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I wonder constantly, what is the point of living when you feel the way I do 24/7...?

Things rush through my mind constantly, mostly how horrible the future will be. Almost every second of the day, I think about commiting suicide. To leave all the pains and heartaches, life has to offer so much...Just to leave it all behind, and let go. But, the people I love, and the ones who love me are the only reasons I haven't died yet. I'm holding on by a thread, only because I can't stand the thought of hurting everyone I love and care about like that.

I find that it gets harder to eat, I find no satisfaction in eating anymore, and i'm rapidly losing weight. I eat to stay alive, and to stop my hunger pains, and prevent exhaustion and light-headedness. My pants that once fit me snuggly, are now drifting down. Even with my belt, which is becoming smaller day by day...

I feel sick all the time, I've been experiencing chronic back, and headaches... Along with insomnia. My mind won't let me sleep until utter exhaustion takes over.

I can't take my home life anymore. I hate it with a murderous passion, and it makes me want to dissapear from exsistence even more. I just can't take stress anymore. CAN'T!