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MY HEART

Almost drained, barely beating

Lifeless body, barely breathing

No more blood, barely leaving

My heart is barely there

It has realized that life is not fair

MY SKIN

Cold as ice, barely heating

Cut it thrice, now im bleeding

Cold and clammy grip, barely holding on

My skin is completely bare

I am wondering if i care

MY MIND

Blinding light, barely seeing

Empty thoughts, barely thinking

Hot as hell, barely living

My mind is completely shot

It has realized that i have a black heart

Bleeding inside, Tears from the eyes

Over and over cries, He just wants to die

No one is there, His heart stripped bare

He pulls out his hair, No one cares

His soul has left, To the heavens it crept

Her heart he has kept, Ever since she left

His heart cries out, As he screams and shouts

The scars he cannot count, But he remembers what they were about

His life is as good as over, As his mentality reaches lower than lower

His love, he still wants to show her, His life, he took it for her

His pain has ceased, From his life, which he has fleed

No longer will he bleed, Everything, behind, he leaves

As we lie down in the field of Black Bleeding Orchids

My hands meet your hair with writhing gesture

Capturing every silky strand in my fingers

As we breath in unison in the field of Black Bleeding Orchids

I feel the warmth of one thousand burning suns

At the same time, i feel the coldness of one thousand blistering winters

As we lay upon eachother in the field of Black Bleeding Orchids

Our two bodies become one, everything is shared

I feel a fullness that i have never had before

As we love in the field of Black Bleeding Orchids

The skies light up whilst the winds run amok

The world seems to illuminate with every shining light

As you die in the field of Black Bleeding Orchids

The sky turns dark and the winds are shot

The world seems to be captured by a shadowy night

As i suffer in the field of Black Bleeding Orchids

My blood feeds the flowers, My tears seep into the ground

One shot to the head and I am gone without a sound

A razor runs across my skin

Ripping apart everything in it's path

I can feel so much when the razor and my skin become one

I can feel coldness released from my heart and mind

I can feel the warmth of my blood running down my arm

I can feel my skin tearing apart, cracking from the Running Razor

My skin sounds like a forest of twigs breaking

As millions of shocks escape out of the slash

My breathing deepens, the air gets cold

My body is warm, covered with Sin

I fall to my knees, my blood stains me

I see my reflection, So pathetic and weak

I start to cry whilst the blood continues to leak

Each tear that drops, ten drops of blood

Both hold memories of you

Deeper and deeper the razor runs

Im just trying to get you completely out

As the razor continues to crawl, it finally hits a wall

I've reached the bone and the razor leaves me alone

Oceans spray from my severed vein

I fall to the ground and i know im not going to get up

I finally turn cold, the blood stops its flow

This feeling settles in my stomach

Makes me want to die

Until that happens, it makes me cry

This feeling eats me alive

And leaves me dry

I want it out

But i cant find a way

To get it out

It makes me shout

"Let it out"

I'll do anything

Just to release it

I'll cut it out

Bleed until im gone

I dont care

As long as the feeling is gone

Nail me to the cross

Watch the nails puncture my skin

My blood creates an ocean of sorrow

That taints the ground with Sin

Splinters through my body

Severs each and every vein

The blood keeps pouring out

This crucification is in vain

Strung up high towards the sky

Like a man on his noose

No one is there to bare it

Am i going to die?

The nails through my bones

The thorns in my head

The Sin is streaming out

From the holes in my head

Millions of dirty little Sins

Are being washed away

From my sacred crucification

That was planned for today

Your a fucking bastard

Why do you do what you do?

What reasons could you possibly possess

To cause so much pain to us

Your screams and yells feed into me

Push me closer and closer to the breaking point

Your malice words break us

Makes us cry and look for comfort

In eachothers pain and hurt

Your fist comes down with ungodly force

And tries to hit her

I take the hit and try to protect her

Fuck off and go rot in a corner

Nobody likes you

We all fucking hate you

And we pray for your death

Why do I feel this way?

