgeous. Gothic to me isn't simply wearing all black. There are so many subgenres within the style, you shouldn't limit yourself to a single one. You can be classic goth, pastel goth, vampire goth, Harley Quinn goth? Maybe that's just me xD This is one of my new favorite looks though.

KS Skelter Mini Skirt.
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Something simple. I don't have many pvc pieces, I'm trying to change that. It suits a different look. Cute as Hell though :3

KS Rosetta Budoir Bra + Garter Belt.
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They're a bit infamous for their sizes being incredibly inconsistent. Their bras are wildly undersized. This is a 2XL, the largest they make, and it barely fits. I know my chest isn't small... But that's a bit ridiculous. It's fine, and all to use your pretty little A cup models, but some of us actually have some meat over here xD It is a beautiful set though, I've promised Wolfie pictures in the pair, and only the pair... They do also sell a matching pair of bottoms for this set, but I've an entire drawer of black panties so not really worth it.

Don't Cross Me Bardot Top.
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I actually bought this to wear with my Transilvania Moonlite dress. Yes, that's how they spell it. The dress hasn't shipped yet, but it can take a good few months for a Lolita dress to be made, and shipped. It's only been two weeks so I've probably got some decent waiting ahead of me. But this is a nice staple Gothic top. I adore off the shoulder looks.

And this one is a bit of a DIY.
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I bought the top, and sewed on the two patches since all three are on clearance. Actually everything I bought here is currently on clearance. But I thought this would be an easy thing to make and sell. Tops aren't super popular in my shop though. Dresses, and skirts are what really bring home the bacon. I can buy skirts for $30, and sell for $85 all day long. But I can probably sell this for a good $50, and it was less than $20 to make so that's still pretty good.

Pretty nice haul. I have a couple more coming in on Monday. I just realized I completely forgot to put my name in my pictures to prevent theft... But I'm sure I can come up with a watermark. Fucking ridiculous.

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DemonicEssence
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04:26 Jul 19 2020

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05:34 Jul 18 2020
Times Read: 611


This dress is always trying to lure me in...
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"I'm only $180. I'm so Gothic and pretty. I would look so good on you. No one anywhere near you would have a dress like me. Such unique. Buuuuuyyyyy meeeee."
But, darling... I just don't know if I'd wear you. As gorgeous as I think the Gothic Lolita style is, it's SO much. The dresses are so big.
The Nightmare Before Christmas was so dear to me as a child. I can remember watching it while playing board games with my brother.
Recently, my brother said a rather cruel thing about me to my niece who loves me, who looks up to me. "I don't want you to end up like your Aunt." Ah. How does that saying go? I'm not completely useless, I can be used as a bad example xD
Oh, but he's right. Who would ever want to end up like me? I'm not into drugs, I don't drink often, I party even less, clean criminal record(hard to believe, I know), I have a mostly stable relationship with a man who gives me everything, when I allow it. I'm a kind, compassionate, patient, strong, confident, beautiful inside, and out woman who takes care of those I love, speaks my mind, and doesn't take shit from anyone. I live a bold lifestyle. I don't ever hide who I am. I am not ashamed of myself.
But no, don't end up like me, what a tragedy I have become.
Fucking tool♥

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05:05 Jul 18 2020
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It's always funny watching fake people cry, "You're just jealous!" Especially when they pretend to be everything that other people are. Now, you may have one or two bored, desperate, wannabe housewives itching for whatever fantasy you're trying to sell, but actual, legitimate people who live that fantasy outside of a website? Nah. No one real cares about or wants what you got. It's not impressive.
In reality, you have no power, and anyone who fears you is obviously intellectually challenged. Like literally. But thinking anyone with a brain, and an ounce of self worth is jealous of you? No, no, no, darling, you are wrapped in delusion. Wielding imaginary control over the weak, and stupid is the lowest form of power, you know, it takes no skill to rule over the mundane. You really have your head way up your own ass, dontcha? Must be awfully dark in there...

