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I'm dying...slow and steady.

My heart crumbles , my mind cracks.

My emotions grow too heavy.



Is death all that its made out to be?

I do not fear death...

But I will not let it take me...



Not Yet

Time Moves on...and Im lost in the past.

Present constantly changing

My world moves to fast.



I need to fell again,

to fell a touch...

to hold someone in my arms...



My heart is breaking...

full of emotions

that it cant release...



Thoughts running through my head

I envy those who are dead



They have peace,

fell no pain



Care not of mistakes

or of efforts made in vain



I surrender. Take me prisoner, hold me in your chains

Throw away the key. Keep and destroy me.



-Seth Ludwig

My Itch

Why don't you just kill yourself now?

Ill tell you exactly how.

take some pills until you fall,

take them till you can only crawl.

While your on the floor crawl to the knife.

Now is the time to end your life.



Think of all the times you hurt me and made me cry.

Think of all the times you said your lies.

Think of all the times you held me close,

Think of how your missing me the most.



Think of all the mistakes you made

Think of how soon they will all be paid.

Think of how you'll never find anyone as good as me,

Think of how you were just to stupid to see.



Crawl to the room you want to see last,

place the knife to your wrist and think of your past.

How the world was so wrong

how your love is so long gone.

Slowly pull the blade across your wrist,

then close your eyes and feel the pain as you slowly

hand into a fist.



Watch the blood pour out and feel yourself getting weak,

don't be surprized if you can't even speak.



You won't be able to even crawl so you'll lie there in a stare.

look at my picture and know ill never care.



Death is taking his time

to come and finish this great crime.

So now ill be the one,

To scratch the trigger on this itchy gun.





****if you don't understand the ending, it meant that he took

forever to die, so i shot and killed him myself.(when you

have an itch you want to scratch it right??)



- Unknown

My heart has been aching...

aching for a love that it cannot fulfill or achieve...

hopes and longs for the touch that it will never recieve...

beating faster...

heart pumping...blood running...

i need to feel you...but i cant...

why do i feel like im losing my soul...

always falling down...

never being able to get up...

to crawl on my knees...pleading and begging...

to no avail...im a failure...

ive let you down in so many ways.





- By Seth Ludwig

Wilted Rose

by Seth Ludwig



The last warm touch of Summer Gone,

And the icy embrace of autumn near.



In the dead of night, when Moon is high

And sky is clear,



Watch the Crimson Rose,

as it screams in rage at the hollowed night,



Its pedals dimmed...and dying now,

black Crimson red, no longer bright.



Fragile and weak,

this rose represents,



the heart of a lover,

Into misery sent,



From love into torment,

shedding shallow tears,



Losing my heart,

Is my biggest fear.



So watch the rose dance,

Its final dance,



And sing the song,

Of a wilted romance.

Tortured Soul

by Seth Ludwig



A scream fills the air,

one cold winter night,



A scream filled with anguish,

confusion, and fright.



Love long since killed,

eyes set with pain,



Searching for a reason,

a search made in vain.



The knife is a tempting comfort,

its promise true and cold.



Blood runs from his deepned wounds,

as he remembers things from old.



A shattered heart,

whom he once loved,

Now dead and gone,



Blood hits ground and then you hear,

this empty mournful song.



Tortured Soul

A Nothing

by Seth Ludwig



You left me here,

bleeding and alone.



My heart torn from,

Its cage of bone.



You said that you loved me,

but wonder why,



I bleed and hurt,

bitch shut up and die.



You ran from me,

as you sang this song,



I knew all this time,

that something was wrong.



You must have loved me to death,

when you were kissing on him,



I hate you now,

hated when I saw that grin



How could you be so heartless,

and fuck with my mind?



How could I have loved you,

and been so blind?



When I lay in my bed,

and stare at the ceiling,



I cant help but wonder,

If you have any feelings.



Because if you did,

they sure didnt show,



But I knew all along,

as Ive always known,



I value you now,

as I value my own,



A Nothing.

In the darkness:

by Seth Ludwig



In the darkness,

here I sit.

In this empty,

blackened pit.



Lacerations,

cover my skin,

And in the dark,

I bleed



Betrayed and lost,

I shall remain,

for all eternity.



I feel the blade,

against my throat,

As a tear leaves

my eye.



In the darkness,

here I sit,

and its in the darkness,

I shall die.

Blackened Hearts



Blackened hearts,

shattered loves,

wilted roses,

slaughtered doves.



Bleeding souls,

put out to dry,

scream in pain,

as they die.



Blackened hearts,

bloody knives,

provide hopeless answers,

to hopeless cries.



Brutal reasons,

for painful lies,

violently end,

their pointless lives.



Blackened hearts,

dead with sin,

embrace the darkness,

thats within.



-By Seth Ludwig

I cut to bleed,

and I bleed to see,

to see the things,

that are wrong with me



And I search my veins,

for the simple truth,

that id die right now,

without you



(Chorus x2)

I cut to bleed,

and I bleed to see,

to see the things,

that are wrong with me



But you dont know,

how i feel,

with painful emotions,

so unreal



I need to have you,

in my arms,

I need to feel you,

work your charms



(Chorus x2)

I cut to bleed,

and I bleed to see,

to see the things,

that are wrong with me



Yeah with me...with me...WITH ME.



- By Seth Ludwig

When hell gets tired and full of damned...

then it will use the next best thing.



Earth.



When death gets weak and tires of its job...

then it will assign the deed to the next best thing.



Love.



When people have pain and hate the source...

they will all throw the blame to the next best thing.



You.



-Seth Ludwig

Broken hearts

Im dying...slow and steady.

My heart crumbles, my mind cracks.

My emotions grow too heavy.



Is death all that its made out to be?

I do not fear death...

But I will not let it take me...



Not yet...

Time moves on...and Im lost in the past.

Present constantly changing

My world moves too fast.



I need to feel again,

to feel a touch...

to hold someone in my arms...



My heart is breaking...

full of emotion

that it cant release...



Thoughts runnning through my head...

I envy those that are dead.



They have peace,

feel no pain.

Care not of mistakes

or of efforts made in vain.



I surrender. Take me prisoner, hold me in your chains, throw away the key. Keep and destroy me.



-Seth Ludwig

Mutilated



I use the blade,

to release my fears,

release my problems,

and my bloody tears.



My bitter emotions,

expressed by the scars,

both ugly and horrible,

that cover my arms.



I take comfort,

in the sting of a knife,

such a simple thing,

that could end my life.



Why do i cut,

until the pain is too great?



Love mutilated,

and replaced with hate.





- By Seth Ludwig

Autumn's Suicide



Listen to the painful cries,

as the wind screams through the trees.



Numbing cold and suicide,

Dead and fallen leaves,



Jagged knives,

of ice and snow,



Cut the life,

from the ancient oak,



Willow's wither,

and roses die,



Cursing mournfully,

at the Autumn sky.



Winter draws near,

and kills all hope,

of the sweet summer bliss,



Nature's essence,

suicide,

both grant death a kiss.



By Seth Ludwig

( a dear friend of mine)