Pain, just another day

When is it going to end?

What do I have to do?

To make everything better

To take all my problems away

To make the happiness stay

What do I have to change?

To turn my life around

And not feel this way

Im tired of being melancholy

Im tired of always being sad

What do I have to do?

What do I have to give up?

To make my life not so fucked up

To actually be happy

I just want what everyone else has

Happiness

As i sit on the chair

In my dark room

Within my dark life

I see it sitting there

So shiny, yet so freezing

Loaded with the light

That will take my darkness away

It is calling my name

Begging me to be friends with it

Telling me "I will fix everything"

I weigh the sides

Contemplate with my conscience

I seek for the chance

To take away the pain

Or live going insane

What do i do?

Your here with me

I can feel the warmth of your touch

on my skin

I can hear you whisper

"I love you"

Softly in my ear

The movement of your fingertips

on my spine

Sends sensual tingles

throughout my body

The taste of your icy kiss

Lingers on my subtle lips

Oh, how i always want just one more

Not wanting you to let me go

Im safe in your arms

Im not afraid of my heart

Turning to stone and breaking

When im with you

My heart beat is as strong as ever

And i hope....

I never hear your die

In the whispering winds

And the dim-lit night

We stood there like stone

Our hearts begin to die

I have lost her

And she has lost me

We both had them in our grasp

But now we give back the keys

The keys to our hearts

They were almost unlocked

I guess I'll have to wait

For yet another waif

She has been gone

For months, now it seems

But she still haunts me

In my heart and in my dreams

Her essence carries pain

Of the memories that have passed

The only way I endure it

Is tell myself "This wont last"

Her haunting stench

Slithers up my nose

Brings back so much

I wish i didn't know

Why does she continue to haunt me

In my dreams and in my heart

Every night she comes to me

And tears my soul apart

Too much is not enough

You continue to fill me up

I love it so much

As little as the softest touch

Sends me to the heavens above

I could never get enough

Im addicted to your love

When you say it

I get all warm and tingly inside

I love you so much baby

You are my addiction

If i didn't have you

I know i would die

Im addicted to everything about you

To the smallest thing

Like saying "hey"

To the biggest thing

like making the most beautiful love

You are my savior angel

Sent from the gods

And i thank grace on them every night

For sending you to me

You tore out my heart

Straight from my chest

It was still beating out life

Let me explain the rest...

Things were going great

Until you disappeared

We didnt talk for days

And then you reappeared

Things were very different

I could tell right from the start

I wasnt ready for it to end

But you said "We've grown apart"

Not my fault that it happened

You were the one that wasn't there

And noe you leave me for good

And pretend that the love was never there

You meant so much to me

I couldnt start to explain

But now your putting me through this

This heartache and pain

I dont understand

Why you did this

We didnt even share

Our very first kiss

Now my dreams of you

Get shaded with black

I dont even want to sleep

I dont want to go back

Its all over now

The pain is here

You have left me for good

The end is near

My heart is sunk

From all the shit, what the fuck

My body is empty

Dont push me, dont tempt me

Because i will do it, i dont care

Nothing matters, only her

Only her, the one of my dreams

Unconditional love it seems to be

Shes the one that keeps me sane

Shes the one that stops me from stripping my veins

The one and only of my heart

I've locked her in, We cant come apart

We must be together

Now and forever

To strike the angels down

And change his smile to a frown

Let down your guard and fly

To the end of the skies

I will be there with you

I will be there until i die

I will be there inside of you

Crying with the pain of time

No more tears, No more pain

Let the razor meet your vein

End this pain of mine

Before i break down and die

Take it all away

And say you'll stay another day

Somber and quiet like a restless beast

This love and joy has deceased

No more crying, please stop dying

I cant take this pain anymore

I am unable, these feelings i cannot abho