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21:02 Jul 17 2020
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This is the mini KVD Saint + Sinner perfume set.
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Ain't it adorable :3 So tiny. It also came with one of her mini eyeliner pens which I've been meaning to try, I desperately need to find a new decent eyeliner. Actually, their site is currently having a 30% off on bundles sale so I may take $100 or so, and refresh a few pieces of my makeup.
I like the Sinner perfume, it certainly suits me better than the Saint. It's giving me faint Thierry Mugler Angel vibes which is what I wore as a teenager. Not sure if I love it, it's a bit floral for me. I like rose floral, but anything else is just... Not me. I need to wear it a week or so to really decide.
The funny thing, I really don't know anything about KVD other than the tattoo thing. Never watched her show or anything. But I absolutely adore the Fetish palette I bought from her brand a couple years ago so I do somewhat trust the quality, and her packaging is pretty cute too.
I'm extremely picky about my perfume. And I hate going to the mall, and having all those smells shoved at me to the point where I don't know what's what. A lot of the more expensive perfumes just smell... Old to me xD I don't know how else to describe it, they smell like my grandmothers house. I'm not paying over $100 to smell like that, fuck you, Chanel xD

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05:11 Jul 17 2020
Times Read: 727


So this is what I've heard about the woman stealing my pictures, and scamming people out of their money.
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If that's all true, it sucks, it really does. But stealing from people sucks too. Some people work hard for their money, and most people have problems like everyone else, and maybe buying a cute purse or skirt gets them through the day, and you're not only stealing their money, but that joy too.
And real talk, scamming people for $15 is seriously pathetic xD That's just insulting. But buyers really need to check stuff out. It's like when they find a brand new, sold out, rare LV purse selling for $100. You're not that lucky, people know the value of their items most of the time, and if you walk into that scam without doing your research... I'm not gonna say you deserve it, but there's a serious lack of intelligence going on, and you probably shouldn't be shopping online.

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05:10 Jul 17 2020
Times Read: 728


People are so easily offended by things not directed at them... Pretty sure I was talking about VR, not you. That's reading comprehension of a 5 year old on display. Now THAT'S an insult about you since apparently I need to be more clear about that for you. Please try to keep up, dear. I know I'm terribly clever, but it's not that hard to follow.
I mean, if you're gonna call me out, actually call me the fuck out or sit your ass down because it is so boring.
As much fun as it is to cyber argue, tear apart, and humiliate someone who thought they could condescend to me with their age, all of their time spent, many years here, and precious little titles. Yep. That means exactly fuck all to me. I mean, I thought we were playing who's the bigger bitch? That's what you threatened me with, right? Such a tired phrase, by the way, I can't tell you how many people actually think that will scare me or anyone. Now I'm not gonna be one of those screenshotting little bitches, but you, and I both know your weak little threat :3 Your words, honeybunch, I'm just better at this game than you, and I'm not even trying.
You'd think someone who likes to shove their age, and all their experience down younger girls throats like it means anything would be better at this... So disappointing.

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02:51 Jul 16 2020
Times Read: 768


This dress has it's own custom crown and scepter♥
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I think the choice is rather obvious.

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03:33 Jul 15 2020
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So apparently someone is using my pictures on Instagram. Not pictures of me, but of my clothes...
It's not that it would bother me if people are actually trying to sell these things, and wanna use my pictures to help. Asking would be nice, but it's the Internet, people grab images all the time.
The thing that bothers me is that the person doing this is attempting to scam people. On Posh, Merc, Ebay, really anywhere you pay through Paypal, you have buyer protection. Which means that I have to ship, and provide proof of delivery via tracking, or the buyer gets their money back. But a lot of people will slap pictures up on Insta of items they don't actually have, have people pay them through an app with no buyer protection, and keep the money without ever shipping anything because they never had it to begin with. It's a scam, it's scummy, it fuckin' sucks. Most of my pictures that I take of my clothing are on top of that pink blanket to show that everything in my closet comes from the same place, one person. A scam seller is pretty easy to identify because they'll usually have items with many different inconsistent backgrounds for every item.
I have an Instagram that I have used once to post pictures up to get reward points on my Killstar account. I haven't touched it since. I'm not big on social media, I just don't really care about it. I guess I'm going to have to start putting my name or some kind of watermark in my pictures from now on, something that's hard to edit out. The woman who alerted me to all this said that this fucking whore has already scammed a couple people. I'm not sure I can do anything about it though because she's not pretending to be me, she's just using pictures of my clothes. And my cat! Which is an invasion of his privacy too. I can report her, but she's not pretending to be me. So it just sucks. People need to smarten up a bit, and stop buying things through apps with no buyer protection.

