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No matter what comes to me in life this certain darkness of anger.. Sadness.. Indecision.. Horrible brain flooded thoughts comes back to capture me once again.. I thought the rules for the life handbook was that if you work your butt to the bone and go for the dreams you have set for your path.. Do your best to be a decent person.. You can surpass all the bullshit in this world that cause people to be the appitomy of evil.. And at least get by unscathed from the so many pressures that make life seem a living hell at times.. I'm usually so good with my words and temper.. But I feel so volatile.. Like I would love nothing more to explode on an unsuspecting victim.. Not right correct?? I know.. I just want this cloud to leave me alone once and for all.. And to finally be in the place in life I feel I should be.. If I can't shake this.. I feel I will lose on of the biggest gifts I feel the lord has blessed me with..