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Been spending all these years just trying to erase the pain

Yet it all just stays the same

So many nights spent

Wondering where you went

Are you flying?

Are you burning?

Hopeing that you were given wings

A harp and some angelhic things

Wishing for the chance to say one final phrase or just a word

" I love you Daddy"

And though all these nights I know that my prayers you have heard

The loss of your life

Has filled mine with endless strife

And yet as I sit here tonight

I feel you here with me now

Telling me that it will be alright

In that alone I find the Strength to carry on

And as I realize that I am never on my own

I begin to feel inside more at home.

As I look around

Seeing all the shit that's going down

I can't help but frown

I know there is nothing left for me in this town

Gotta find a way out

Of that I have no doubt

Gonna leave this place behind

Never to rewind

I'll not look back

Life has just changed the track

Torn between

These feelings

Stuck between

Four walls and a ceiling

Locked inside

Theres nowhere to hide

Trying get well

All this while burning in hell

So many things needed done

All of them by one

Never knowing what path

Making it up along the way

Always wishing for a better day

Living for another

Never for ones self

Always seeking help

Never trusting in what you get

Searching for the perfect fit

Life without a cause

is a life without flaws

Flaws are who you are

Not what you are.

My friends and my family were blessed with a better life

while mine was ruled by strife

Don't get it twisted

this life I've resisted

yet still existed

So many have come before me

Looking for a story

but its all still just a mystery

why we choose to live in misery

and ignore our fate

instead we give in to our hate

allow it control

over our heart and soul

to give in to the wicked

is to become inflicted

a never ending pain

it comes and comes again

never will it go

never with nothing to show

standing before them

an entire sin

guilty and filthy

rotting from within

always burdened by the past

gotta make a change fast

come back from the darkness

stop being heartless

regain humanity

it has to be

now or never

death is forever

live in the light

make things right

or continue down your path

you do the math.

Beat up

Broken

Bruised

A life of being used

The kindness I show is always abused

Always getting accused

Has caused my brain to be infused

Filled with anger

Filled with hatered

Filled full of murderous thoughts!

Destiny is only in the mind

Fate is yours to find

Life is what you make

Not always is it great

You can't give in

Theres always a chance for you to win

Until departure this withered soul

Shall be left rotting away

Awaiting the day

To pass over to the other side

To recieve the verdict of life

The path is unknown

Shall it endure more strife

Or embrace peace at long last

Will it's suffering pass

Only then will it know

Never a clear path doth show

Some rise

Some fall

Not for trying

Those that do nothing at all

BURN

As the page is turned

What will it be

The light

Or all consuming night

Good or Evil

Who will win that final fight?

As i wonder in my minds eye

I cant help but wonder why

When will this all end

When will death begin

as i continue to live

wanting to give

yet theres none willing

to become the filling

and I wander all alone

when will i go home

to place i belong

as i sit here waiting

and contemplating

I welcome death

with my every breath

If im destined to live alone

I would rather die than be on my own

Born into a twisted existance

A life of constant resistance

Always feeling the hate

Never accepting the fate

But wait

Stars can change

Planets do rearrange

So embrace the destiny

To acheive your serenity

The weight on your shoulders

Is like bolders

Hope is near

Let go of fear

There is no room for regret

Dive in and get your hands wet

No disgrace

Even with the dirt on your face

Get on with your life

Deal with the strife

Never back down

Don't be found

Broken on the ground

Stepped outside

Trying to clear my mind

Only to find

New complications

As it all sinks in

These thoughts begin

Now I'm angry again

Asking myself

How did life get so jaded

Why am I so hated

My thoughts begin to wander more

Here I am back again

Where I started before

Homeless

Broke

All alone

More or less I have a home

Yet still always on my own.

Frustration only brings irritation

Aggrevation is angers inflation

Can you see the relation

It pays to stay calm

Turn the other cheek

Release your palm

Do not freak

Life is unfair

Don't retreat

Never accept defeat

Release the failure of lost endeavours

Or your soul it devours

So stay cool

Never become a fool

Always think before you act

And Calm yourself.

Sew me up

Let me bleed

Save me

From my evil deed

Save me

From Myself

Please someone

Won't you help

Take this pain away

Allow me yet another day

Give me peace

Let this hurt cease