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SuicideDoll
SuicideDoll
12:57 Jul 15 2020

I happened to see this while browsing the journals. This is a real problem nowadays and a violation of sorts. I hope you find a way around it.





 

01:43 Jul 14 2020
Times Read: 869


Omg, I need it, I need it, I need it xD
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Yeah, pretty sure they made this just for me :3
Wolfie is always telling me, "Bunny... don't be scary."
And it would look so cute with this bat wing harness.
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Yeah, those are both gonna be miiiiineeee, I already ordered them plus a couple other things.

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SedeDeSangue
SedeDeSangue
02:33 Jul 14 2020

I want bat wings for my black boots. I saw someone on Etsy was making them.





 

00:10 Jul 14 2020
Times Read: 900


So I got three packages in today. Killstar, Sourpuss and my last dress from Attitudeholland finally showed up.

This is one of my favorite new things. The Eleanor Hooded Dress.
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It is so comfy. It reminds me more of a big hoodie than a dress. That might just be because they only had it left in XL or 2XL so I went with the XL, and is a bit big, but not too big, it's definitely still wearable. I wish it had pockets on the front like hoodies do, but otherwise I completely love it. There's just something about gigantic hoods that I love.

Speaking of hoods, I got another hooded dress.
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the Agape Bodycon Dress. It looks really weird when it's not on. It's got cold shoulders, lace up sleeves, full zipper, gigantic hood, and a cute lil pentagram. I'm trying to be more comfortable in tight dresses. I always feel like my ass is too big in them xD

Finally got the top that goes with this skirt.
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the Duchess Bardot Top. I know I've said it before, but this is possibly my absolute favorite design that Killstar has done. The moons, the hexagrams, it's just gorgeous. There is also a purse in this design, but I probably won't get it, I just don't like the actual shape of it.

Two new rings.
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Eris on the left, Titania in the middle. The one on the right is Isma, and I got it in my last package. I love their rings, obviously I'm moon obsessed. They're all stainless steel, they're super light, and really cheap plus just plain gorgeous, and they look really beautiful with my R+W rings I got recently.

And my last Killstar item in this package is a new cushion.
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The Book of Spells velvet cushion. I love their housewares, especially their little pillows. They actually are constantly sold out, but this one had just come back in stock. Just another for my little collection.

I do have another KS package coming in by Friday from their US warehouse. It's got a couple skirts, a dress, some lingerie. I'm not super crazy about their lingerie. It's gorgeous, but the sizing on the bras is soooooo tiny. But we'll see.

This was my last dress I was waiting for to come in from the Netherlands.
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Moonlight Silence by Banned Apparel. Kitties, and ouija, and moons, and all those cute lil details.

And I got two dresses from Sourpuss.

This adorable dress covered in lil ghosties.
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I'm not sure why I got it in a L because it's pretty big. I'll probably end up selling it, and getting a S. But I do love the ghosts, they're so cute :3

And finally we have this dress from Smak Parlour.
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Gorgeous design, this dress was super popular last Fall when it came out. I had it a few months ago in a size L, sold it because it was too big, and found this, the last one, in a S. Fits perfectly. It's definitely a cool weather dress though, the material is pretty thick. But it'll be perfect for upcoming Halloween season ^^ So glad I actually found it, it's been sold out everywhere. Sourpuss has actually been closed a few months so I was watching, and waiting for them to reopen so I could pounce on this.

