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i have this overwellming fear that one day i am going to spill my guts utterly and completly only to find that all of the people i have been hding things from to read them. though i as far as i know have never spent any time in person with anyone who hase an account on this sitefear is a funny thing.



i spend my days looking for understanding only to come up empty. useuly right after i think i'm on to something. i know that no one answer is going to cover everything. i have been told that i just don't have enouth faith. that everything would make sence if i just beleived. i have faith in the gods. i just beleive that this falt lies within me not anything they have done. good or ill

i find the people in my life that i love the most i also hate the most.... funny how that works. no other people on the planet have the ability to hurt you mort than the people you love and care for. i am a selfish kind of person i do not trust anyone with that kind of power. so i find that i slowly begin to hate the my love ones when i start to realize that i love them.



as you can see i have control issues