I'm really searching for a new perfume since my favorite one, Night by VS, has been discontinued. Which is such a shame because I constantly get complimented on how amazing I smell. I do have a nearly full bottle of Gucci Guilty. I do like the smell of it, but it's so fucking strong that I barely need to wear any so I haven't used much of it. That's definitely not a daily perfume, I need a nice every day smell. I do remember smelling Sinner by KVD a couple years ago, and liking it so I bought a little bottle of it, and Saint to see if either stick. Scent is very important. I love to smell seductive, not that fake cotton candy bullshit. I told Wolfie to find a perfume he'd like on me while he's in Paris, something I can wear just for him, and he has good taste so I trust him. He said there was one he really liked called "Orgasm." Yeah. Why am I not surprised xD

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20:47 Jul 11 2020
Times Read: 929


So now that I've found Transylvania Moonlight by Krad Lanrete, and Hospital Bunny by Diamond Honey, I have my sights set on this.
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Horror Candy Shop by Angelic Pretty.
This is going to take some doing. It would be a fucking conquest. It's at least a $500-$600 dress if I can even find it. I've seen a couple pop up for around $300-$400 in the grey colorway, but I reallllllly want the pink. If I'm going to pay that much, it's pink or nothing.
I am finding a few Holy Lantern OPS.
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And I love that design, but I don't love it enough for that xD

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19:00 Jul 11 2020
Times Read: 966


It's hilarious when people threaten to, "Be the bigger bitch."
I mean, I'm quite petite, so you're probably not wrong there.
But I'm usually the furthest thing from me being bitchy. I'm just playing. Like a kitten with it's dainty paw holding a mouse by the tail. I'm not trying to hurt you. I'm just having fun.
I wanna know though exactly how someone's gonna rain bitchfest down upon me. Rate me a 1, and dishonor me? That's about all the power they have. I'm supposed to react to that, right? Uhhh... oh, ok. Ouch! Omg, noooo, not my numbers! My entire self worth is directly tied to my ratings on here! Whhhhhy?! It buuuurnssss!
Satisfied?
I am a damn fine actress :3
Seriously, it's so played.
Aw, you gonna call me names? I'm a slut? I'm a dirty attention whore?
Gasp!
I'm a fucking masochist xD That's practically praise, babe♥
More, baby, light my fire...
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21:53 Jul 10 2020
Times Read: 1,011


Omg, bunnies ^^
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Two of my nieces got bunnies like a month ago. Their names are Smokey, and Popcorn Cupcake. I'm regularly over at my oldest sister's house, and I just love watching them hopping around, and nibbling on things. So innocent :3
I'm not sure Wolfie named me appropriately xD

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20:10 Jul 10 2020
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I tend to say the things outloud that everyone else is saying behind people's backs. I'm a blunt person. A lot of the time, I just don't have the patience to politely look away, and keep my mouth shut when people are being, in my opinion, righteous idiots. I'm direct. I'm gonna say what I have to say. Apparently that offends people.
Just because you've been a sub since the stone age, and are Mistress whofuckincares doesn't mean you have any authority. Being old as shit doesn't give anyone the right to condescend to me. Age doesn't always equal wisdom. And you can be a part of a lifestyle for ages, and really just not get it. Someone supposedly in a particular lifestyle should have more tolerance.
You wanna know the funny part? I didn't even see the hugely offensive thing whoever it was that had posted. I'm not even defending them specifically. I think it was the whole, "Keep VR clean," bullshit that set me off, it's not the first time I've seen it. But yes, let's keep a VAMPIRE site, you know those dark, erotic, lusty creatures of the night, clean xD
VR has always been a filthy, dank, dirty place. She's a used up old whore that still attracts the freaks, fetishists, some of the worst of humanity. You can put her in her Sunday best, and take her to church, but you can't make her pray. And maybe you oughtta just leave her be, and let those above sort her out.
That's not to say there aren't outstanding good people here because I've also met some of the best, I've had friends here for 12 years. Obviously, all of them downright scoundrels in their own right, but still, pretty bitchin' :3
Keep VR clean xD Unfuckingreal.

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07:47 Jul 10 2020
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Yussss♥
I'm glad I hadn't ordered yet because this is absolutely going in my cart.
Mine♥

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06:01 Jul 10 2020
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See that? I used my block button on you. Omg, it works! Because I don't care enough to cyber argue with anyone or propagate drama. I said my piece. And it's done.
This is the point where Wolfie would say, "Bunny, be nice... There's no need to be so feisty with people."
I am only accountable to my Master. Whether you like what I have to say or not has zero effect on me. If you think I'm targeting you alone, you're wrong. Lotta intolerant, ignorant, judgmental people around.
I mean, I get it. Predators, and pedophiles definitely shouldn't be allowed to roam free. I had a guy straight up threatening my life in my honor a couple years ago before they implemented blocked comments from blocked users. And nothing was done about him, he's still here. So believe me, I get it. But ya know. Crying every time you get harassed sexually by someone on a VAMPIRE website? I'm not saying it's right, but you gotta kinda expect it from a place like this. It's a social place. It's going to happen. It's up to you whether you react like an adult or make an outrageous ass outta yourself.
Ah, this must be why Master is always threatening to muzzle me xD
Just wait til he hears I was mouthing off, and disrespecting an elder.
Oh, don't you worry, I'm going to get exactly what I deserve :3

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22:50 Jul 09 2020
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Of course, vampires are known for their celibacy, and upstanding morals.
This is a vampire website.
If sexuality bothers you then you should find somewhere else to "clean up."
Look, the world is full of desperate people. Looking for love, looking for attention, looking to get their fuck on. I don't understand why people allow this to bother them.
It really tickles me when people say stuff like, "Trashy people ruin this site. Half naked sluts are the reason my old ass constantly gets hit on!"
Nah...
Desperate people will hit on ANYTHING. They don't need your permission, they don't need half naked women around to feel comfortable about it, and they're not gonna read your long ass, boring profile to see whether you're available. It doesn't matter if you're unavailable. They don't care. They're gonna do what they're gonna do regardless. There are people who will hit on a profile with nothing, but pictures of kittens. They. Are. Desperate.
Familiarize yourself with your block button. Act like an adult. Don't say you're "just trying to be nice, and not block people." If you refuse to take the actions within your control then you can only blame yourself. If it sincerely bothers you, blocky block, end of story.
Now there are of course legit threats that should be dealt with.
But the run of the mill creep? Get over it.
It's like when people try to say about me, "You huge slut, you have a boyfriend, but you post your ass all over VR, ew."
First of all, I'm not a slut, I'm Master's Slut, get it right :3
Ya know. Wolfie occasionally gets on here, and looks over my stuff. He was on here a few months ago, he actually had to ask what my new name was because he hadn't been on in so long. But when he saw my pictures that I have posted on here, he simply said, "You naughty little minx, you like when guys stare at you."
Wolfie likes when other guys admire what's his, knowing they can't have me because I belong to him. Doesn't bother him one bit. He doesn't want me to hide who I am, who we are. And me having my ass on VR doesn't provoke anyone to creep on anyone else. They would do it whether every woman on here is fully clothed or not. That's not something you can clean.
So maybe you should take a good long look at who actually belongs here before you start attempting to cast others out. Perhaps form your own website free of vampires, freaks, and fetishists. Squeaky fucking clean.
It's just boring, ya know? Watching old prudes cry out in shock every time they see something "offensive" on a fucking VAMPIRE website.
Vampires.
You know what they are, right?
You know what they do?
Might wanna familiarize with that too.
My Gods, my eyes, I've never seen something so offensive as a nipple! Glory be!

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CrystallizedEmbrace
CrystallizedEmbrace
23:40 Jul 09 2020

Fuck yeah!!!
That's exactly what needs to be said as well!!





LORDMOGY
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06:51 Jul 09 2020
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I love talking to him about this stuff. I love the way he teaches me. Every relationship is different, and in BDSM it's ok to make your own rules, to do things how you want. I feel like if I had landed with a super hardass Dom it wouldn't have worked, and I don't think I could ever be in a Dom/Sub relationship where there weren't feelings. Wolfie always tells me I'm the only Sub he's ever really loved. That he treated his subs before me like animals, which they mutually, consensually agreed on. But that everything with me has been different, and has taught him how a proper loving Sub should be treated. Some people meet up just to whip/get whipped, then part ways. He says it's like there are different kind of Subs. The ones you own with no attachments, no strings, essentially just a toy. Then there's the sub you actually romantically commit yourself to, and want to spend your life with. Apparently, that one is hard to find. He says the difference between a play sub, and a devoted sub is like the difference between a girlfriend and a wife. Wolfie has had several play subs, but only one he's collared with devotion. I asked him why he had never loved a Sub before me.

"We weren’t affectionate or open or anything. We kept out of each other’s minds and lives. I collared them, used them and then we would have a glass of wine and they would go home. No cuddling or cooking or hugs, just sex and pain and booze.We’d talk about politics, art, music, movies, whatever, but never ourselves."

Hmm... That just sounds sad to me. To be involved with no intimacy. No closeness. No vulnerability. It's so cold. But Wolfie fell in love with me before he made me his sub, and maybe that made the difference. He's always so cute when he says, "We can just cuddle if you'd like," or, "I can be more gentle with Bunny." Which I usually respond to with, "You wouldn't dare be gentle!" xD
We were talking about how no man had ever been able to satisfy me before him. Not once, not one single time. Just a lot of screaming, and faking. Maybe women have a natural affinity for faking it, but lying about it doesn't solve the problem, and only makes things hard for the next poor woman that guy ends up with. Wolfie's theory is that clearly I like to be handled roughly, and most men don't have the endurance for that. It takes time, and care to tie someone up properly, to tease them, to make them beg, and every other man I've been with just wanted to get it over with. Such a waste. But I didn't know this was what I liked before him either so it's not entirely my exes fault, they were simply painfully boring in bed, and I'm sure they've found equally suitable partners by now. None of them were lovers, they didn't treat me like their lover, not like how Wolfie does. I'm lucky to have found someone who opened my eyes on so many levels. Who has taught me more about myself than anyone else, and has tried his best to help guide me into being the person I want to be. Not just sexually, but all around. And make me realize the only person in this world I owe forgiveness to is myself. But hey, I got us this far, and I think we're finally doing alright ♥

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00:25 Jul 09 2020
Times Read: 1,287


Anyone who says you can't be gothic, and wear color is a raging moron :3
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Omg, yes, yes, yes, all of it♥
the Universe spoke, and it said, "These are for Bunny."

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SedeDeSangue
SedeDeSangue
00:26 Jul 09 2020

Just the right shade of pink. 💕





 

22:59 Jul 08 2020
Times Read: 1,323


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It's always a glorious time of year when the Halloween designs start rolling out early ♥
Usually around July/August you start to see the skeletons, and pumpkins, and spookiness. Knowing the best time of the year is approaching is the only thing that gets me through the worst time of year, fuck Summer, it's awful.
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But, I've got some gorgeous Killstar stuff on the way. That entire lingerie set just went on sale yesterday, and I've had my eye on it, I'm a sucker for garter belts. I wish KS made more lingerie in red. Black is classic, and obviously gothic, but I look so good drenched in red ♥
Wolfie is bringing me some Agent Provocateur from Paris. It's incredibly expensive lingerie. Normally I think it's kinda silly to spend so much on lingerie, especially just to rip it off, but it's a good investment given our lifestyle. He actually has a friend within the company, and asked if I'd be ok with him showing some of my lingerie pictures to possibly start a modeling career. I don't really know how I feel about that. I'm too old to model, but I don't look old so maybe that's what matters. He really wants me to have things for my own, to feel fulfilled in life outside of our relationship. To go to school, get a degree, do something I enjoy doing. He doesn't want me to sit at home being a bored little pet just waiting on him constantly. I've never been interested in modeling though. But maybe if they let me keep the clothes... Not that I have space to put them. I told him we'll just keep his clothes in the garage, and I'll take all the closets xD

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20:03 Jul 08 2020
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06:40 Jul 08 2020
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Another gorgeous etsy dress I have my heart set on.
I'm definitely craving some new schoolgirlish outfits.
Yeah, I don't crave food, I crave clothes.
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20:40 Jul 07 2020
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Truth.
I've only ever known one person that I've completely given up on. Because they lack any sort of empathy. They lie, they cheat, they use people up for whatever they can get out of them. Fully aware of how much they're hurting people, that's absolutely no concern to them as long as they're getting from them what they want.
And it's funny because this isn't a dark person. Not twisted or tragic or trauma filled. Just a painfully normal, below ordinary person. Darkness doesn't make a person evil. Darkness is essential for balance. Struggle, and trauma, and scars create personality.
This person that I gave up on isn't dark, or evil. He's not a villain. He just has zero empathy. And it took me a long time to realize that. A lot of defending him, and standing by his side all the while he's destroying people around him, including me, and having no remorse while he does it. And then further insulted my intelligence after I was completely done with him by continuing to ask, "What can I do to earn your forgiveness"? Like I'm an idiot who would actually believe for one second he cared about being forgiven. The only thing he misses is having someone around to fuck with emotionally. The only thing he's ever cared about is himself. And it was never that he hurt me that bothered me, but the fact that he used me to hurt other people is unforgivable.
There is no good in this person, a lesson I learned the very hard way. The only person I've met that I can say that about. It's hard to say it because I see the good, and I like to think I bring out the good in most people. And it's so easy to look back on everything, even years later, and see everything I refused to see at that time. It's so easy now to be like, "Wow, fuck that cowardly, lying little traitor bitch." But when you're in it, it's hard. I don't think that's a bad thing though. To believe in the good in people even if it hurts you. All you can do is try. You can't save everyone.

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17:32 Jul 07 2020
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Actually, it's called good business, bitch. I have a thing that no one else is selling, that's completely sold out. That raises the value of said thing. That means that I can charge whatever I want for it, and if someone wants it badly enough then they'll pay. Pretty sure you learn all this in grade school, and people are still dumb enough to try, and give me shit about it. Waste. Of. Time. On top of which, it's my dress, my possession, I paid for it, I can resell it for however much I want. I'm not actually trying to sell this dress, I love it, but I will totally sell it for 3x the price, that's fucking business. Pretty sure my 5 year old nephew could explain that to her, maybe he should be my secretary. I sincerely don't understand why people message me like this, what is their goal exactly? Trying to shame me? Yeah, that doesn't work. It's not like I'm lying or being deceitful, the information is all right there, and absolutely no one is forced to buy from me, but they do. I'm not asking for people's souls here, but hey, that perfect dress just might be worth it...
Fyi, my train is full of sprinkles, fuck gravy.

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23:13 Jul 06 2020
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My 9 year old nephew is the sweetest, he went on vacation, and brought me back a lil wolfie plushie :3
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Aw, it's just perfect. I really love these kids. They may not have came outta me, but they are mine, my little minions. My sister told me he wasn't worried about getting anyone else anything, even himself, he just wanted to find the perfect thing for best Auntie.

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CrystallizedEmbrace
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23:18 Jul 06 2020

Awww!!!
That's so sweet!!!!





 

21:55 Jul 06 2020
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I haven't bought anything from Happy Monday in a long time. Such a shame.
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Gross, I need it xD

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02:38 Jul 05 2020
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I finally found her, and I paid $225 for her, and she will be miiiiine.
My Transylvania Moonlight...
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And in PINK no less.
Here's how I know it's fate that I have this dress. It comes in a variety of colors, pink, black, red, and blue. I don't wear blue, I have zero blue in my closet, I don't like blue, it's not an option. However, I was having an extremely difficult time deciding between pink, red, and black because each version is gorgeous, and each color represents a different side of me. Having those sides all come together on a final decision is nearly impossible. Turns out, red and black are both sold out, and I can only find the pink and blue versions for sale. That's the Universe making my decision for me, and telling me in a great, booming voice, "I command you to buy this dress, you will look stunning, babe."
It definitely said something like that... And it's not wrong.
I even paid full price for shipping, they did have a cheaper shipping option, but my gut was telling me, this is too important for cheap shipping, you don't spend $200 on a dress then have it shipped in a shoe box. So I will be completely heartbroken if it doesn't make it here.
The only thing I'm worried about is that it's a free sized dress so it could possibly not fit, but according to the measurements the waist goes up to 34 inches which is more than I need so it really shouldn't be a problem, and if it doesn't fit then so help me I will shrink down until it does. I'm already pretty tiny, and Wolfie doesn't want me to lose my curves, but this dress is important. Aside from the Hospital Bunny JSK by Diamond Honey(which I also purchased not long ago) this is my dream dress.
And it's in PINK ^^
This will be the most I've ever spent on a single dress. I was going to have Wolfie buy it for me a couple years ago, but I decided I needed to buy it for myself. There's just something immensely satisfying about buying something beautiful for yourself. Wolfie can buy me a house, a car, a yacht, a closet full of $10,000 designer dresses, but they can't compare to this dress.
Unless it's like a pink Batmobile. That would be pretty bitchin'.

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CrystallizedEmbrace
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02:43 Jul 05 2020

That dress
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BEAUTIFUL
And I am sure, it will look STUNNING on you, Usa-chan!!





 

22:16 Jul 03 2020
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My Rogue + Wolf rings finally showed up.
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It took 4 weeks for them to get here. To be fair, they were delayed at first due to an inventory issue on their part which they notified me about, and fixed. I also chose the cheapest shipping option they had. They can probably get you your stuff faster, but I wasn't in any hurry, and £4 for shipping is pretty reasonable, but it did not come with tracking, and took 4 weeks.
Anyway. I'm really happy with both rings, they're beautiful.
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They feel a bit fragile, but they're 3D printed out of a plastic material, and they claim they're bendable, not breakable. I'm not going to test it, but they are super lightweight which is nice. I think total I spent $30 on the two, and now I may get a couple more though I've actually got my eye on a couple Killstar rings.
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And a few other things... I don't want to blow $1000 on Killstar stuff, just a couple hundred, and then maybe buy some stuff on etsy.

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22:50 Jul 02 2020
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Had to run to the mall today to pick some stuff up, and found a couple more cute things...

These Beetlejuice shortalls and shirt.
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They are both a bit big so I will probably end up selling them, and getting smaller sizes. I do love this whole outfit though.

I also got some cute patches to sew onto the shortalls, and a little pin because it reminds me of me xD And I needed to get to $60 to get $30 off so I grabbed something small. That knife ghost though :3
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This skirt is also new.
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A goth girl can never have too many black skirts. I really love this one, and that's one of my favorite crop tops.

And this ouija planchette dress.
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They only had S, and XS left. I went with small,  but I definitely think I could've squeezed into the XS. Just a simple lil dress.

Last is this green skirt.
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No idea how I'm going to style this, I have absolutely no other green in my closet, but it was only $20 so I grabbed it. Another thing that will probably end up in the sale pile. Plus the fact that when I took it up to the counter the cashier asked if I was part of the Slytherin House... I don't do Harry Potter. No. I don't like the big villain in Harry Potter, he kinda seems like a bitch, and if you don't have a good villain then you're a waste of my time.

Now to hit up all the big Summer sales. I'm not really sure what I'm on the mood for. Velvet, chiffon, lace, leather, latex...❤

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20:11 Jul 01 2020
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Wellll, it's a little big, but it'll do :3

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